Pancreatic and liver cancer

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Diagnosed today. I can’t believe it. I thought I had gallstones. The liver tumour is already 7cm, I can’t even remember what the pancreatic one was, it’s on the head of the pancreas. They did more CT scans to see further spread but I don’t have those results yet.
I just am in a blur.
My pain has been getting really bad the last few days and I’m worried this is it. I will have a meeting probably next week to discuss the plan for treatment -if any.

I’m not ready. I’m 45. I have a son and a lovely husband. I have elderly parents.

I’ve gone into hyper organisation mode. It’s madness really, but tonight I bought birthday cards for my son, husband and mum for the next 4 years. I’ve been transferring money to different accounts to make it more accessible. I’ve emailed my son’s school, I’ve started writing to do lists.

My mum is flying in on Friday and will stay with me. I’m just so devastated and so sorry for my poor son and husband. I cannot believe this.

I’m still thinking of you Pamela and wishing you a comfortable night and I hope you manage to get home tomorrow. Love from Marie in South Wales x

It's funny how a message from a woman I never met can bring me to tears

Dear Pamela, I'm pleased to read you are escaping! A night or two at home will lift your spirits.
I sincerely hope they get organised with a stent and a better treatment plan.
Wishing Kerr well as he looks after you and so much strength to your dear Jacob. Your love shines out from your words. I'm sure they feel it more than you know.

xxx

I'm so glad you're getting home Pamela and sorry to hear you have had such a tough few days. Hope you can relax in the bath and enjoy and absorb all the love around you. Thinking of Jacob and Kerr as they support you. Sending lots of love and good wishes xxx

I posted much earlier in the thread Pamela but I have followed all your posts.
Like many others I just want to send you lots of love and strength. Whenever I come off the thread I say a prayer for you, just wishing life would get easier and kinder ♥️

I hate how long you've been in limbo, desperate to know which way to look. I just hope you can get some answers and direction soon. This is no way to be treated ♥️

Thinking of you all xx

Sending much love to you Pamela and to Kerr and Jacob from the Scottish Borders. I hope you are soon back home together.

Pamela, I’ve also been following since the start (your previous thread). I don’t know what to add other than echo all the other supportive messages here. I’m so glad you will be going home. Sending you love from Canada.

Another one here that's followed from your first post and felt all your emotions and worry as you've posted, I think about how you're getting on daily. I'm a similar age with a dc only slightly younger and can only imagine how hard this all is. I hope we continue to see your posts for a long time to come and you improve in how you're feeling as a plan comes into place, enjoy your time at home tomorrow with your family.

Pamela, my thoughts and prayers are with you, all for you, and Kerr, Jacob, and your family. Much love and hope.

Pamela, I’m not a religious person, I’m not sure if I’ve ever believed but oh I’m praying for you now. I really am. it’s so cruel and unfair that you’re going through this. I do hope that Friday brings some kind of positive plan and you’re well enough for whatever treatment they can offer you. I wish there were more comforting words i could say, but I’m hoping that God - in whatever form that takes - is going to answer the prayers of so many of us on this thread.

im glad you’re getting to go home, I hope it gives you comfort and strength.

Dear Pamela, sending you strength and healing and I will pray for you and your family.

Pamela, Kerr, Jacob - I'm Jennie from Birmingham. I am so sorry for your pain - mental and physical and wish you comfort.

I wish I knew you properly as you sound absolutely amazing. Your love for your family and theirs for you shines through all of these messages. And you are so brave, even if you dont feel it always.

Can't wait to hear you are safely home Pamela 🤗 x

Dear Pamela, Kerr and Jacob. I can't add anything that hasn't already been said by all these other wonderful people on Mumsnet but you and your family are incredible and I'm sending healing thoughts, prayers and light to you. Juliette in Sussex

Great news that you're going home tomorrow!

I'm praying for you, Kerr and Jacob - may God hold your precious family in the palm of his hand, and send his angels to be with you throughout this journey.

Home, family - it comes down to this when times are so tough. I hope you feel the real and virtual love around you.

Since the start of your thread you have been in my thoughts and prayers x

Sending you loads of hugs and love. Thinking about you xx

Dear Pamela
I have been reading your posts from the very beginning but couldn't post (password problems). Now that I can post, I find myself lost for words. But suffice to say, I think of you every day. I'm happy to hear you can go home tomorrow. Enjoy your own bed, your family and the comforts of home.
Sending much love from a village near York.

You must be so pleased to be going home tomorrow Pamela to familiar surroundings and especially to your loved ones.
Everyone in this group is here for you around the clock.
Gina in Portsmouth

I check this thread every night to see if you have added an update. Pleased to hear you get to go home tomorrow. Fingers crossed you can update us all on Friday (I hope you hear on Friday) about what they plan to do after the MDT. I am Sarah by the way

Love the fact you mentioned your name as way of introduction. I shall do the same. I am Laura. Then she can read posts and associate names to each post.

Delighted you're going home Pamela. It will fortify you. All the familiar smells and sounds will act like a balm to your soul. Think of you everyday ❤️. Anne (West Cork)

I've been keeping you, Kerr and Jacob in my prayers. I hope that going home tomorrow will give you some strength (and decent food!) I have such compassion for you, and ill besending prayers and good vibes from across the ocean.

Hi Pamela, my middle name’s Pamela. I’m so pleased you’re going home tomorrow and I hope you really enjoy your bath. Good luck for your operation in Belfast.

I'm glad they've let you go home tomorrow Nothing like your own bed surrounded by the love of your Kerr and Jacob
Sending soothing thoughts and love Judith