Pancreatic and liver cancer

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Diagnosed today. I can’t believe it. I thought I had gallstones. The liver tumour is already 7cm, I can’t even remember what the pancreatic one was, it’s on the head of the pancreas. They did more CT scans to see further spread but I don’t have those results yet.
I just am in a blur.
My pain has been getting really bad the last few days and I’m worried this is it. I will have a meeting probably next week to discuss the plan for treatment -if any.

I’m not ready. I’m 45. I have a son and a lovely husband. I have elderly parents.

I’ve gone into hyper organisation mode. It’s madness really, but tonight I bought birthday cards for my son, husband and mum for the next 4 years. I’ve been transferring money to different accounts to make it more accessible. I’ve emailed my son’s school, I’ve started writing to do lists.

My mum is flying in on Friday and will stay with me. I’m just so devastated and so sorry for my poor son and husband. I cannot believe this.

You have a beautiful family Pamela. I hope you get to spend much more time with them.
I would acknowledge though that sometimes life is really shit and it’s ok to say so.

Sending good wishes and hugs to you, Kerr, Jacob and your family. X

Lovely to put a face to the writing Pamela. Sending you and your lovely family love and strength. You are so incredibly brave. Xx

Dear Pamela, sending love to you and your beautiful family. xx

Sending all my love and prayers for some better times for you all xxxxxxx

I have found this thread. I’m so sorry for what you are going through. You sound like the most amazing mum and wife. I don’t have any knowledge about this in order to give you advice but I just wanted to send my love 💕.

I have just found your thread, I am so sorry you are going through this. Sending much love to you and your lovely family 💐❤

Pamela

The photos really do glow with love - everyone's smiles are so huge :)

I hope Tuesday brings some kind of plan that will make a difference to your pain and prognosis. Sending you love and resilience x

Sending love to you all xxx

Your writing is so beautiful, I'm sending thoughts and prayers Pamela. My DH has cancer. it's a hard road. Sending love.

Dear Pamela - or Kerr if Pamela is not feeling up to it - the thread is going to run out very soon, and we all would like to continue to send messages of love and support (if Pamela wants them to continue). So you'll need to make a new thread soon. If you can link it in the end of this one, it'll help people find you.
Huge love to you all. 💗

Pamela your story has touched me and I'm sure many others. My Dad had bladder cancer and had a similar story to yours. He got through it and is now in remission, much to everyone's suprise. Please keep fighting, we are all behind you. You and your lovely family are all in my thoughts xxx

So incredibly sorry. Sending you all good wishes.

Hi Pamela,

First of all sending lots of love to you and your family.

Your story is almost identical to my husbands, he went into hospital on boxing day of last year in severe pain, bright yellow skin and eyes, dark urine and pale poo, a few days later we had a diagnosis of bile duct cancer with mets to lung and omentum and nodal disease, it completely wrecked us, we have a 10 year old son.

He spent the following three weeks in hospital with iv antibiotics, drips, scans, ect, and lost so much weight and was so weak we thought we were going to lose him.

Mid January he had a biliary stent done (painless) and within days looked and felt alot better.

His chemo was delayed and he didnt start it until late February, its been a tough road and alot of juggling with painkillers, the chemo really helped with the pain, but earlier this month he had a break off chemo and we enjoyed a wonderful holiday in Turkey as a family.

He has two more cycles of his current chemo left and his MDT are already discussing a 2nd line treatment of immunotherapy to try and keep the cancer stable.

I have attached screenshots of his blood liver results to show what a mess he was in and how things have improved.

What I am trying to say, is my husband was very much at the point you are now and has improved and at the moment is doing well and making wonderful memories, hang in there lass, you have got this!

Much love
Eve

Dear Pamela, beautiful pictures of you and your family, sending so much love and wishes that somehow you get better x

Thread is nearly full now.

If you are reading this Pamela you or a member of your family might like to open a follow on thread. We are all rooting for you, and I am sure we all want to continue to support you on your journey. x

New to this thread. Wishing you the absolute best ❤️

Pamela, Thank you for sharing your beautiful photos.
I hope the stent brings you relief, and that you can start chemo soon. Rooting for you xx

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Sending all the ❤your way and big, positive healing thoughts. You have a beautiful family, the happiness is radiating in those photos. x

Another who found this today
Sending you love and hoping things start to get better soon ❤️

Oh Pamela I've read this with tears in my eyes!! I really hope they start the treatment soon and you and your wee family will be in my prayers.

I live in Antrim so if you are ever admitted to the Area hospital again and need a friendly face to come visit or being anything, PM me. I would be so happy to help you x

Pamela, I'm glad you're at home now 🏡💕

get Kerr onto pain relief, there's no need for you to be in pain!

Donyou have a downstairs toilet? If so, can the boys set you up a bed downstairs so you do have to do the stairs?!

Then try to eat a little & keep drinking, task Jacob with finding good comedy!! I'm more your Mums age (54) & love rewatching the Good Life, but may not be your thing.

You're absolutely NOT 'going' yet, hopefully the stent isn't too far away & it will make you feel a million times better. No matter how difficult the journey sounds to get there, you have to force yourself to do it!

Task Jacob (he needs to be busy!!) with finding liver cleansing diets and try to eat the 'good things'

Your family look lovely, thank you for sharing your photos. If you were to be knocked over by a bus tomorrow, THATS how they'd remember you!!!

your own bed, your own bathroom, your family. Lean into that today!!

much love & strength as always
Katie
Hampshire
xx

This thread is going to fill up shortly but I was here from your thread before you got the diagnosis and I just wanted to say I wish you all the very best and to say look at Bendys husbands story. I hope the same happens for you Pamela and your lovely family x

Just sending love and hope to you. So many of us on here are angry about the unbelievable delays you have suffered. Please don’t waste any of your own energy on that, we have it covered. Just concentrate on each minute, hour and day.

Im not religious but I do most sincerely wish you get that stent in asap and then get onto chemo.

Peace to you.

Beautiful photos of you and your family . Thinking of you xx