Pancreatic and liver cancer

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Diagnosed today. I can’t believe it. I thought I had gallstones. The liver tumour is already 7cm, I can’t even remember what the pancreatic one was, it’s on the head of the pancreas. They did more CT scans to see further spread but I don’t have those results yet.
I just am in a blur.
My pain has been getting really bad the last few days and I’m worried this is it. I will have a meeting probably next week to discuss the plan for treatment -if any.

I’m not ready. I’m 45. I have a son and a lovely husband. I have elderly parents.

I’ve gone into hyper organisation mode. It’s madness really, but tonight I bought birthday cards for my son, husband and mum for the next 4 years. I’ve been transferring money to different accounts to make it more accessible. I’ve emailed my son’s school, I’ve started writing to do lists.

My mum is flying in on Friday and will stay with me. I’m just so devastated and so sorry for my poor son and husband. I cannot believe this.

Pamela, I’m praying you get some ease from your pain and that helps the anxiety you feel. You are having a really rough time but remember hundreds of ladies are rooting & praying for you. Kate xx

Sending love Pamela. We're all thinking of you xx

All will be well and all will be well and all manner of things will be well - Julian of Norwich

Morning Pamela. You are not alone - we are all thinking of you and sending you (gentle) hugs xx

Dear Pamela I'm so sorry things are so horrible 😞 I really hope you have some caring staff around you helping manage your symptoms and I hope you get home soon. Sending you and yours such love x ❤️ 🤗

Sending my love and hoping you get help today that enables you to be home asap.❤

Pamela, thinking of you and praying all is ok for you, big hugs, staying in hospital is never easy and hope you get to go home
Soon

Every day I am refreshing this thread to see your updates. I am crying here for you now. I'm so sorry it has come to this Pamela. Life is really a bugger sometimes. Your darling boys. You are a good soul, that's clear to see. You have dealt with all of this with dignity and kindness and stoicism. We all see you and we feel what you are going through deep in our bones.

I am sending you my love. I am picturing where you are and all you are all having to endure.

I hope the pain gets under control and you can be at peace at home so soon. Xx

Sending love ❤

Love coming from here too Pamela. We're with you and your family every step.

I’m so sorry that you’re still not comfortable and pain free. I feel such sadness and despair for you but optimistic that things can improve and you can begin treatment.

I so hope you are able to be at home with your family soon. Sending love and positivity.

Oh Pamela I am so sorry to hear your update. I am thinking of you and praying for you and your family

Dear Pamela, I'm sorry to read your update, I hope you're feeling more comfortable today. This is my first post but just wanted you to know I've been behind you from the beginning, thinking of you a lot, praying for you and your family. Joanne in Essex xx

Sending you strength and love dear Pamela ❤

Dear Pamela am thinking of you and your Husband and Son . I desperately hope that your pain is more under control and the staff are looking after you well . Sending ((hugs)) Xx

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Sending you love and strength Pamela. You are coping so gracefully. I'm also praying for you ❤️ x

Sending love and hugs to you Pamela 💕xxx

Dear Pamela,

I really hope you get your wishes and you feel more comfortable very soon.

Lots of love and strength xxx

Thinking of you, dear heart. I hope that your pain is under better control now, and you’re being cared for beautifully. Ask about going home, and see what they say. Wherever you are, there are so many here who are sending loving thoughts, and keeping you in their prayers. Gentle hugs, my darling.

sending you lots of love and strength Pamela xxx

Oh Pamela, I'm so sorry to hear that you're suffering so much. Hope you have had some rest and relief since your last post,
Sending you all my love and hope you get to go home soon xxx

Sending all my love Pamela and family
You are simply amazing x

Sorry to hear you're feeling worse today Pamela. I really hope they get your pain and sickness under control so you can begin to feel better. My thoughts are with you every day.