Pancreatic and liver cancer

[WilsonMilson]

Diagnosed today. I can’t believe it. I thought I had gallstones. The liver tumour is already 7cm, I can’t even remember what the pancreatic one was, it’s on the head of the pancreas. They did more CT scans to see further spread but I don’t have those results yet.
I just am in a blur.
My pain has been getting really bad the last few days and I’m worried this is it. I will have a meeting probably next week to discuss the plan for treatment -if any.

I’m not ready. I’m 45. I have a son and a lovely husband. I have elderly parents.

I’ve gone into hyper organisation mode. It’s madness really, but tonight I bought birthday cards for my son, husband and mum for the next 4 years. I’ve been transferring money to different accounts to make it more accessible. I’ve emailed my son’s school, I’ve started writing to do lists.

My mum is flying in on Friday and will stay with me. I’m just so devastated and so sorry for my poor son and husband. I cannot believe this.

I'm also not Catholic, though I am a believer, and I said day one of the prayer to St Peregrine for you today. Tomorrow I'll say it inserting Pamela rather than Wilson 😊 ♥️

Pamela thinking of you. I am a very infrequent prayer but will say one for you.

Best wishes to you and your family Pamela. I hope that you are being well looked after

@WilsonMilson Yes. I had a stent.

I'm glad you're in hospital, Pamela. It's the right place for now, so that you can have a longer time at home. I'm praying for you and I hope they can get on top of your symptoms quickly.

Hi Pamela
It's so nice to know your name. I wish I had the bravery to share mine on here.
Hoping you are comfortable and treated asap.
I have spent long periods in hospital and couldn't wait to get home but I did get used to it and they did save my life so it was worth it!

Another one reading every day. Sending you much strength Pamela. ❤️

I am a lapsed and terrible Catholic, but I will say a prayer for you, Pamela. I’ll pray they can sort this bile duct issue out and get you on treatment.

Oh Pamela I'm so sorry you are going through this. Sending you my thoughts and prayers xxxx

So sorry you are now in hospital Pamela and hope you will be home as quickly as possible. Have been thinking of you and send a virtual hug xxx

My thoughts and prayers for you and your family, Pamela 💐❤

Praying for you Pamela

All this must be devastating for you Pamela, but you are so brave. Praying for you. ✝️

So sorry to read your update, hope you’re more comfortable soon.

@WilsonMilson sending you another hug. I'm sorry to read you're in hospital and I hope you get sorted out while you're in there.

Thinking of you Pamela. Sending you every good vibe I have to get you feeling better and back home x

I’ve been wanting to ask if you would share your name with us so it’s lovely to learn what it is.

Wishing you a comfortable and speedy stay in hospital, I am sure they will rapidly get your current issues under control and you’ll be home before you know it. Stay brave and keep positive just like you do x

with every good wish
S.

x

Hi not in the slightest religious but sending healing vibes from mother nature out to you, take care and I hope they can make you more comfortable.

Hi Pamela, I've been following your thread and you have very much been in the thoughts of this stranger. I'm sorry to hear you're in hospital and I really hope you can get home very soon. Sending lots of love and best wishes to you.

Pamela you are in my thoughts daily and I'm hoping they unblock you quickly so that you feel better soon. It's probably why you've been feeling so rubbish this week. I hope they find you a bed soon and that you are more comfortable once in it and that you get the best pain relief possible so you can sleep. If you're allowed to eat once you're feeling up to it then get your husband or lovely son to bring you that cake! Or any other food that you might like because we all know that hospital food is not the best. Whatever home comforts you can have, ask for

Pamela hope you now have a bed, blockage being treated and you're more comfortable. Thinking of you

Pamela, I'm also going to start saying the novena for you. Hope you got some relief from the current situation.

Dear Pamela, so many people are thinking of you and sending you love and prayers. You're in my thoughts daily. All love to you x

My DM had a stent put in and it brought great relief to the bile symptoms connected to her cancer (including that yellow look). I hope you get some action swiftly.

The amount of love on this thread is giving me so much strength. I can’t thank you all enough. I’m in a bed and I’m hooked up to IV antibiotics, gentimicin I think. Had a failed cannula attempt so a bit of a pin cushion, managed eventually. The doctors keep calling my blood tests and liver tests deranged which really epitomises this whole situation as it feels entirely deranged.

I’m allowed to eat this evening which was initially a bit of a relief as I hadn’t had anything since morning, don’t have an appetite but felt a bit shaky with hunger. Then it arrived and looked more like a bush tucker trial - I’m sure the cauliflower had been boiling since lunchtime! Anyway, last of my worries, I shovelled I’m as much as I could manage, which isn’t really much but I don’t have much capacity at the moment due to that bloody tumour taking up most of my abdominal space. The nurses are so lovely, just angels. DH was allowed to stay and the nurses got some food for him too as he was starving. He has to go at 9pm which I’m dreading a bit, I’m a bit of a cling on right now.

DS‘s school had a development day today, so he was off and was in town with his girlfriend, I thought it best to keep the plans. He’s been texting me lots and said he bought me a present in town that he hopes will keep me occupied in hospital. So sweet. His girlfriend’s parents are so kind, they have fed him tonight and are extremely supportive, can’t do enough for him. I’m very lucky with the support around me that I have.

So, let’s see what the antibiotics do and see what tomorrow brings. Not feeling any different yet. Have had one IV infusion and apparently another before bed - not expecting miracles, but hoping things change for the better a bit. Think I will be scanned tomorrow. Also I’m on limited water, stupid me has been drinking water like it’s going out of fashion (bottles and bottles a day which I thought was helpful) and now all my salts are off (deranged no doubt). So I’m on 1.5 litres water a day which seems like nothing.

Gosh, it’s so hot in here. But then I’m a sweaty mess anyway. Wish I could open a window but they don’t seem to open. DH has ordered a handheld fan for me from Amazon which arrives tomorrow, so hopefully that helps a bit. May update more while I’m in here, just writing seems to help the anxiety a bit. Might ramble, bear with me!