My son may be dying

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Just that.

He has cancer, they have not been able to control it.

They have given him one last chemotherapy to see if it can turn a corner but his body may not be able to tolerate it and it may not work.

We have been told to prepare ourselves for him to deteriorate suddenly.

My husband can't be with us because my son also has Coronavirus so we are in isolation and he is with our other son.

Thinking of you and your strong boy op. Sending love to you and your family 💐

Thinking of you 💐

Another broken night's sleep. DH is now allowed to swap over for the night but dS has made me promise not to leave him. I don't feel I could sleep anywhere else at the moment.

I am thinking of you now and will continue to - as will many of us here on Mumsnet, and around you in RL I am sure.
We are holding you in mind as you hold your brave son. You sound like you have the most wonderful relationship and he knows how deeply loved he is. You're in my thoughts.

I feel so sad for you and your precious son. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Praying for you all and sending lots of virtual hugs x

Me too op.

It's all just too too hard. How on earth can I imagine being without him

Don't. Don't imagine life without him. It won't change anything and is just 'too much' to think about. It's hard to stop your brain 'going there' but try x

Stay with him, it'll be better for both of you. Hopefully they'll let DH stay/visit as well.

It's a bloody huge & incredibly unfair thing your family is going through, no words can change that, but know we are all sending you love & strength xx

I would be the same. I guess it's a bit like when they were babies - you grab bits of sleep as & when you can. Sending every positive vibe I can produce your way OP x

I would totally be the same too- would be right there. Still thinking of you loads 💐

How was today alone?

I hope today has brought some respite for you both, even if briefly. I am sorry it is so heartbreaking and hope there is some small step forwards. The strength of your love is blinding, OP. Holding you all in our hearts.

I am so sorry that you are enduring this and that your beautiful boy is too. There aren't any words ut i pray you find some comfort in knowing that you are held close in the hearts of the Mumsnetters on this thread. Xxx

A bit of light today. They are still planning on going ahead with the treatment tomorrow.

It is high risk and certainly DS will be in ICU with extreme side effects but it is still a hope that he can be cured - however small.

We can cling to that for now.

You brave, strong lady. I will hold you in my heart and send up prayers for you. You're the best Mum he could hope for, you're doing brilliantly. ❤️

That's a little chink of light alone

Sending you & DS luck for tomorrow 😘

All of us with sons are clinging on with you.

Sending you and your family so much love x

Sending love to you all and especially DS. I hope that the new treatment is successful and side affects aren't too horrible for DS. x

Thinking of you and the ordeal your ds faces tomorrow.

Thinking of you and your brave boy. I hope everything goes ok for him. I've been there in the hospital with a very poorly DS 10 years ago and know how bloody hard it is when you have others at home that you also need to see. Just keep talking and talking, to anyone and everyone. I hope to god it all goes well for him.

Life is so unbelievably cruel. I'm so sorry , I've got everything crossed for you and your DS.

You and your family are in my thoughts. x

Good luck tomorrow and I hope you all have a restful night. Keeping you in my thoughts

My heart goes out to you. Sending you the strength to get through this. Wishing you both a positive outcome.