Fuck it all, my cancer has spread

[elportodelgato]

Hoping someone is out there similarly unable to sleep.

I had breast cancer in 2014, found out it had spread to my bones last October & now (yesterday) was told I have small tumours in both lung and liver.

I'm waiting to find out what my options are but the stupid thing is that I feel COMPLETELY FINE.

My oncologist has been trying to give me some positives, but it all seems completely bloody hopeless tbh. My DH & I celebrated 10yrs of marriage this year and my darling DC are just 6 and 9

Not sure what I'm asking here more than a hand hold tbh. I'm exhausted but I can't sleep.

I am so sorry to hear that and send lots of 💜💜💜💜

Yes, also: hot baths, nice food, cuddling the cat, watching Strictly
Thanks you lot, this is really working

I'm so sorry. Yes you need to look after yourself and do whatever you need to do. Xxx

I would suggest truly spending the weekend doing exactly what you want! Stuff the house work. Just live in the moment with your babies and DH.

Life is an utter bastard. I'm sorry, wishing you nothing but the best with your treatment

Bastard cancer.

I'm here to hand hold now and through the weekend. I wish I could say something profound and comforting but I'm at a loss. However, in line with your Dr, I'm also withholding permission for any activities involving throwing yourself under heavy vehicles!

If time and money were of no consequence, what would your ultimate weekend involve?

Eating snack of choice and drinking wine whilst watching strictly.

Sorry to hear OP, I work with breast cancer patients so dm if you need any advice - there are still plenty of treatment options

Fight it girl!

Enjoy this weekend with your family, chill and be kind to yourself... then Monday get your plan into action and get yourself better.

We're all with you! 😘

Hugs and a handhold. Wishing you the very best with your new treatment plan.

Ultimate weekend would be: early morning runs with the kids on their bikes, roast dinner with good friends, long soak in the bath listening to music, chatting with DH, reading... most of this can be achieved tomorrow I think. So I'll just grab the day and try to do my best. As my lovely mate said yesterday when she peeled me off the floor: 'just baby steps now'

Life really is a shitter sometimes, hand holding and hugs sent to you x

Stopyourhavering

What sort of work do you do with cancer patients and what is your experience of these sort of mets?
I was only diagnosed with my bone mets because I was sooooo stressed and worried that my onc agreed to scan me. But I had no symptoms, and still don't have any. I'm aware that if I hadn't collapsed on my oncologist last autumn then I could very well have no idea that there is anything wrong as I really feel so well.

I have to go now and will check in and say hi later!
Have to peel children out of bed for school.

Here to hand hold and offer

My mum has just been diagnosed with breast cancer for the second time, cancer is a fucking shit.

Have a weekend doing whatever the hell you want. Slob around, go for a walk, do whatever and go wherever your mood takes you. Don’t focus on Monday but remember that’s your next goal, then you can plan from there and fight this motherfucker.

My Mum has mets in lymph and lungs, diagnosed with breast cancer in March this year. Her only "something odd" was a swelling arm a year before. She's on a tablet a day, seems to be working, I think tireder than she was before but her oncologist is like yours - no reason to not do all the things you normally do, but just be that bit kinder to yourself.

I'm sorry you've had bad news Elporto, but I agree with previous posters - there is not a road or a bus available for you. Be kind to yourself and see how many of those weekend treats you can fit in.

OP that sounds like a perfect weekend. However, I'm curious to find out if your DC co-operate. Whenever I plan a lovely, wholesome family day out which seems achievable by everyone else well in adverts and on FB my DC turn into little brats and bicker and annoy each other & me all day. Of course, if we go to a theme park, they are angelic.

You guys are lovely
Surprisingly managed another hour of sleep !! but time to get up now - sun is shining & I get to see my DH and DC today

Enjoy your day doing exactly what you want. Sunny sounds good . Pretty grim weather here .

So sorry you have had such bad news. Please try to keep in mind tag if the oncologist is being positive that is a very good sign. Although I’m sure that doesn’t help it be any less scary

Be kind to yourself OP.

I have a close friend who is in a very similar situation to you. She says the way she finds to cope is just one day at a time. Just focusing on what she can do that day and reminding herself that she is still here, still part of her children’s lives, still laughing etc etc. She says she doesn’t look too far ahead as it is overwhelming. Just get through each day and focus on whatever positive, however small. Sending you love

*that

What horrible news for you to have to hear Elport. Sending strength, prayers and positive thoughts

Hope you and your dc can have a lovely weekend together

Really sorry to read this OP. Sending love ❤️ and strength 🌹🌹🌹

I'm sorry Elport that's really shit

My mam was diagnosed 2 years ago, she still has some of my siblings at home but not as young as your DC.

All my family fell to bits, I was just so fucking angry so was my mam. I still am now I hate cancer. Horrible bastarding thing it is.