Dh diagnosed with lymphoma last night

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i think exhaustion from crying knocked me to sleep last night but now I'm wide awake and my headache won't go.

Feels like it's a nightmare, first doctor said gastritis back in jan, then recently possibly Crohn's disease, and yesterday dh got this diagnosis after further scans etc,

We're waiting for more tests to find out exactly what we're dealing with.

I'm so worried. My mind is racing like crazy and I can't help thinking the worst. We're renovating our first home at the moment and due to move in during the summer hols, dh has a business that I'm now wondering how will manage, and with moving I'm going to be alone dealing with this. That sounds selfish I know and isn't my intention, I'm just aware of how strong I need to be for dh and our children and I'm terrified of what might be around the corner and how il cope. I'm nc with my family.

I just can't believe this is happening. Dh is 38. Any hand holding would be really appreciated right now, sorry for rambling.

Hi word thanks for your reply. Feels like I just want a few days completely by myself tbh. Like I've been through this but I'm still being needed left right and centre, and I know that's the normal day to day stuff eg "muuuuuuum dd just hit me/where's my p.e kit/what's for tea" etc Like I've not had a 'gap' in between then and now to really get over it? I'm not even sure that's possible. Il go to my running group tonight which I really enjoy but il still come home to bloody mayhem. Might just keep running tonight You know that 'if I don't laugh il cry' thing? Think I'm there.

That sounds exhausting and that you are touched / noised out.

Is it at all possible that you could plan a (long) weekend away in a few weeks to try and start your own recovery?

I think that's a good idea, il see what I can think of within budget. I feel better today, Dh is going to have the kids tomorrow so I can have a few hours and then hopefully a nice day together on Sunday.

Thanks very much for your replies, I guess these wobbles are to be expected occasionally.