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Not a good day. leukaemia diagnosis.

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biscuitsandbandages · 14/04/2014 03:44

When I woke up this morning I was a mum of 3 with an 8 week old baby.

Now im a cancer patient on thr coronary care ward.

This cannot be happening to me.

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StillProcrastinating · 23/04/2014 12:44

Btw, I think my recent experience just helps me to realise how little I can understand what you are going through. Maybe I am uniquely bad at putting myself in someone else's shoes though ;-).

(Trying, Not very eloquently, to say, I don't pretend to have a clue how you must feel. I can't begin to imagine. But I do appreciate that you just find yourself putting one foot in front of the other, because you have no other choice but to keep going).

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biscuitsandbandages · 23/04/2014 13:10

Thank you everyone. I have wifi and a bright yellow drip, I've started my crotchet blanket and the clinical psychologist was wonderful.

I have mindful breathing homework and she coming again in Friday.
I am as prepared for this as I can be.
I have faith in my family's ability to come through this whatever happens.
The lumbar puncture I was dreading is not to feared. It is simply a way to open a door to get the chemo in to my spinal fluid and that is one step nearer to going home.

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fidelineish · 23/04/2014 13:24

Glad the psychologist was so good. Who knew that chemo was bright yellow!?

Lumbar puncture was ok? I have to have one soon (blatant self-interest). They get a bad press then?

Glad you are getting settled in and have things to do Flowers

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biscuitsandbandages · 23/04/2014 16:11

I haven't had it yet but will report back if mine is before yours :-) I'm working on positive imagery.

The yellow drip is an anti fungal to help prevent infections. My chemo is red and then a little clear one. Tizer and lemonade :-)

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Mignonette · 23/04/2014 16:21

I have had three lumbar punctures in my life and felt not a thing with any of them, well once i had a slight twinge on my left leg which is normal. It made me laugh because it felt so funny.

LP's get all kinds of horror stories told about them. Just wanted to offer another side.

pigsinmud · 23/04/2014 16:22

Tizer - do they still make that? Haven't heard it mentioned on years! Well done op. Keep going with the positivity.

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biscuitsandbandages · 23/04/2014 17:44

That's really good to know mignonette, thank you

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fidelineish · 23/04/2014 17:47

Yes Mignonette it is. Other people have said similar, so I am now officially reassured Smile

CiderwithBuda · 23/04/2014 17:55

Another well wisher here. You are doing brilliantly.

And isn't MN wonderful? Always someone around for a chat. And usually someone who knows exactly what you are going through.

riskit4abiskit · 23/04/2014 18:47

Can we see a picture of your crocheting when finished?

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biscuitsandbandages · 23/04/2014 18:48

Of course.... And my baby if i can work out how. Might be a while though... I'm not planning on dying and this blanket is going to be massive when I'm done! We will all snuggle under it in February and watch the rain out of the windows while baby girl opens her birthday presents :-)

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Mignonette · 23/04/2014 19:16

Happy to hear you both feel somewhat reassured.

Much love to you Flowers

deserttrek · 23/04/2014 19:48

Evening Biscuits Smile

Just be prepared that, contrary to what you have just decided will happen a year from now, it might not actually rain on baby girl's first birthday.

The weather is (almost) uncontrollable.

All else looking on target.

Can't wait to see the blanket.....!

fidelineish · 23/04/2014 20:05

If she wants rain, I'm sure rain can be arranged Wink

CorporateRockWhore · 23/04/2014 20:18

Hi biscuits I've been keeping an eye on your thread but haven't been able to post until now.

You seem to be getting ready to fight. That's good!

I don't have words of wisdom, I'm sorry. But I give a good cyber-hug.

Here you go ((( )))

gordonpym · 23/04/2014 20:26

Absolutely, we will join forces to have rain on that day. Even if it takes me climbing on your roof with a hose. Or maybe we could make a call to the local fire brigade and just ask.
Just imagine, not only will she get rain, but lights and sounds as well !

deserttrek · 23/04/2014 20:49

Biscuits

I am humbled crumbled under the strength of you and others here tonight.

Sleep well.

BehindLockNumberNine · 23/04/2014 21:18

Biscuits, I am almost whooping out loud with joy at how strong and determined you sound.

I am in awe of you.

You are fabulous, you can and you will do this!!

Stay stale xx

Only1scoop · 23/04/2014 21:36

Biscuits....just checking in and sending you a night night hugga....

I bought chocolate Hob Nobs today thinking of you....have only eaten....erm .....well....urrrr Confused

IwishIwasmoreorganised · 23/04/2014 21:54

Good going biscuits.

Xxxx

saffronwblue · 23/04/2014 22:05

Biscuits, enjoy your crocheting. You rock!

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TelephoneTree · 23/04/2014 22:25

Hello, crikey - have just read this whole thread and bloody hell - what a horrible shock for you BUT I think you rock! You're absolutely in the right hands and everyone is right about everything. Just rememebr that this is a blip in time….this hell you're going through will seem different later on when you're holding all your kids AT HOME and feeling well again!

RockPaperScissorsLizardSpock · 23/04/2014 22:29

I'm reading your posts and others with a smile tonight Smile

Just wanted to say goodnight x