@Sarahk20000 I'm so sorry that your transfer didn't work out this time. That's incredibly disappointing, when you've managed to produce such good embryos. You handle these blows with real grace I must say, I admire your attitude. It is hard to know what to do next, but give yourself some time. I have also found it to tough to balance sticking with your clinic that knows your history, and wondering if you'd have a different experience elsehwere. ARGC is the clinic of last resort for many people, and it often works. They just weren't an option for me since with high FSH they wouldn't put me on stims.
Re donor eggs: I don't think it's selfish at all! No more selfish than bringing a genetic child into the world that otherwise wouldn't exist. It's interesting the research you've done @Dochas12111 which suggests that the best thing now for the child is to be completely open about it. I don't think donor eggs are really an option for us, my DH isn't keen, but if we did consider it, I would want to keep it private to our family as well, since we have a son and I wouldn't want people to treat the other child differently, or the child to feel less like ours. But obviously you have to be honest with the child at some point. One of my friends recently found out in her late 30s her father was a sperm donor, and she wasn't rattled by it. But I guess that was the norm back then, to keep it private.
As for me, it's been a tough week since my husband had a sobering meeting with Dr Ramsay on Monday, who basically said that if his DNA frag doesn't come down, IVF is unlikely to work for us, and we'd be better off hoping it happens naturally. He's getting the comet test again, and we're praying it's improved, and also being checked for bacterial infection. Then we spoke to our CRGH consultant yesterday, who recommends doing the same thing again - several rounds of embryo banking and GPS. Part of me wonders if we should just do fresh transfers next time, since we didn't even manage to get a full blastocyst in two rounds (only early blasts that coudln't be biopsied). But he said if I then miscarry, then it delays the whole process by 4-5 months. (Is that really true? You usually know in a few weeks if the pregnancy is viable... Obviously I don't want to have another miscarriage, but I just fear a process where basically we won't know for another 5 months if we have a potential shot at pregnancy.)
He also suggested I don't take norethisterone this time, since it can over-suppress the ovaries, so only estrogen priming. Has anyone else heard that? And he said we could try the flare protocol, which is the same as their standard stims, but with buserelin spray instead of cetrotide. Has anyone done the flare protocol, at CRGH or elsewhere? I googled buserelin and it describes it as down regulation, putting you in a semi-menopausal state, which made me anxious!