@IslandStars it's taken me a few days to see your update but I am really so so sorry... I imagine that walking away is the hardest blow yet, as it requires letting go of an idea and a hope that you have been pursuing so hard for so long. I don't have any words of wisdom, I'm afraid, but can only say I hope you feel that though it's far from the outcome you ever wanted, it's one you can come to live with knowing you tried all you could.
It sounds as though you have good family support which is great and I hope they're helping you through. There are definitely downsides to IVF - the emotional turmoil, your entire life being consumed by treatment and the fact that it swallows all your money to the detriment of so many other things - and I know we'd all put up with those things for a positive outcome but perhaps life will be a little lighter without those constant strains. It must be so so hard right now, I can't imagine, but I really hope that the future will work out brilliantly, even if not exactly as you planned.
@99pctpractice thank you - demoralised a good word, as is sad, frustrated, despondent! I'm waiting to see how my clinic respond and will then decide what I do next but the fact this cycle went so wrong means I'd feel things were really unresolved if I didn't try again... Sorry that you've not had a better update, it's so hard to know that egg quality is so out of our control. The hycosy sounds like a sensible move though as does the less medicated approach.
I didn't buy a package as though I now know it would've saved me a lot of money, I didn't have that chunk to spend at the start. Completely agree that each failed try really drains you. Unfortunately my family are not supportive (when I had a chemical the response was 'that's rubbish' via text and it's literally not been mentioned again since) and I do worry sometimes that internalising all the sadness and disappointment and stress is going to mean it just bursts out of me at some point.... hopefully not.