Continued chat of all things IVF, FET & to feel sane...cycle buddies August/September -

[Bluemeadowbaby]

Hey ladies ☺️

A new thread to continue the one we've maxed out from the FET cycle buddies May/June. Anyone wishing to join no matter what stage you're at we're here to support you along the way.

A little background around me - I have a little boy who's 16mo from my second IVF round in 2019. I'm just embarking (restarting after covid setback) on my first FET cycle with the embryos I have in storage in the hope for baby #2 🤞🏼
I have severe endometriosis, hydrosalpinx tubes which have been removed so my only hope is for IVF to work again. It's been a long old journey but if I can give any hope, faith and a tonne of support to anyone who needs it I'm happy to share my story, updates on my cycle and be there to have a general chin wag ☺️

We've got this! ✨ x

@Bluemeadowbaby hope pup is ok xx

Oh hope pup is ok @Bluemeadowbaby - keep us updated.

@PinkRose100 on my failed transfer I didn’t start bleeding until I stopped my meds, but it seems to vary quite a lot.

I’ve been in touch with the clinic and they’ve said it’s ok to test Friday afternoon after work so I guess I’ll do that. Freaking out. All the time. Still twinges and cramps, itchy nipples, could all be the drugs, who knows.

@Pingupp @Verbena87 thanks ladies, they're not sure what it is they think it's benign as he is well in himself so suggested having the lump removed for safe measure £600 later he's getting it done! He's my first baby, we got him when we were ttc many moons ago and is my whole world - I'll do anything for my little fur baby bless his heart. To see him growing with my little boy melts my heart, I'll do anything to make sure they stay the best of friends for many years to come ❤️

@Verbena87 yay to Friday!! Everything sounds good...I'm sure if it were the meds these things would've occurred before so here's hoping!! X

I had a scary moment today. So I have had what's called a decidual cast which I have not the frig what that means but basically I went to change my pad after the vets as I all of a sudden felt like I'd just exploded everywhere and the pad was just covered in blood and then this massive mass of what I can only describe as skin?! I panicked so much, screaming toddler and dog running around my ankles and I was like what the hell is this?!! I rang the clinic and they said it's basically the womb lining coming away too fast and more or less all or most of it has just come away possibly because of being on the norethisterone for so long. I'm still feeling a bit worried, there hasn't been anymore since and bleeding is minimal now but I've had such bad period pains the last couple days. I hate feeling like my body's out of whack, I just hope this hasn't messed my womb up for the FET cycle 😞 x

@Verbena87 well done for staying strong and waiting. I’m terrible and am already testing twice a day, I know it’s torture but I’ve tried so hard not to and failed. Currently staring at a blank test pretending I can see a line if I squint x

@Bluemeadowbaby wow, that’s a lot going on. Sounds horrific. I hope you heal quickly and perhaps it’s actually a quicker way of your body getting back to normal. x

@Pingupp have you decided when you are going to start telling people? Do you think when you get to 12 weeks he might be able to relax and enjoy it more? x

Oh goodness @PinkRose100 you have some nerve! I just can’t face seeing blank tests - would rather stumble along in denial. Although I seem to have developed a habit of googling other people’s positives at 11dp5dt (which is when my test will be), which is a special kind of madness I hadn’t experienced before 😵‍💫.

@Bluemeadowbaby glad they think it’s benign and doggo is ok in himself. Oooft to the 600 quid though! Why does life always throw in random expenses during treatment?! Decidual casts can happen normally sometimes I think - hopefully will create a lovely spring-cleaned space for your cosy lining.

@Bluemeadowbaby oh I am glad he is ok and it's not serious. We want a dog but think that is going to have to wait. My brother just got the cutest chocolate lab called Ronnie - he's just adorable. Hope you are ok after what sounds like a horrible explosion but maybe now there is a fabulous blank canvas awaiting the egg transfer when the time is right. So much stuff goes on up there during the FET's and pessaries etc - it could be a good thing?. Xx

@PinkRose100 I think once we get the NIPT results back and all us ok - we will tell people. Then it may be real for him. I bought the what to expect when expecting book so he can have a read of that too!
He's working all the hours at the moment as mega busy at work so hoping that calms down soon too so he can chill a little with me. He's working all weekend again - my busy carpenter. How is your serial testing going?? Xx

@Verbena87 how are you doing? Less than a week to test now.... hope you are keeping busy. Xx

@TheDutchess3 hopefully you won't have long to wait. Xx

@Pingupp good idea, not too long to wait now🤞.
Tests are all negative as to be expected, I’m 5 days past 5 day transfer. Taken 3 already today, I’m personally funding Bezos’s trips into space with all the Amazon ordering it doing 🙈. I woke up in the night to muscle aches all over and really swollen glands, then had some light spotting this morning. No idea how I could have got sick when I’ve been isolated for weeks apart from my trips to the clinic. I’m on an immune suppressant programme though so I am susceptible. Trying to stay possible but I think I’m already coming to the conclusion this hasn’t worked either. Ehhh! 😵‍💫🤯😫

Thanks @Pingupp - mooch round our local farmers market this morning then we’ll make a roast for tea. I am utterly floored by tiredness though: hoping this is a good sign as it is absolutely debilitating and I’ll be pissed off if it’s just side effects for no gain. I seem to have hit full hibernation mode. Must be bad because I don’t buy clothes new unless I’m really sure of the environmental and ethical side of the supply chain, but have just been on fucking ASOS and ordered 3 pairs of fluffy jogging bottoms 😳! I’d say my DH did say that it wasn’t really real for him until our son was born, although I had a big bleed at 15weeks which I think made it feel more real to him. It’s not the same when it’s your body: it is so obviously real so early.

@PinkRose100 surely today is still very early to see anything on a test? I had an awful cold during the 2ww with my son’s cycle, doesn’t mean you’re out (though I hope you feel better soon - keep cosy and take it easy).

@PinkRose100 thank you, I've never had anything like that before so scared me a bit I'm in a bit of pain today but it's mainly in my bum 🙈 I have endo in my bowels so think maybe it's just playing up today. Literally got a hot water bottle on my butt right now 😄 x

@Verbena87 tell me about it! Who even creates these prices?! My dog tends to like to give us a nice vet bill every year around this time 😅 but I just hope he will be okay 🤞🏼 how are you feeling today? Any more sensations? X

@Pingupp explosion 🤣 that tickled me but that is exactly how it felt! Yes I hope so too, hopefully a nice big clear out maybe. God knows but I know she was ready for a clear out! You know when you can just feel AF teetering and you just want to....explode! 😂 literally happened. Aw Dya know what if you really want one I say go for it when you feel the time is right. I have a working cocker spaniel and he is just the best. Every morning at 4am without fail he comes up to our room, stands by my side and huffs, I scoot along and he goes under the covers and snuggles up to my bum and then after a while he gets out and will lay curled up behind my pillow with his head on mine. There's something so calming about him, he's always been my go to when I've needed him the most it's like they know how you're feeling without even needing to do anything they just make you feel better 🥰 chocolate labs are so cute!! They're very cheeky but I just love dogs...I think I love dogs more than humans sometimes 😂 x

@PinkRose100 hope you're feeling better soon. 5 days post transfer is still SO early to be getting a positive so hold on, you're not out yet! Look after yourself first, sometimes we can run ourselves down without knowing we're doing it. I hope you're having a sofa weekend this weekend! X

Most dogs are definitely better than most people - though there are a few exceptions. Unfortunately DH is desperately allergic - if he ends up widowing me with his genetic condition I am going to have a whole pack of Irish wolfhounds 🤣.

I have all the sensations: sore nipples, queasiness, what feel like period pains (not keen on these) etc etc etc but it’s quite possibly just the drugs. Finding this 2ww harder I think - I so want it to work. Has anyone here managed 2 babies out of 3 transfers? It seems impossibly ambitious.

Thank you everyone. @Verbena87 yes so so much harder than I realised. It wasn’t so bad for me during the week when I’m busy working but being at home feeling poorly today, the weather so bad and my husband out, I’ve been going out of my mind. I ran out of ironing and cleaning hours ago and I can’t sleep because of the steroids. 6 days to go. Eh! 😫

Cramps and spotting this morning. Think I’m out. Gutted.

@Verbena87 Oww god no :-( I’m also having a light bleed. I’m convinced I’m out but hubby Googling lots about how you can expect bleeding 7-10 days after a implantation and saying I should be positive. Sending you good vibes xxx

Good vibes your way too- it can definitely be normal, but that doesn’t seem to help when you’re in the moment does it? It’s the cramps that are freaking me out, plus it’s only a tiny bit of blood on wiping but it’s definitely red rather than brown. Not sure whether to try a test or just wait it all out. Big hug your way. Xxx

@Verbena87 it’s so frustrating that the symptoms for success are so similar to loss. If you can hold off testing I would really recommend it. It will most likely be negative now anyway so won’t end up telling you anything and it’s just been adding to my torment. Stay strong xxx

@PinkRose100 thanks for the advice, will try to hold off. Thinking of you lots. Xx

@PinkRose100 @Verbena87 stay strong ladies, this can be a good sign! But I know the worry is there too. Hold off if you can and keep yourselves busy - what have you got planned for today? X

@Bluemeadowbaby thanks lovely. Lots of rest today as I’m still feeling very tired, but went kite-flying with the 4 year old and got caught in the most torrential downpour. We hid under a tree and then he popped out into it and said “come on mum, it’s lovely out here” and there was the biggest, brightest double rainbow. Stopped us in our tracks. It hasn’t specially made me feel steadier about test day, but it was lovely to see anyway.

@PinkRose100 still thinking of you. Xx

@Verbena87 those rainbows are following you ❤️ I love little signs from the universe even if it's to bring us some comfort. How is the cramps/spotting? X

Feeling slightly terrified to type it but I’ve had a feint but clearly visible positive test this morning even after all the light bleeding. In disbelief at the moment and will look forward to seeing that line get darker but good news so far ☺️🤞🌈

Ongoing, though spotting is really slight it is still there. Dunno what to think really. I think the progesterone is irritating my vagina/vulva as it all feels vaguely uncomfy like the very beginning of thrush, so maybe that’s part of it? Want to teleport to Friday and know where I’m at.

@Verbena87 it’s so worrying. I spoke to my clinic today about my bleeds and they said to take my progesterone rectally as it can cause irritation to the cervix, which isn’t actually an issue but is worrying as can cause spotting. They assured me there is no difference in which way you use it. Obviously I can’t give you medical advice but that’s just what I’ve been told xxx

@PinkRose100 thanks for sharing. I wondered about the progesterone but this time I’m on utrogestan which apparently is vaginal only - cyclogest I know can go either way (I prefer it as you can switch when you’re tired of either farting too much or ruining knickers with the ooze, depending on your choice of route - so still gross, but at least you get a choice of grossness!). I did email the clinic but no reply yet so I guess they think it’s not urgent.

How are you doing generally? So far mine is still really minimal. Trying to hang onto hope with variable success!

How is everyone else?

@PinkRose100 very exciting indeed & @Verbena87 also keeping my fingers tightly crossed for you too - I'm hoping for you both this is the start of something wonderful 💕 all okay here, I've just had the most horrendous butt pain with my period but it's going now. It's because the endo is in my bowels but luckily I haven't had any griping can't get out of bed pains 🥳 so fingers crossed all is well. Start my patches Wednesday x