Clomid journey thread 2!

[lastbany]

So I thought I would start a new thread as we reached 1k comments so can't post!!! @chloedancer897 @Luna1108 sorry will try tag others !
anyway my app says af in 4 days I'm so emotional today! Over thinking even thinking is it right for my and partner to go forward together! I know I could test but I'm just not mentally prepared too 😢

What day are ya @J90A I would say maybe 12/13 dpo earliest but I know people can test sooner and depending when due AF x

I'm on cx 20 :)

@Shelleybe im CD 18

@lastbany oh!! When are you going to test?? Xx

@J90A and @lastbany when did ye ovulate.. fingers crossed and hope wait goes quick..

Got my HSG test done today… whole thing was strange… they couldn’t get the line up so had to use a nostril line and cause of that she was not sure. I was asked have I ever had abnormal smear. It was really strange. She said iodine kept coming back out… she reckons anyway she got both tubes unblocked right side seemed clear anyway. She said because of iodine coming back out because not right tube going in and also bot as long she was still feeling she had got to both tubes. She is going to get consultant to look at images and get back to me.. it wasn’t smooth sailing and very very sore. Lots of cramps since. Anyone heard any story like this before or something strangely wrong with my vagina /uterus 🙈🙈🙈🙈

@Shelleybe yes I got cramps!!

I didn't want to say but it kept coming out of my it wouldn't stay in so iodine was leaking out. It seemed like that was rare to happen so I didn't say lol. He said these was a curve he couldn't get it round. God knows lol but no one mentioned it at my results lol. Xx

Ok @J90A aww that’s sounds like me… do you think that affects the sperm travelling? She was having major problems and I was like Oh God 🙈

@Shelleybe oh gosh that sounds like a difficult procedure!! Not sure I understand the nostril line thing though?! So they said your tubes were open but they want to make sure with a consultant??

I’m currently CD21, my app says I can test Sunday but I think I ovulated CD13 so I could test Saturday. It’s like torture lol 😆

@Luna1108 it’s so bloody tempting to test isn’t it… just want to know especially after the wait.. so she was like the catheter isn’t going in and she was like what else can I use after a while she goes I could try nostril line and she did… she said it didn’t go in as far but that she was able to send some dye through and right went straight through and she thinks it worked on left but imaging isn’t as clear and said will clear any blockages..
it was really strange as I have retroveeted uterus now I’m kind of worried that maybe it’s so hard to get that in maybe that’s what’s happening with TTC

Tbh I'm not sure when I ovulated lol or when I will test tbh things have taken a terrible turn and me and my partner have split
I don't know if it's the stress of this adding to things but I saw a side to him that's unforgivable so we won't be sorting things out all his stuff has gone so if I'm totally honest I just feel like we have tried all this time for a baby with no luck and now we're together and of course there is a chance I could be pregnant probably minamal but still there!
Very confused at the moment

@lastbany I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry you are going through this after all you have been through with meds and that. Hope you are ok and have supportive people around you and we are all here for you virtually too 💐 it’s very stressful and I understand I’ve had a lot of rows too… vent and talk to us if feel the need… this thread is about support and you have been there for all of us when needed to x

Oh blimey @lastbany that’s awful for you. I’m so sorry you’ve had to deal with all that. Like you say, there is still a chance for this month for you - but mostly you should be so proud of yourself for giving him the boot despite so so wanting a child. I’m a family law solicitor so I see so many relationships that have ended where there are kids involved but one person has a toxic trait that makes it a nightmare for the other parent so thank goodness you’ve realised now! I hope you are being kind to yourself over it all, and that you get through the grief of what his behaviour has stopped you having. Xxx

@ItsAlice @Shelleybe thanks both of you yes I have my mum and dad round the corner friends and family and my eldest daughter very supportive is having to step in as second mum to my baby while I work!! Luckily it's nights so she is sleeping but still massive responsibility!!
It's crazy really but correct as you say sometimes there's something that people just won't change I think I have been a little nieve possibly tolerating too much due to my wish for another baby (full brother/sister ) to my baby! But have to draw a line!
Police were called three times in one day!
He hasn't physically hurt any of us and I don't think he would but he has done some crazy shit to my house and continued to turn up and harass by any means possible he's blocked now on all platforms so it will be in the hands of solicitors I expect!
He did turn up this morning while I was giving baby breakfast and was all tearful and begging threw the window but can't take bacn actions Liek that and I won't put my children threw seeing things like that!
Just sad for my baby ! Her face lit up when she saw him this morning!
Just have to tell myself I didn't do anything and nothing I do can change it x

@lastbany sounds very stressful and upsetting. I’m so sorry. It’s heartbreaking. Huge hugs. Sending you strength right now x

@lastbany I'm so sorry. We are all here for you xxx

How are you doing @lastbany hope you are taking care just in case as stress isn’t good. Mind yourself x

@Shelleybe hi to be honest I can off my third night sund morning this is when it all kicked off I didn't sleep until Sunday night which my baby (usually sleeps 13 hours straight) was up all night on and off!! This has continued to even last night ! I believe she does have a bit of a cold but I do Honestly think all the upset has knocked her back!! I now had three nights starting again tonight'! My head kills my brain hurts I feel sick! My stress levels are threw the roof and I honestly don't know how I'm gonna get threw them I'm so tired but hey Ho sort form that but moan 😂

@lastbany that’s so hard going. Take it easy if you can and if someone could help you out so you could get some sleep too x

Oh @lastbany that’s awful, it’s bound to leave you in shock and hugely stressed. Hope you are managing some you time, and that your tribe are rallying around to support you. It’s a huge grief when any relationship ends but the circumstances he has put you in are even harder.

Well just to add to it all 😂😂 I've been notified I have to isolate for a week! But I'm actually thinking at least I can rest!! Was ment to start nights today but instead will watch match we kids lol

@lastbany isolating may be a blessing in disguise. No work stress. Chill time and plenty of rest!! xx

This little bundle of joy might cheer everyone up got her today xx

That's what I think! Lol
Ahhh so cute

Gosh just catching up!

@lastbany I’m so sorry this sounds so awful and stressful for you. I can only echo what everyone else has said and hope you’ve got some people around to help you through. It sounds like you’re being incredibly strong in the face of a very difficult situation. Sending virtual love! That isolation time is a definitely a blessing, give you time to heal a little.

@Shelleybe any updates for you after your HSG?

@J90A so cute!! Puppies are such fun 😍

How is everyone doing! Hope you are holding up ok @lastbany, am thinking of you!!

I’m on CD11, had a scan yesterday and I have a 22mm and a 18mm follicle which look good but are in my tube free side annoyingly. They even checked the blood flow to the follicle and said it looked great. They reckon I’ll ovulate tomorrow so I’m back then for another scan. Lining was 6.9mm so they weren’t too happy with that and if it isn’t up to 8mm by tomorrow they will put me on oestrogen next month too apparently!

Thanks everyone! Apart from my shit show situation I'm ok lol
Started with some twinges tonight so af probably in way! Im cd22 today was thinking of testing in morning as have one early test only a cheap one but still but think might be a bit early!