IVF January/February 2021? continued

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I just set this up as we reached the limit in the other one.

@IVFat43 good luck!

Congratulations @prinnyshelly!
Good luck to all having procedures today!
Just taken my 10th buserelin injection and for the first time noticing a light speckled rash where I injected, anyone ever experienced this? Im hoping it just goes away over the course of the morning

@Motherofkittens28 yes i had that several times. It will go away :) might feel a bit itchy tho!

Congratulations to everyone and their squinty positive lines!!

@IVFat43 Good luck today, hope you get a good haul.

I’m just waiting to go down for EC, I’ve had to sign a disclaimer to say I know there is only 1 follicle and I’m aware it may be a cyst. Praying that luck is in our side.

@Motherofkittens28 I found the rash usually went down after half an hour or so

@IVFat43 Good luck!

@Prinnyshelly Aww congrats!

@Doremifasol I’m with you! Just had my blood taken and will be ringing this afternoon for my beta result. This is the longest day of my life 😂 good luck x

@Whitestripes007 oooh good luck 🙏🏻

Good luck @Whitestripes007 🤞🏼🤞🏼💞

Sitting in the waiting room now. DH has gone in for his PESA. We’re both scared he’s stopped producing for some reason. He had a reversal in Jan 2019 and the first test showed 21mil but 0% motility then the next test showed 0 sperm in his ejaculate. His bloods have been fine twice - and there’s been no trauma or accident it’s just this is the first time we will find out for sure.

No sperm no EC tomorrow

@Whitestripes007 good luck!

Seems like a busy day for people today with procedures and tests - good luck to all x

Good luck to @Whitestripes007 and @foodiefil I have absolutely everything crossed for you guys.

I am now 5dp5dt and I am feeling beyond horrendous. I woke up at 2:30am and couldn’t get back to sleep, so at 4am I did a FRER another BFN obviously, I know you guys will way there’s still a chance, it’s still early. I just don’t know, seeing everyone’s BFP at the same stage makes me think it probably won’t happen for me, not with a hatched embryo that should have implanted straight away. With the high quality of eggs I produced, I just think there is something wrong, like implantation, because I just don’t see how statistically I have never ever had a BFP in my whole life. I laid awake all night crying. This morning my husband said it’s the worst he’s ever seen my eyes look. I feel like I’m not part of society anymore, not lucky enough to be one of those happy go lucky pregnant women who flaunts around with their bump or those women who chat about how my adorable baby kept me up at night. I’m just some fake person, because I can’t do the thing I’m supposed to be able to do, have a child.

I am working from home doing consultations with patients. I have been managing ok, my manager sent me an email asking if I’d be willing to do some work in the clinic moving forward and to call him, but I couldn’t face talking to him because I’m so tearful that I just emailed him telling him I think this cycle has been unsuccessful and I’m devastated and that the likelihood is there will be further cycles and I shield completely during them, so don’t want the additional stress of a cycle potentially being cancelled if I catch Covid. He said he completely understands and he’s sorry to hear about things. I just feel so useless right now.

@Gardenlady543 I’m so sorry. Your message is heartbreaking. I know you must feel helpless now. I wish there was something to say to make you feel better. I hope that this is just a bump in your journey and you’re not yet at your destination. If this cycle hasn’t worked there will be other cycles. As dark as you feel now there is still a crack of light coming in. Why don’t you take some time off work? Switch off for a few days and do things that give you joy? For me that’s reading, walking and cooking. Look after yourself and keep us updated if you feel able I know it must be so hard for you to see BFP messages 💞💞 sending love and strength

Thanks @foodiefil I know this is just temporary, well I hope it is. It just is so devastating at times. I am booked up at work for the next few weeks and last week I was basically off but there was so much going on that I basically wasn’t. So I suspect even if I wasn’t there I would still be there, I’m also doing a masters and have assignments and exams due in from new week, so I guess I’ll just keep going. Probably good for me to be busy. This is a bit of a rubbish time to be doing treatment, I wish I could just fly off abroad and forget about everything.

I really hope that if there is a chance of this cycle being successful that constantly crying and feeling awful doesn’t affect the chances.

@Gardenlady543 - there is definitely still a chance! You’re still so early on, don’t give up. You poor thing you just sound exhausted and no wonder. Sending lots of strength

@Gardenlady543, I'm so sorry to see how hard this is on you and I can tell you're really not in a good place right now.
You will get through this and have your little ray of sunshine. I would second @foodiefil and suggest trying to take some time out, whether that's away from work, away from these groups (if they don't help at the moment that is!) and try and relax, even if that probably sounds easier than it it. Sending you lots of love and strength. I know you know this, but you are not out so don't talk yourself out of it just yet.

Thanks @Gensola and @jonrik your words are so kind, as are @foodiefil I think I’ve got myself really stressed and a sleepless night has really affected me. I’m using Headspace all the time, trying to relax as much as I can. Just having a real low right now.

So sorry to hear @Gardenlady543, it’s heartbreaking to hear you’re suffering, please take some time 😘

Thinking of you @Whitestripes007 @foodiefil, this process is just so difficult 😞 good luck and I hope everything turns out positively 🍀

@Gardenlady543 you have a lot on your plate right now!
I understand you can’t take time off work. Sounds very busy.
You’re allowed to feel whatever you feel. Your feelings are valid. Don’t fight your way out of them. Let them happen. You’re entitled to it. I don’t mean wallow but feel it. Headspace is good. I have calm!

How was it @IVFat43?

Pressed post too soon! Hope you’re ok! @IVFat43

I’ve had a good EC; the clinics hopes of 12 were surpassed with 21 collected!

Although signs of OHSS so back for a scan Wednesday and back to taking Fyremadel injections tomorrow and Wednesday morning (I really hoped I’d finished with injections 😩)..., along with cabergoline which I’ve already had 2 days and makes me nauseous...

But so far, so good 😊 I’m happy..let’s hope now they fertilise 🤞xx

Thanks @foodiefil, a little discomfort but nothing that’s too bad xx

@IVFat43 glad it went well. Hopefully it won’t come on. My clinic gave me the information after saying I was “on the fence” and one point on the info is that some studies have shown women with OHSS have higher rates of pregnancy.

Fingers crossed for the next stage!! Xx

Oh really @foodiefil ...maybe good then 🤔

Have you any news? Xx

@Gardenlady543 So sorry that you are feeling that way. This whole process is heartbreaking and it often feels like you’re the only one not getting that so hoped for BFP. But you will get one! Especially with those high quality eggs. And then all of this will just be a bad nightmare. If you are worried about implantation, you could ask them to test for immune issues (i know some women’s bodies sort of «attack» the embryo and there is something you can do against that) or lining issues. But there is still lots of hope here (it’s still early days!) so let’s hope this is just a case of being overly pessimistic to better enjoy being wrong in a few days!

@foodiefil and @Whitestripes007 good luck with the procedures today!

@MF1981 wow you are so brave not to test! I am going to try and holdout until 9dp5dt but can’t do any longer than that!

Transfer is tomorrow for me. I hope my two best frosties - that are already not so great - survive the thaw... I’m having them both put back because my doctor believes the chance of twins is minimal, which probably doesn’t say much for the quality of the embryos I have left haha!

@IVFat43 DH’s PESA went well and there was plenty of live sperm, thank goodness. They only went in on the left side and said they had enough for 3/4 cycles?

So it’s EC tomorrow and transfer of Sunday x