IVF Dec 2020-Jan 2021-anyone joining me?

[Kiza]

Hi,
After 2 years TTC #1 we are now eventually on the IVF bus! Should have started in June but Covid put a stop to that and after lots of back/forth with our NHS clinic we've got our treatment planning appointment on Friday and will be on the long protocol so probably starting mid- end of December!
Would love to have some ladies join me!
I've been creeping on other IVF threads but haven't been able to fully take part.

@lindyloolou I think alot of people don't get symptoms. I've got everything crossed for you! Well done for not caving early! I'm planning on testing again tomorrow to check the line is progressing.

@Kiza that's so true! I feel like all I've done since I found out is worry. I just want otd to be here so at least I have the support of the clinic!

Congratulations @Mseddy - just catching up on the thread as I've tried to keep a low profile during the 2ww and Christmas etc. OTD is 31st and whilst I haven't tested yet, I'm pretty sure we are out. Had a bit of spotting on 24th and some tinged CM on and off since. Cramps come and go and sore boobs have now gone. Am no longer waking up in the night or early morning for the loo which was a give away last time too. Disappointed but still have a tiny chance however think it's my self preservation that is making plans for next time already as a way of dealing with this downer. Any tips? Or clarification on how many cycles we would need to wait between this FET and a new fresh cycle? Had just hoped that everything this year could be softened with a positive outcome but appears we might be back to square one a year to the month of when we started in 2020!

Hey @granddesigns spotting can be totally normal the nurse told me - could even be a good sign? Hope it works out for you.

I’m totally freaking out and had a full on melt down yesterday - any symptoms I did have have completely gone. I am convinced this hasn’t worked and the thought of starting another cycle feels me with dread but I just want to get on with it now. This is 2 year anniversary of MC no. 1 and MC no. 4 with 5 in total (natural). I did have symptoms for all those pregnancies early on but I guess they didn’t work out so even if I did have symptoms now as part of this IVF process, not sure it’d be that comforting either - it’s torture this!

Fingers crossed for you. Still a couple days to go. I’m also due to test 31st but may just cave tomorrow.

Thanks @Lindyloolou - offering some sort of un MN'ish handhold through the next couple of days - we can get through this! You're right, it's not over till it's over and could still play out, but I've also learnt it's best to give air time to gut instinct too and allow some sort of mental prep for how ill handle the outcome I don't want, knowing that the alternative would be a bonus! Know exactly what you mean about the frustration, waiting and the significance of key dates - Christmas and year end is one for us- anniversary of first month we started tycoon naturally, anniversary of starting ivf process etc. Good luck for the next few days and next steps after that, whatever they are. I'll be checking in but trying to maintain a bit of a balance too, especially depending on outcome. It's good journeying together, however long the journey turns out to be!

I get it @granddesigns I guess I too am trying to manage my expectations a little here - hence, the meltdown yesterday and already looking into costs/clinics for round 2. I only got 1 healthy embryo (PGS tested) out of 5 top quality day fivers. Just pray I have more options to roll the dice in round 2.

Take care of yourself over these next few days x

@lindyloolou and @granddesigns I'm rooting for you both! Well done for holding out to test day! You aren't out until after otd so please don't worry just yet.

@granddesigns spotting isn't always a bad sign, it could be implantation.

I tested again today because I'm constantly stressing that im going to loose it again. The line is slightly darker but I don't feel relieved.

In terms of when to have your next FET, I have learned this cycle that I didn't leave it long enough. I shouldn't have gone from a chemical in September to another cycle in December, I don't feel like it's been long enough. If this cycle doesn't work out I'll leave at least 6 months I think

@lindyloolou and @granddesigns - fingers crossed for the next few days!

@Mseddy - congrats and on it being darker today, fingers crossed for a sticky one

Keeping everything crossed for everyone and sending love and telepathic support to all those filled with anxieties.

Thinking of you ladies with tests dates imminent. Completely ok to take a step back if the result isn't what we hope for but sending you lots of love.

So day 8 of buserelin and should've listened to all you experienced ladies who said 'don't worry it's a doddle', crazy how much it becomes the new norm.
No symptoms as of yet other than gassy and constipation, but then I get that just before AF so hoping it's on it's way 🤞🏼

@Kiza - glad you've got the hang of it now! Need to wake myself up a bit more to do them in future though, have felt my eyes be rather bleary and drowsy the last few lazy mornings
Am now starting my 3rd 'period' this month - my lining is certain to be thin enough by next Friday for my baseline scan

I caved in and tested a day early this morning (8dp5dt) with a FRER. It is a very very faint positive which came up in 2/3mins so whilst I perhaps should be happy, I am very anxious given my history of early MCs. I’d have expected it to be pretty strong as technically I’m 4 weeks. I also have no symptoms whatsoever apart from the odd feeling AF might arrive (on/off slightly dull but not painful ache). I also have a bit of clear CM. That’s it. Will perhaps test again in a couple of days and see - definitely not getting ahead of myself. I just have a gut feel it’s a no with a teeny glimmer of hope that has been dashed so many times before. Hope everyone is holding up ok. Xx

@lindyloolou tentative congratulations. I can't sit here and say try not to worry because I've been bat shit crazy these last 24 hours! I was 8dp5dt yesterday and my line is visable but it's not a blazing positive like you see from some people. I think everyone is different! I'm constantly worrying about my symptoms fading. All I keep saying to myself is today I am pregnant!

Thank you for the tentative congrats. It’s torture isn’t it @Mseddy? I just have that gut feel it’s not quite right, but you’re right, need to take the teeny bits of hope and highs whilst we have some. Just at the same time trying to manage my expectations. Praying it works out for all of us on here x

Me too. Its such a hard process to go through!! Each stage is harder and more emotional than the last!!

@Mseddy @Lindyloolou tentative congrats to you both, really hoping those lines become darker as the days progress for you both.

@starkid wow 3 bleeds now and still over a week to go before the scan? Do you mind me asking how come you're down regging for so long?

More gentle congrats @Lindyloolou - hope things continue to develop for you and @Mseddy - will know where we are at tomorrow but nothing new to report - just more tinged cm so not feeling too hopeful! Have been spring by cleaning gently today and will move onto giving the bathrooms a good old tier 3, new year sorting tomorrow if things go the way I'm feeling they will - each to their own eh?!

@granddesigns got everything crossed for your OTD tomorrow.

I caved and tested again this evening. It was much darker than yesterday, but my urine was also alot more concentrated. I'm feeling a little more positive than I have been. It's like walking on glass in circles!

Fingers crossed for you @granddesigns I too have CM - who knows eh?! I get wanting to manage expectations too - I’m with you there! X

Good luck ladies!!! Have everything crossed for tomorrow.

@Lindyloolou tentative congrats.@granddesigns @Mseddy hoping all works out.

Spotting means nothing bad necessarily. I spotted before my positive test (and freaked freaked freaked out!!! I was hysterical).

I'm not sure it's possible to know. I knew for certain my first cycle had failed (it had), I knew for certain my second cycle had failed (I was crying as I took the test), it was successful. The uncertainty is murder. I feel for you. No one ever tells you when you're going through IVF that the hardest bit is after you get a positive test!

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@Mseddy another tentative congrats and fingers crossed for a sticky!

@Kiza - the length of down-regging I guess is just because that's when my cycle lined up, and yet the clinics were already full/closed over the xmas period, so yeah I've had to do them for like 5 weeks before my first scan! I had the first proper bleed roughly when I was due, but then yeah have had another lighter 'period' for 4 more days, then another break, and have now started another light 'period' today

Hi can I pls join?

First of all huge congrats to ladies who’ve had successful IVF cycles, so sorry for those that haven’t worked and good luck to those who are waiting!

I’m starting my first ever round in IVF end of Feb. I have a 19 month old son conceived on honeymoon Aug 2018 naturally and all went well and delivered my DS in May last year. Had a mmc in June this year (discovered at 12 week scan). Baby had stopped growing at 8.1. Had tests and discovered trisomy. Had D&C. Been trying for 5 months since. In FW of 6th month trying so this is last shot naturally. AMH low.

Decided to take the plunge with IVF. Am 39 so need to get a shift on. Had the initial consultation and have an appointment with the nurses next Friday to talk meds and timelines.

No idea what to expect. Know I’m doing the short protocol. Nervous and excited. Hopefully will learn a lot from this thread!

@RichmondLady1981 hi! Welcome and good luck with your cycle. Sorry about your loss.
I did a short protocol, think I was injecting for 10 days and then had egg collection so it goes quite quickly.

Welcome @RichmondLady1981 - looking back the short protocol fresh cycle was actually the quickest and smoothest part of my treatment - went quickly and to plan but Covid stopped it in its tracks!

As suspected folks, it's a BFN for us. Having not had a broken nights sleep this week (one of the signs that made me think it hadn't worked!) I woke at 5 needing the loo! Anyway, not a smidge of anything to detect and now waiting for the clinic to tell us to keep on with meds for 3 days and retest unless I can convince them that the tinged Cm is AF trying to break through..... hopefully we can have a consultants review quickly and make plans for a new cycle in the new year. I'll keep dipping into this thread to see how your journeys play out and share anything interesting. Wishing you all smooth cycling, strength when need it and a happy and positive new year.

@granddesigns sorry to hear of your BFN :( fingers crossed for another cycle early in the new year!!

Sorry to hear that @granddesigns Fingers crossed for the next cycle 🤞I still have a nagging feeling mine isn’t quite right too. AF dull ache again this morning plus too much googling ‘faint lines 8dp5dt’ not helping. Waiting game still. Just wish I could have bloods to check hormone levels etc now to find out whether something is up/something can be prevented/saved.