TWW Jan/Feb 2020

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This is for ladies in there TWW that would like to chat and have a little support!

@stace999 interesting that your 6 twws have been all different. I know everyone and every tww can be different but i still find myself searching for other people experiences during the tww to see if mine are similar

Fingers crossed the good luck if this thread continues this weekend 😊

@Stace999 and @duckling3 I will keep an eye on the thread this weekend and keeping my fingers crossed for your 2lines as well! I am the living proof that you can get a BFP without symptoms, remember that!

@duckling3 yep 2 BFP (1 chemical 1 early miscarriage) and can't say anything at all stood out from the other cycles on those. I'm on more progesterone with this IVF but it still doesn't seem to have made any difference to my (non existent) symptoms. I guess in around 12 hours I will know what if anything is going on. Hope you are feeling OK x

Good morning! Keeping my fingers crossed for BFPs this morning as well! :*

Good luck @Stace999 🍀🍀

Fingers crossed for you @Stace999

Woke in the night with intense period type pains, really bad like where you want to curl up with a hot water bottle and cry. Not had pains like that so far so worries me period is on its way. I've turned into a chocolate monster too. 5dpt today. All the dizziness had me feeling hopeful but now swung the other way sigh

BFP for me 😁😁😁
I'm kind of in shock after never seeing a second line before

@duckling3 congratulations!!!! AMAZING!!! ❤️🥰✨ sorry I thought you were tomorrow!!

@duckling3 it's wonderful news! So happy for you, come on over to the grad thread :)

Amazing @duckling3 I bet you're over the moon!!

Thanks everyone.

My test day is tomorrow but decided to do it today so I could have the whole weekend to digest the news without worrying about work.

Congrats @duckling3!! So many BFPs!!

@Parkandride I had awful cramps in TWW, still getting them 11 days after my bfp! I know everyone keeps saying it but you really can’t tell what’s going on in TWW - don’t give up hope! 😊

Thank you @chooklass it's such a mindfuck!

Sorry to go against the BFP trend but it's a BFN for me unfortunately. Was expected and I am actually OK, gutted obviously but hopefully this isn't the end.
Massive congratulations @duckling3 xx

@Stace999 so sorry to hear your BFN, sending big hugs. You sound like you already have a plan? Xx

i fear I may be joining you this week

@Minster2012 thank you it is my 6th TWW but only our 1st ivf using donor sperm so I'm hoping our clinic can give us some idea of how we can improve chances next time. I cant believe how much hard earned money we have thrown at this process with nothing to show for it, that's what gets to me! I think maybe I'm channeling my feelings on that rather than the fact I am bloody gutted! The brain works in mysterious ways. Off to town (in the wind and rain) with DH today for a bit of shopping so I'll probably be sobbing in to a Gin later.. I really hope you are wrong about your result. Xx

@Stace999 is it your 6th IVF? That’s really tough
Hope you get some lovely bits in town and Hooray for gin!!

@Minster2012 2 x ivf with DH Sperm (1 chemical 1 BFN) then 3 x iui with donor (1 bfp early m/c 2 BFN) how 1 ivf with donor sperm. No idea where we go now tbh will have to see what the clinic says. I am nearly 37 with low AMH so getting worried my eggs may be the issue.

Wow @Stace999 that’s some journey, my AMH was 4.1 I think it’s a while ago so I may be wrong but mine was low & it worked once but now I’m worried my womb will be the issue

Do you have any more Frosties with the donor sperm to use? Or do you do it each time

Does anyone else feel more pessimistic as others get their good news? This in no way takes away from the joy I feel for people getting their positives, it just makes me feel less hopefully as though the odds are stacked further against me.
My clinic sub group are doing amazing, all positives. Which looking at the stats mean I have to be negative. And I know it's a tiny sample sizes but can't shake it. I've never been upset or jealous by pregnancy or baby announcements so this is a new feeling i dont enjoy apologies if this sounds insensitive, I truly do love seeing this work for people, I just don't have anyone to talk to about it

@Parkandride I know exactly what you mean. With all the hormones floating about I think anything is 'normal' to feel because all our 'normal' rational thoughts have been turned upside down. Some months I'm sure clinics have everyone with bfp and some months everyone might get bfn the stats are an average for the clinic over time. Got to remain hopeful that you were part of a lucky month.

The day before I started this round (my third and final round of using my eggs) my brother in law came over to announce him and his partner were pregnant. I'd never reacted badly to pregnancy news before always been happy for the couple but this one flawed me. I was a mess crying. That just made me feel guilty like I'd ruined their moment. They were very understanding. I thought I'd since come to terms with it and was getting a bit excited about being an auntie for the first time but then today I feel like AF is on her way with cramps and they posted in the group yday their 12 week scan is 20th march and it just seemed to hit me again that everything I've hoped for for years I will be watching them go through every stage. It's a very close family and they are totally respectful of the situation (although it killed me when I found out she came off the pill and 3 weeks later got the two lines I've only ever dreamt of seeing) but my feeling is now guilt and paranoia that I don't want to ruin a moment for the rest of the family. My DH is great at putting on a mask and saying the right things is person but crumbles himself in tears when they leave, I however find it hard in person but can send the right messages to try and make them think that I'm okay with the news.

Sorry @Stace999 that’s rubbish

@Parkandride I have felt so down and miserable for the last week and a half. I think the anxiety plus the progesterone have a lot to do with it. I Forever feel like I’ve got pmt but that’s the hormones.

@lls1990 I’m crap at handling pregnancy announcements. In fact one of my main (unspoken) reasons for deleting all my social media was the never ending stream of “friends” announcing pregnancies or births! I couldn’t deal with it anymore.

So, who else has insomnia? I know some pp have mentioned progesterone induced insomnia but this is ridiculous, I’m up from about 2.30/ 3am every night. It’s not helping my mood!

Yes I think it’s actually totally rational to think like @Parkandride & @lls1990 & I was similar to @lls1990 reaction to our DSIL’s announcement that they were pregnant with number 2 when number 1 was 7 months old, it was a very nonchalant “yeah I’m pregnant btw, he only has to look at me we’ve basically only done it once since DS’s birth 🤷‍♀️“ after having convos with her previously where SHE was worried about conceiving at 27 (me 37 & 11 years of cancer having said I can’t carry). Guess what it took them 2 months 🤦🏼‍♀️😫
I mean really I think we are allowed emotions even when not on s**t loads of additional hormones
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@Mischali 👋🏻Here if you want us over in the dreaded TWW there’s a few people from different threads it’s been very lucky lately

Hi everyone, thanks @Minster2012 :)
I just had a day 5 fresh blast transferred today. My otd (beta) is 24/2 but I want to test out the trigger and do hpts early! Officially starting hpts on Thursday but I might just test tomorrow morning to see how dark the trigger line still is.
And now to read back on the thread to find out where everyone else is at! X