Hi Ladies! It's Sweets here. I joined the Dec/Jan group and then went missing but i've been lurking. Just finding the whole process completely all consuming and the news that I received today has finally driven me to the END of my sanity.
I knew that I could message here for some support.
So, I've been in the TWW as I had my egg retreival on 27th February. They only retrieved 2 eggs which fertilised fine. I was told to come in for a day 3 transfer because I only had 2 and they wanted to just put them back in and see what happens as they might not last til day 5. I was cool with that. Went to Egg Transfer appointment only to be told that my little embryos are really poor quality and cells not dividing as quickly as they should but that they were going to put them back in me anyway because being slow doesn't mean that they won't implant and do well once inside.
Sooooo I've been waiting, waiting, waiting and DID NOT EVEN PEE ON A STICK the ENTIRE 2 WEEKS because I wanted a clear definitive answer which i thought only a blood test would give me.
Today I went to my clinic to get my blood test. They just told me that i had a positive blood test but that I need to come back into the clinic on monday to take another blood test because my by beta numbers are only 51.3 iu/l and they would expect it to be over 100 iu/l. They want to see if my numbers have increased by monday or if i'm basically having a chemical pregnancy..
I was like, just give it to me straight. Has any one had the numbers that I have and sustained a pregnancy?
So I. Just. Can't. I'm borderline? Every step of the way for me has been just soooooo grey. I like black and white. yes or no. I was so ready for a clear answer today so that I could move on with my life and think about next steps...I am of "Advanced Maternal Age" lol as well so every moment waiting is my poor little remaining eggs drying up...
Sorry for the long message.
Talk me off of the ciff.. Please :-)