Starting the journey thread 3

[squirrelnutkins1]

Don't want to lose touch so new thread ready x

@squirrelnutkins1 oh no not the relax ul get pregnant speech that drives me nuts..i dnt mean it like that all btw i just mean for ur own sanity x i needed them for a few months to just help me think straight but then again ive always been a bit loopy lol

Oooh i want that lol

Haha I know you didn't 🙈 She just did the classic 'relax and it'll happen speech' but I guess she doesn't know any better lol! @2fingers22018

@squirrelnutkins1 @2fingers22018 I think it’s unfair to judge those people if they know what we are Going through it’s still awkward for them aswell as us they are trying to be supportive in their own way even if it’s misguided

@FinallytakingtheplungewithIVF i agree its awkward for them im not judging them sayin theyr terrible ppl but sumtimes ppl really need think before they speak..thats just my opinion

Not judging, just downloading my frustrations.

Sorry I didn’t mean for it to come across so harshly!

Hope everyone is good. I’m plodding on and trying to enjoy everything even though I feel
This constant whole of longing in my stomach/uterus if that makes sense or doesn’t to anyone it’s how I feel.

I understand that comment @squirrelnutkins1 it’s a pet hate of mine. This is a safe place to be irrational and download everything however small or silly. I can’t do it in real life as my closest friend is pregnant and it’s all she will talk about despite her knowing about my situation.

Hi all, I'm still lurking around!

@GreyC I know what you mean about that longing feeling 😭

Last cycle AF was late for the 1st time since ttc - why do our bodies play these tricks?!
Obvs got my hopes up and did a test.

DH is away this week so might miss ov, but hopefully that will be delayed for no apparent reason!
I've got progesterone to use this cycle, after ov. But if we miss ov this month there's no point using the progesterone is there 🤷🏼‍♀️

@GreyC crap feeling isn't it ☹️ yeah this is def a safe space to vent etc. That's why I love it! Sorry about your friend 😕

@bunhead34 ah that's annoying your OH is away ☹️ mines SUPER stressed at the moment which makes me feel like just giving up cus it's not good for your swimmers if you're stressed is it. The joys of ttc!

It's gone very quiet on here, hope everyone's ok x

It is very quiet. I agree - hope everyone’s ok.
I am ok; friend situation is so hard as I’m very excited for her And being all involved in that but also so jealous as it took her 2 weeks of deciding to have a baby to actually finding out she’s pregnant and with twins too. Asked me to organise her baby shower too which I will do as I’m a kind person but it’s still very hard!

My boss to day told me if I wanted to go abroad for a ivf cycle he would support me with time off work etc which I thought was lovely

Oh wow, organising a baby shower is a big ask but you're a real good friend for doing it! Some people are just super fertile aren't they!!
What an amazing boss you have! The little bits of support along the way really mean a lot don't they @GreyC

Hi all, sorry I've been off grid, I've had a low few days and just haven't felt like doing anything - definitely my usual af hormone spike but magnified by the down reg drugs. Can't really complain as apart from that and a super itchy rash I've not really had many side affects! Obviously all might change when I start stims, but because I hadn't had af I couldn't start them last week, should start this week 👍

Good to hear from you @bunhead34, it's so frustrating when you can't ttc isn't it, feels like a wasted month in your life... try and do something nice together this month if you do miss ov otherwise you are just wishing your life away, give yourself something that made the month worthwhile maybe? I'm sorry your body is messing with you x

@greyC your boss sounds really great 🙂 is that something you're considering then? Well done on being so strong for your friend ❤ I found it super hard when mine was pregnant, I could call her but found it tough seeing her. It has gotten easier now she's had the baby actually (surprisingly) but I felt like a terrible friend before. You sound like a super good person!

@squirrelnutkins1 how have you been feeling lately? Love that poster btw!! Such a great idea, think I might buy it too, going on nice dates is definitely getting lower on our priorities so that's a good way to get some couple time back on the map, have you started yet?

@finallytakingtheplungewithivf how are you doing? Know what you mean about people, told a close family friend we were doing ivf and he almost started crying he was so happy for me, it was awful, I had to explain why it was actually shit news! But it was pretty bad for him too, he hadn't realised and basically thought it was a pregnancy announcement. It's not his fault, but it did really upset me as I really psyched myself up to tell him. Obviously some people also couldn't care less if they upset you lol. Have you made any decisions around your big holiday yet, or just giving yourselves some time?

@CloudSway hope you're feeling a little brighter today xx the poster hasn't arrived yet but I'm thinking of getting a frame and putting it up. We've def become a bit hermit like and done want to go out much so I think it'll help us, hopefully anyway!
I'm feeling ok. We're still ttc this month but with less pressure so here's hoping 🙏🏻

Glad you are feeling ok @CloudSway - I found the meds ok apart from the progesterone!

I’m not sure we are saving for a potential round but I don’t know if I want the faff of another country even though it’s nice for a break aswell as.
Waiting for my period on my own cycle now. Have opk as I just wanted to know and I got a almost positive test so somethings trying to happen and got a few twinges etc so hopefully I just missed the surge and AF will arrive around the correct time. I’m terrified that I’ve used all my eggs up and I won’t ever have a period again!!

My DP has found it incredibly hard and has had to go back on his medication - which is such a smack in the face for him as he’s tried so hard for over a year now but it made no difference to his sperm count last time so hopefully it will be ok this time. He said at work when he got a phone call (he’s an accountant for huge companies) that one of his clients was becoming a dad he almost put the phone down. I want him to be a dad so much it breaks my heart.

@greyC I know exactly what you mean, I'm finding that the worst part, how just sad DH is... Fx your period slips straight back into routine, have you tested for a late surge? I like the idea of going away to sort of put a nice holiday feel to it all, but I don't know how it works if an element of the timing is off, not sure I'd want the stress of booking flights last minute if that's what it involves! What's the progesterone for?

So I have officially lost weight, specifically from my lining lol, so had my first dose of Bemfola stim last night, woop! It was a different preloaded thing very stiff and hard to use, but it doesnt bring me out in a ridiculous rash so swings and roundabouts...

My scan is on Friday 15th. Getting super nervous now! Asked about restrictions and nurse said there's none.. anyone told not to exercise or strain anything? Seems odd to say there's nothing I can't do, like the world is my oyster, not that I'm complaining!

@GreyC geez organising a baby shower will be really hard for u! So is this a friend who knows uve been ttc? I thought the progesterone was the hardest part too very depressing hormone. Hope everyones holding up lots of love ladies x

Oh no, what's so bad about progesterone?
I'm got some to use for this cycle

@GreyC you're a braver woman than me, I'm not going near any baby showers now, never mind organising it!

Realised i got my dates for ov wrong this month and I will actually see DH for the first half of FW. I thought we were going to miss it completely.
He's working in Dubai for 2 weeks and I'm off there this weekend for a short break - hopefully I can 'relax' and conceive!!
Although now wondering if long flights affect your cycle etc 🤪🙄

@bunhead34 not scaremongering everyones different but it made me very tired and quite depressed feeling but its gd to know in advance and know its normal and it will pass no one warned me and i thought i was just gettin depressed from ttc x

If uve to take it once a day id say try and take it at night

@2fingers22018 jeez I'm already depressed 😧

I've got pessarys to do twice a day, I've heard it's quite messy 🙈

@bunhead34 thats exactly what i had hun it is messy but i didnt get any discomfort or pain from them like sum ppl said. Sorry if ive made u worry i just thought its better to be prepared because i was worried that id feel low for ages but i didnt it did lift when i stopped taking them

@bunhead34 progesterone was fine for me just usual pms symptoms! Like I’ve told everyone else who’s worried about mess up the back door is so much easier and no mess!

@CloudSway I’m ok up and down and my anxiety is at an all time high! We are considering doing a fet beginning of next year that way if it works we can cancel the big holiday well in advance and not lose much! But at the moment I’m not sure I can put myself through it again! Glad you can start your stims! It is hard telling people you psych yourself up and then once it’s out you have no idea what people are going to say! Sounds like yours was a bit of an emotional one xx

@2fingers22018 not at all! I'd rather know how I could feel than be surprised!

@FinallytakingtheplungewithIVF I have heard that about the back door being better 😂

She’s my best friend so even though she knows about my issues I just can’t say no. Might aswell get involved and join in the happiness(with a fake smile probably haha!)
@CloudSway I feel the same in some ways - flights and all of that could be stressful but lots of women do it successfully!
I think we are leaning towards adoption more at the minute; and that has a long old road to it aswell. Nothing for the next year though. Enjoyment of just being a couple and looking after ourselves.