IVF/ICSI May/June

[Cauliflower82]

Hi everyone

I’m creating a new thread with the hope of finding people with similar dates to me. I am due to start medication on May 13th with the hope egg collection will be June 19th. I’m 34, female factor fertility.

Anyone else out there with similar dates?

@SpongeBob79 best of luck.

This morning I took the same digital Test i took two days ago that told me I was pregnant and it said not pregnant. 😢 now some blood -started crying in front of a child and a colleague has driven me home -think it’s a chemical pregnancy for me.

Hope everyone is ok.

Oh @mouse1234567, I'm so sorry lovely. When is your OTD? Can you go and get bloods done? I'm so sorry. This is all so bloody hard. Take care of yourself xx

@mouse1234567 I’m sorry to hear this, it’s such a hard time isn’t. Is this your first go at ivf?

Really sorry to hear this Mouse, sending my love xxx

Good luck Spongebob79

I am so sorry mouse1234567 life is just so unfair :(

It’s a BFN for me, my level was 4 so they said it look liked something tried but didn’t get very far. Feeling pretty disappointed and fed up. I think we’ve decided we’ll give DE one more try but that will be our last go we have to draw the line somewhere I’m 40 and can’t keep doing this forever over 10 years ttc is a long time and to be fair I’m not sure how much longer I want this looming over mine and DH’s lives.

I wish you ladies the best of luck i’ll keep checking in on you to see how you’re all getting on xx

Thanks all-you are all so supportive. I went for a blood test this morning which came back as 43 which indicated pregnancy-but I will go for a repeat on Sat and I really think that it will be dropping because of the clear blue digital changing to not pregnant this morning and the spotting.

The clinic basically said stop testing and take the meds till OTD and upped me to 3 pessaries a day.

Will retest tomorrow but I think if the first response looks weaker and the digital still says not pregnant then it son it’s way out.

It is my first transfer -I know it may take a few goes but it’s so hard isn’t it! I know I will feel stronger and more up for it in time.

Got tomorrow of work -feel so tired with all the stress and not in the mental state for it.

Thanks everyone.

@mouse1234567 I'm so so sorry this has happened. Please look after yourself, sending love.

@Spongebob79 I'm sorry it's a BFN, so disappointing. I wish I had better words for you both, it really is just so hard.

Thinking of you both xxx

@Weenumpty posted before I could. I'm so sorry that it's not good news for you both. 😢

It's my first cycle of IVF and I'm absolutely drained this week - I don't think I anticipated fully the physical and emotional toll this would take. The pain and bloating is now subsiding, but it still aches to sit. Hope @DawnK77 and @KittyKatSmile are recovering well from EC.

Hi all

@mouse1234567 and @Spongebob79 I also wish I had any words that could give you any comfort. It's just such a huge challenge.

Personally I have to say I don't know how I'd be getting through any of this without all of you.

Take care all x

@Spongebob79 so sorry to hear that. It sounds like you have had a really tough time. 10 years is a long time -I’m in huge admiration. Look after yourself xxx

Hi ladies and @Cauliflower82 I’m also 34. I started hormone tablets on 24th May to 31st, started stimming on the 5th June with egg collection planned for Monday 17th. So just before you @Cauliflower82. I my first follicle scan yesterday, bit disappointed in all honesty as I’ve not responded that well and only produced 5 follicles of which 2 are the right size. 18mm, 19mm are the good ones, 13mm is my little one that I hope comes through for me!! I then have 2 at 10mm which they have said may not go anywhere as they should have been much bigger in day 7 but you never know right!! Continuing on Menopur and Fyremadel until tomorrow when I have my next scan. The consultant seems positive and said it only takes one so keeping up with the positive vibes 😀 He thinks that this will be the best I’ll get each time so need to make the most of every egg even if there may only end up being one. I’ve read so many forums and seen so many success stories so all you can do is hope right!! This is my first cycle and it’s all been a bit of a rollercoaster! Wishing you all well in your journeys xxx

Spongebob79 I am so sorry, that is so frustrating. I wish I could say something but I there isn't. 10 years is a long time, I have a huge amount of respect for you.

I echo what KittyKatSmile has said about not being able to do all of this without you. Only my husband and one person at work (only for absence reasons) know what we are going through. This is such a good outlet for all the questions and other people's advice.

BellaD85 you sound like you are a good way through. I understand your thoughts regarding eggs. Are you able to increase the dose of your stims? My clinic told me they can increase the dose after my 7 day scan if needed. (Mine is not until Thursday). However from looking at other people's experiences it doesn't seem like there is a correspondence between number of eggs and bfp...they say it's egg quality and only one is needed! Good luck.

Hi everyone sorry I'm slow. I go through phases of looking on here.

@Welshpugmomma I have had an hour phone chat with a counsellor at the clinic and my nurse spoke to me. The nurse said she was shocked I was struggling as I seemed so grounded. The counsellor talked a lot with me about my anxiety and underlying issues and that it isn't unusual for people like me to bring my anxiety to this. She did say people are a lot more vocal about the what if it doesn't work and don't feel they can say but what if it does work. I was scared to tell her I was even questioning the relationship but she said that's not actually that unusual either. I've got an appointment with a private counsellor next week when she's back from Holiday. I have my ups and downs. Currently on an up but in a split second I can completely slump without anything in between! And I really enjoyed Rocketman! It was a fab distraction! Going to see Aladdin next week with a friend too.

I'm so sorry @Spongebob79 You've done amazingly to get through 10 years. You must be an amazingly strong couple.

@mouse1234567 Wishing you loads of luck. Hugs to you xx

Thank you @Zest11. Is this your first cycle too? Apologies for not being up to speed, I’ve tried to read as much as I can from the feed but my first time on one of these things! They have kept me on the same doses, 225 Menopur and 0.5 Fyremadel with the hope that a couple more days will do the trick...they didn’t mention increasing the dose but I’ve read that other women have a bit more in the last few days. The nurse did say that the trigger injection can sometimes give you that last final boost so we will see! Definitely taking the OH with me tomorrow as I went on my own yesterday...big mistake!! Wasn’t really made aware of what the possible outcomes could be. How have you found the stims so far? Did you say your scan is next week?

Hi all-still as strong line on FRER as two days ago andthe clear blue digital wentbackti 1-2 weeks preg this morning. I literally don’t know what to think.have my second blood tomorrow so I should know by the evening if they show it’s progressing then at least I can start to move on if not.

After all this I do recommend not testing early -its been awful-and I still have to inject till next Thursday whatever happens! If you can wait it out -please do!

@spongebob79 sorry to hear this wasnt your round, I don't know how you've put yourself through 10 years of ttc, you must be very level headed! I imagine some r&r much needed now for you, take care of yourself...

@mouse123456 stay positive, I don't think I could put myself through testing earlier now having heard your story but I know how tempting it is having gone through 100s of sticks thinking it would be that month...

@Ginandtonic31so glad you managed to speak to someone you're definitely not alone there's always someone or there thinking exactly the same, sometimes just getting it all out does good especially someone you don't know. Also a trip to the cinema works wonder to get away from it all for a few hours!

Hope the ec girls are doing well and not too uncomfortable!

Thanks @KittyKatSmile and everyone else for your support I said goodbye to dh at lhr this morning it was so hard I had this little thought like hopefully next time I see you I'll be pregnant( almost like the virgin conception lol) bizarre but let's wait it out and see...

@bellad85 the board is very helpful, you're also a little ahead of me. Good luck stimming!

I have spice girls tomorrow, gonna have to Inject in the car before going in as didn't want to risk themTaking it off me etc. Eek the things we must do!

Hi BellaD85 how did today go? Glad your clinic have explained things to you! Yes this is my first cycle and finding this group hugely supportive. I only started stimming today and my first scan is next Thurs. Not expecting to get too many eggs due to my amh.

mouse1234567 hold on in there, for it to be positive is encouraging. Perhaps it was failing as progesterone was falling and that would explain the bit of blood? Did you say your clinic gave you more progesterone and since then it has gone back to 1-2 weeks? Not really sure how these things work but I really hope your numbers go up. Best of luck to you!

Welshpugmumma I hope you have a great time tomorrow, that will be a great distraction!

@mouse1234567 this is tentatively such good news but yes, hear you loud and clear that we shouldn't be testing super early. I'm not sure my clinic have even told me when OTD is so I've decided I can just choose but have recently put it back by two days to avoid the risk of HcG giving a false positive.

Update from the embryologist: they all survived overnight and are all graded 'good'. I couldn't believe it, was so delighted. She told me we'll be doing a 5 day transfer and then told me only 30% are expected to make it to day 5. What?! That is terrible odds!! Anyway. It's good news really and I'm delighted I've still got this many in the game.

@KittyKatSmile yes I think hold off as long as you can -I know that’s easier said than done tho!

Great news about the good quality of your embryos. So what day is transfer?

@Zest11 thank you. I was already on a fairly high dose of progesterone but yes I now do one more pessary. The nurse said the blood could be from so many different things so who knows?! They don’t sound too worried about a little blood!

@Welshpugmomma thank you. Wow spice girls -that will be awesome. Good luck with the injection -they really interfere with plans don’t they. Hope the time your DH is away whizzes by.

Trying to distract myself writing some reports for school. I feel a bit bad not being in work but I guess my heads not up to it. I feel like all the pressure of it all over the last few months just burst out of me yesterday.
It’s really hard to handle IVf and work isn’t it!

I’m so sorry I’ve been a little quiet as of late. In all honesty, I’ve been feeling rather despondent. Work has been incredibly stressful and I’m just worried I’m so stressed that I’m affecting my chances. I took my first lot of menopur last night - total disaster. Husband ended up cutting himself on the little bottle and blood everywhere.

I am SO bloated from just one day of stimming - how is that possible?! I feel horrendous, but it could be because work is tiring and rather relentless at the moment.

@Zest11 how are you feeling? Did you find the extra injection okay?

@mouse1234567 keep the faith. Thinking of you :)

@spongebob79 I’m so sad to hear your news. It’s such a horrendous ordeal. Sending you my love.

Will catch up later with all posts :) a bit behind and lesson 4 is quickly approaching...

@Cauliflower82 @mouse1234567 I honestly don't know how you teachers do it. I am fine being at work because I just leave if I want to and bark at people the rest of the time! I can't imagine having to be 'on' at all times.

@Cauliflower82 try not to feel despondent my lovely. Those little bottles are freaking stupid. What the hell is wrong with a bloody lid ffs?!

Transfer day is Monday then 15 lots of acupuncture then onto a plane to meet my mummy!

@KittyKatSmile wow -you are so near transfer and then meeting your mum-sounds great! Good luck. Hope you are feeling as calm as you can as you wait for updates.

Yes teaching is a nightmare -it’s all or nothing isn’t it -no hiding from those kids!

@Cauliflower82 so sorry to hear you are having a tough time. The bloating is so annoying!

Sorry work is so stressful-could you take a few days off? Is that an option? I would have found stimming really hard during term time.

KittyKatSmile that's great - it seems like you have some really good quality eggs there :) and brilliant you are getting to day 5. Remind me, are you using donor sperm? (I recollect you saying you were doing this alone) i think going away straight after ET is an excellent idea!

cauliflower82 please don't apologise - you need to do what feels right. And with work, please put yourself first. I have only just realised over the past year that it's so easy in our job to forget about ourselves but we have to put ourselves first. We only have a window really of a few years we can achieve our dreams. If you feel unwell, stressed etc, take a few days off. If it worries you that much, say you have a cold/flu etc. My thinking is that if it failed for me I would hate to think "what if it was because of x, y or z?" I would want to feel reassured I did everything I could. Are you primary or secondary? I am secondary so with this time of year I have lost quite a few exam classes which has been helpful.
First day of stims has been okay although I have two new purple bruises now! My husband sorts out the needles etc so I've no idea how he found them. I'm not expecting to get any side effects with these as I don't think I will be near OHSS. The burserelin didn't impact me until after a week so maybe it will be the same.

@Zest11 yep, donor sperm. The guy sounds dreamy actually. I kind of thought I'd like to marry him and have his kids for real before I realised he's probably 21

Everyone make sure you rest up this weekend and take plenty of time for yourself