3rd or more time lucky - IVF cycle buddies October

[Hobbes39]

Hi Just wondering of there are folks on here who are about to go through their 3rd + time of IVF who want a cycle buddy? I dont mean it badly towards anyone who is starting their IVF journey for the first time, (i was there just this time last year after all) but I feel a bit like I cant be as optomistic about it as I was, so dont want to drag any first timers down? Hope that makes sense!
Anyway, just to explain about me:
TTC #2 for over 2.5 years now
Unexplained Secondary Infertility (have 4 year old DS)
Age 40.5
AMH: 15.4
2 failed fresh and 1 falied FET (with single frozen 3BB embryo we got from 2nd fresh round)
about to start 3rd fresh round when my period starts in approx 7-10 days, so will probably be late october EC.
anyone else a bit jaded, but still vaguely hopeful want to join me?
xx

Hi all I am thinking positive and find this forum helpful knowing people are going through the same thing

Hope you’re ok decaf and lulah
hobbes - you hanging in there, everything ok?
coolchick everyone on this thread is so lovely and supportive. A lot of us were on a thread together earlier this year and to be honest I was a bit sceptical about ‘talking’ to a load of strangers but it has been brilliant and I wa so relieved to find everyone again - meant in the nicest possible way as none of us should be here at all, let alone more than once

Feeling physically fine, so back to work today. Thanks everyone.
Going to take a couple of months off ivf, plan to visit my family, an 8 hour flight away for Christmas so will start again in Jan. Hope to follow your lead gee and start up my c25k programme again next week.
Hope you are ok lulah
not too far to go now hobbes, hope its going well?

Glad to hear you are feeling physically ok Decaf - I know the mental side will take longer tho, so be kind to yourself x
Bjones - I’m ok thanks - starting to get jittery at times... I’m ok so far as i know it’s way too early to know either way, but Friday onwards I will be a wreck as if my body does the same as before my period will start on the Saturday if t hasn’t worked. I’m not sure I’m going to cope very well if this time doesn’t work... at the moment I don’t know if I can go through another fresh round, so v glad to have the frozen ones...
I’ve been taking to my embryos - trying to tell them to hold on in there. I think I’m losing the plot! 😂 Anyway, in part I want it to hurry up and be the weekend, but in another way I don’t as I want to keep hoping... as you can see I’m having a wobble
Hope everyone else is ok?
Coco how are you doing? Hope all is well ? Xx

Glad to hear your doing as well as you can @Decafplease thinking of you.
@Hobbes39 keep talking to those little embies. I did that last time too! Will you cave and test early or do you think you'll hold out if the bleed doesn't come early?

Hi Gee - I’m really not sure this time. If I don’t bleed by Saturday I don’t think I will test as will be even more devastated if it’s negative, so will want to hold onto the fantasy it has worked for every day I can... or maybe I will cave and test Saturday am fully in the knowledge it could be wrong.
I have been googling if 6dp3dt is too soon to test after all...! x

F*ckety F%ck - just had pink gunk when wiped. Pls don’t let this be over already...

Didn’t want to read and runhobbes. Could it be implantation bleeding? Everything crossed for you xx

Thanks bjones. - I hope so, but I have horrible feeling not. I’m only 6dp3dt.. surely on double progesterone I shouldn’t be getting period already. I’m also a bit crampy now too, but could be in my head...

Oh @Hobbes39 that is such a shit thing to happen to scare you. I'm not going to suggest what it could be - you and I have both been here before. All I'll say is try and stay calm. Take every hour as it comes. Big love to you.

hobbes dont want to read and run. As we all know, could mean anything or nothing at all. Try to stay as calm, if possible.Hugs!

Hang on in there hobbes - I know you must be so stressed but a bit of pink definitely doesn’t mean you’re out so try not to panic too much. Sending you a big un-mumsnety hug.

Glad it all went well on Monday decaf and glad you’re feeling ok physically. Sounds like a good plan to have a bit of time off - good luck with the c25k and let’s hope we both have better luck in the new year.

Hope everyone else is ok - you start downregging soon don’t you gee?

Hey @lulahbelle soonish. Period due Friday (but expected tomorrow) so that'll be CD1. Start downregging on day 21 so another 3 weeks to go...!

Thanks ladies - sorry for being a drama queen.. I’m clearly not coping as well as I had hoped with this latter part of the TWW. I just want to get to OTD... I haven’t had any more pink yet and thankfully the applicator for my crinone this evening wasn’t red (that when I knew it was over the last 2 times) so I’m clinging on still. Sorry I jumped off deep end!
God I wish I could drink

You have nothing to apologise for hobbes and you’re not being a drama queen! There’s something about IVF - especially when you’ve had a couple of failed cycles - that makes you hyper-aware to every little symptom and we’re all the same. Glad there’s been no more pink and definitely that there’s been no red - hang on in there xx

That’s great news gee - hope your period arrives on time so the countdown to CD21 can begin!

Hope all is quiet today hobbes we’ve all been there so know exactly how you feel. Xx
geeup hope your af arrives so you can be on countdown to day 21

So I’ve done something stupid - at 7pm this evening (7dp3dt) I broke and I POAS - fully expecting it to be negative as the main reason I did was cos I feel like my period is coming... but I think I see a line??!
Is my trigger likely to still be in system?? If it’s a a ‘true’ positive
I feel like it will prob end up being a chemical as def feel like period is on way... but 🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞 fingers crossed....
Can you guys see it? I haven’t even told DH as I don’t know whether it’s trigger or false hope!

hobbes I can definitely see a second line. Have no idea about the trigger, hopefully someone else will be able to advise. 🤞 🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞 for you. Xxx

Definitely a line hobbes - didn’t even need to expand the photo to see it and I’d think the trigger shot is long out of your system so congratulations!!! So pleased for you and fingers tightly crossed it’s not a chemical. X

Thanks bjones & Lulah - I haven’t even told Dh yet as scared to believe it... will wait and try again tomorrow am with FMU and see... 🤞. While I had a chemical with our first ivf (it was a shock as I bled heavily before test date, so hadn’t POAS) it’s 2 years since I’ve had a 2nd line (and that time was an ectopic) so I hope this time it sticks!

That's a positive @Hobbes39! None of us can assure you if it'll stick but your body is defo making hcg so that embie is trying its very best to implant!! Well done you and just keep doing what you're doing. Big love and got everything crossed for you. X

Thanks Gee! Am feeling so nervous - POAS again this morning - more concentrated urine - and the FRER has a line again but was fainter than before... so panicked. Did a CBD and it came back BFP 1-2 weeks... but am scared this is all just going to be a dream for a day or so. Considering using cyclogest pessaries left over from frozen cycle alongside my crinone to boost my progesterone just in case, but I know I’m being silly. Roll on Monday without bleeding please! 🤞 x

Keeping everything crossed for you hobbes 🤞

Oh hobbes!!! Am wishing the weekend away for you! 🤞🤞x

🤞🤞🤞 for you hobbes - hope Monday comes quickly! x