The mind numbing boredom of infertility II

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This is a thread for peole who really want to get pregnant but can't, who have tried pretty much everything, and are really fucked off about it.

Have you ever nearly punched someone for advising you to "relax", "go on holiday" or "just get drunk - that's what we did"? Well then this is the thread for you.

You won't find much sentimentality here and there's no baby dust, but there is empathy, a lot of swearing and a surpirsing amount of glittery dog shit.

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bean that sounds rubbish. Maybe you had the same embryologist as me. Tried to talk me into a trial if said no to right before transfer. Hope your feeling better. Fingers crossed for the embies.

icy so the weekend's going to be one long wait! Best of luck for Monday.

Hope you're feeling better bip . I hate thrush. (Haha but then who loves it?)

bean what an utter bitch of a clinician. Shocking how someone who's meant to be kind and caring can just knock the stuffing out of you!..well no glittery turd for her!!

icy might the bigger follies grow a bit more by Monday? Good luck whatever happens. Xx

Icy - sorry you are feeling disappointed. Hope the follies grow well over the weekend. I was told 2mm a day so could well be good sizes on Monday? I don't have a clue about oestrogen levels as my clinic doesn't use them.

Karla - she sounds a pleasure too! It's exactly what you need when you feel completely vulnerable isn't it? Twat.

bean - what everyone else said! What a fucktard! Rest and take care of yourself

icy - good luck for Monday, hope it goes well. Keep us updated.

I'm trying to stay positive. Not much to say really. I've booked in a few treats to get me through the next few weeks (going to Hawksmoor next week - at our midwife appointment she said not to eat rare meat and I instantly regretted that I hadn't had a good steak for ages), and then I'm going to focus on next steps. I emailed my parents to tell them- they live on the other side of the world and didn't know about anything that was going on- their responses were so nice and made me cry a lot but it was very therapeutic.

Hope you all have barren-tastic weekends. Flinging gobs of glittery dog shit at all of you.

Slept from midnight - 10.40 am. Fiendishly barrentastic.

icy I was the opposite.. Went to be at midnight. Woke at 6!.. But then went into town and bought half a dozen new novels- treated myself to a large coffee whilst deciding. Then, had a long nap this afternoon. What non-barren could do that?!🤔

Had a barrentastic hen do yesterday - slept till just now. Now going to lounge around in my pyjamas with a book I've been reading and a LARGE coffee (and two paracetamol for my head!) three pregnant girls at the hen do yesterday who did nothing but moan about being pregnant #fertilemyrtlescanfuckoff

Waiting for the clinic to call. Talk about pacing the floors since 8am this morning... What a great Sunday!

Any update Karla?

Yes bean Clinic have called a little while ago. Apparently all 4 are still bumping along. 2 are on target, 1 abit slower and 1 abit behind although she said under microscope it still looks good but just not as many cells as it should have by now but It could pick up by Tuesday but will have to see.. I asked if there's a chance of anything going drastically wrong by then but she said 'we are on track'..A little vague!
So egg transfer still planned for Tuesday morning and they will call me early if any problems.

Sounds good to have all 4 going x

Great news Karla!

Hope you're enjoying your drug free day icy - we're all thinking of you for tomorrow

Hope you're all having barrentastic weekends

I'm having ridiculous scanxiety for tomorrow's tracking scan, even though I saw I had lots of follies at baseline and low FSH, my tiny brain can't compute the idea that we're looking to minimise over stimulating rather than poor response. I'm so used to the sledgehammer dose of stims I'm terrified the teeny dose won't do anything and my ovaries were playing tricks on us and all my follicles will have gone into hiding

Which to be fair, given how bonkers my ovaries are, probably isn't without the realms of possibility. If my body is going to be barren could it just pick a side and stick to it?!

Fiends what a barren weekend we've all had! I tried to cure a hangover today by going for a bike ride with DH. Sort of helped but I am feeling it still. We've decided a McDonald's has been well earned.
banana wishing your ovaries have no more tricks to play. Let's hope the low dose works just as well to what you were used to.
karla you and DH must be on edge waiting for Tuesday now. Do you plan to take a few days of work afterwards?
nurse was the large coffee from an over priced coffee shop? Such great barren treat Will you be contacting the hospital to try get an appointment with the consultant?
icy best of luck for EC, is it first thing?
Oh I didn't think you was negative about me starting soon, you was exactly right. I'd have to find a different thread if I wanted rainbows, baby dust and positivity thrown at me.
kiwi that must have been tough having to let the family know what you've been through. Hope you'll be having a nice glass of red with your steak.
Hope your feeling less uncomfortable bip!
Hi potatoes did you have a nice weekend?

Dog shit to all! Hope everyone's appointments go well this week.

I heartily approve of the excellent barren weekends- hangovers, lie ins and all.

Pebbles Sorry if I've missed it but do you have a firm date for starting? Exciting it's coming up soon! Sprinkling you with heaps of baby dust. Nah- just kidding. I've lobbed a dogshit at your head as usual.

Banana, totally loving your use of 'scanxiety' whilst sorry you're experiencing it. Can't begin to imagine how confusing it all is trying to keep up with your body's current set-up each time and willing it to perform appropriately. You're in good hands though and I'm keeping everything crossed you get a decent haul again this time. Apologies for getting mixed up on your protocol- of COURSE I knew it was a freeze-all, just getting over-excited about you getting started!

Good luck this week, icy. Hope your scan is positive news and the subsequent EC goes as well as any procedure that consists of your feet in stirrups and someone rummaging around up there (with what I always picture as being an elbow-length rubber glove on) can.

Karla awesome news about those growing embies! Hope you get some stonking day 5s.

Nice barren weekend here too - saw some old uni friends who might be buying a house a road away from us. Other than the bit where they announced a 3-month pregnancy (natch) a lovely time was had. Especially when I rubbed her face in it by having a coffee AND a glass of wine with lunch. Mwah hahaha.
Off the wine officially now and back on the green juice from, er, tomorrow, honest, as am currently CD3 with a scan booked for Thurs to check how it's all looking pre-FET. Could have it onboard as early as 10 days' time. This shit is getting real!

Forgot to say have an amazing time at Hawksmoor, kiwi! Christ knows you deserve a massive treat.

GS to everyone else and the lurkybarrens.

Good luck today icy and banana

Do you have a date for your transfer yet grumpel?

Afm feeling pretty fed up. I think the reality of his wrong this has gone in a week has hit home. Would like to hibernate for the next week. Actually I'd like to go and get hammered but I guess that would be bad in case of the miraculous conception.

Good luck today Icy and hope you're not too scanxious Banana.

Sending a truckload of freshly minted glittery dog shit to everyone for this new week.

icy good luck today- will be thinking about you!

banana hoping your ovaries stop playing tricks on you and pick a side!

grumpel we haven't got any time off planned until the back holiday which would also be around the 2ww mark. Not sure how productive I am going to be at work over the next couple of weeks however things plan out!

Happy Monday to everyone, hoping the Monday blues aren't too bad

Christ. 25 eggs. Think they're going to IVF them tonight & call first thing. I love how they come and explain shit to you when you're groggy from a GA...! Anyway, pending that working out, it's a Freeze All and now doing everything possible to mitigate OHSS. In so much pain, last time it was this bad was post-ovarian drilling last year. Nurse v explicit in saying don't go back to work until at least thurs. Get to continue with beserelin stabs for the next 6 weeks too - oh fucking joy....

On the basis the eggs are not all did cunts.... They won't do a FET next cycle, will do one after in order to give ovaries time to deflate.

If it doesn't work I don't think I can go through all of this again. It's long and painful and never fucking ending.

Will know more tomorrow.

Sorry haven't properly read what you've all written, too busy ranting and moaning & wrapped up in myself!

The Woking Nuffield ward nurses were lovely for anyone who's there. Anaesthetist put me under discussing what champagne is best to drink.

Well done icy. Rest well. And now you can have the champagne!

Wow icy . Crossing everything that you get good news on your bumper harvest. Hope you have cake and chocolate at home and sorry you are in so much pain.

icy well done. Just a couple of tips on mitigating ohss (I was home for a full week) - drink lots of powerade (alternate with water). I drank around 1.5L powerade and 2.5L water a day. Needed it. Heat pack on abdomen. Easy to digest food and lots of dried fruit (don't want to get backed up, it's v painful). And lots of rest. Good luck!

Wowser icy that's a lot of eggs!! Was you expecting so many? R you PCOS too or just responded a lot to the meds? Sleath's advice seems like a good plan. Hope everything settles down soon and the break in between do you wonders...sorry you'll still be jabbing though.
bean have a little tipple if it will help, sure a little one won't hurt. Lots of dusty shite to you.
grumpel your weekend sounded ok until the babybomb. Bloody never ending, they arrive in all directions.
I am a few days into BCP won't get an official date till after baseline scan, so still plodding along.

Dog shite to all

Evening barrenettes,

I thought I would de-lurk and say hi.

icy - hope you are feeling better & are resting and being taken care of
Karla - Good luck for transfer tomorrow
Bean - your embryologist sounds like a Grade A douche

Had EC on Friday and got seven eggs, four of which fertilised. The clinic want to go for a day five transfer on Wednesday and I have properly got The Fear. I am trying not to think about my little embyros fending for themselves in a dish somewhere and I am definitely trying not to think about the possibility of another negative preg test in a fortnight or so. This is my fourth cycle. Urghhh.