The hut of gl/doom: ttc against the odds

[PhoenixFromTheFlames]

This is a safe haven for those ttc with difficult, with ?sub-fertility or sub-fertility labels. Where like minded people offer encouragement at times and commiserations at others.
I've decided the theme is Cocktail style: Flanagans. With a pink neon sign: Cocktails and dreams. Blinkity blink.
Newbies are welcome. Come share your tales of woe

Don't know really I said id do another round of injections as they like you to have 3 tries then after that probably ivf for me it gets harder and harder everytime

Home from work early again today... Going to lose lots of money but I just can't function especially in a nursery phoned the clinic and I've booked in for a scan on Thursday to start my last round of injections having a cuppa now and a then off to have my eyebrows done trying to find some way to cheer myself up but I am seriously struggling!! Have hoovered the house but that's about it dh is out walking the dogs he hasn't really talked to me much but to be fair there is not a lot that we can say really hmmm rant over... I think

Aww pink there's not a lot I can say either other than its not over until the fat lady sings and I haven't yet lol.
Today went ok my weight was only mentioned as I was going out the door as a passing some overweight people don't release eggs but you are so maybe try to lose a few pounds if you can. I was really dreading a lecture but he even said it wasn't too much of a concern.
Next step is book an internal scan and a lap and dye. He's reluctant to go in with cameras as I have had previous surgery.
Partner needs a second sperm text as expected too.

pink I think you need to take care of yourself first and foremost. Worry about money later. At least you get another shot so to speak.
Carrie that sounds very similar to my experience, the weight comment and everything. Only difference was Hsg not lap and dye. At least you'll start getting some answers soon...

Yeah I think that's what they are doing instead now I am looking at the stuff. He said lap and dye but didn't want to due to previous surgery so dye and xray instead.
Feeling very low after seeing my hospital file and all the details of my past pregancies

:( is your OH looking after you?

Er no he's at a mates playing xbox lol

I have decided to put things on hold for a bit. Today brought up too many memories for me and my OH doesn't seem to understand. Its my history not his so I will step back and cancel furture appointments for a bit. I will still lurk if people don't mind :(

Carrie hope you are ok, maybe taking the pressure off will help, no wise words unfortunately but you arent alone i don't think of all the losses its too hard.

I think you deal with one step at a time and if your history has thrown you off balance, perhaps that's wise. You're very welcome to lurk. Let us know how are are every so often.

Thanks for the support.
I don't think of the losses as its not worth it, it was seeing it all on paper and the diagrams and finding which tube I lost which I have always said I didn't want to know. I know it shouldn't make a blind bit of difference but it does.
Its the lack of support from my partner who would rather go play a computer game, makes me realise that I'm doing the hard bits alone.

Awww your welcome to lurk and were all here is you need us :-)

Lurk when you need to, post when you need to, we'll be here :)

Anyway all - I failed to meet with probably pregnant friend the other day (she hasn't announced yet, but reading between the lines I'm sure she is) but because she had car issues, not because I am feeling too fussed. Had a very nice Valentine's day yesterday - Hotel Chocolat goodies for me, out for beer and a curry, followed by much SwithoutI. V good.

Now - prepare for a long winded house search related post - no one in real life will listen to me any more, so I'm going to bore you lot And I don't know anyone on property and DIY so I'm not going over there!

Me and DH are booked in to see 3 (possible 4 if the estate agents get in touch) houses this Friday.
So, they are:
House one in a really nice area of town, but a bit small downstairs - 4 bed though as they have extended into the loft. From the drive by though it needs new windows, the conservatory is a cheap lean-to job, and it has an open fire - I would prefer a woodburner. Currently 290k - they ave come down in price, two sales seem to have fallen through. (Property bee is AMAZING for letting me know this)
House two is on an estate in a village, nice, big, hideous gas fire(no woodburner, possibly a back boiler), and 10k more than house one and not in town. I don't like it, but DH does.
House three is in another bigger village, has only just come on the market, haven't seen any details yet as the estate agent suggested it. Is apparently 70s build, and 'not pretty'

Thanks Delilah sounds like you have an exciting Friday ahead... Good luck and keep an open mind hubby and I played rich when we were looking for a house was v funny seeing the faces of the agents hehe

Well, another scan tomorrow pain today with AF and not feeling good at all getting over my cough and cold... Another round of injections for me but I don't think that it will work and will absolutely refuse to get worked up this time...

Hope everyone else is doing well?

Oooh I love house hunting! Well our house is in a large village and we love it. You have to go with your gut, you'll know when you find the right house.
Sorry you're feeling rough pink :(

I would also love to be house hunting! We rent at the moment, and i already have itchy feet Now i can drive i want to move out of city and away from noisy neighbours!! our area is a pain for parking and my neighbours aren't too friendly. I think i can convince dp to move in about 2-3 yrs, convinced him to move here as last house was too cramped with all DS' stuff. Saddest thing is since we moved in our third bedroom has been decked out for a baby... But one just hasnt come... Anyway thats me off on a tangent!

I am ill! Have d&v so no work today which has gotten me the usual response of Only part time blah blah... So annoying!
Fertility wise im struggling, ive been so spotty and just yuck, moody and exhausted so pretty sure ov is occuring but dp and i just havent really dtd! So this month is unlikely. And without knowing weather it was the good side or the bad side that realeased the egg i dont know when to expect AF, the cruelest part i think is that AF symptoms are also early pg symptoms.

Anyway hope tht all made sense! Carrie hope you are ok, and hope everyone else is ok too. Pink don't worry about cash if possible, sometimes you just have to be kind to yourself and i can only imagine how hard working with kids must be!

Hope your feeling a bit better soon pink.Happy house hunting Delilah.
BB i know how you feel I have been feeling sick for days and due Saturday but feel like I'm not so will have to wait.
My OH has said sorry he didn't realise what I was going through and doesn't want to pressure me but we have both agreed to wait until after the weekend before deciding anything else. Hopefully by then Af will have arrived or not and I won't feel so raw from hospital visit.

Carrie that seems sensible, if your area is anything like mine (down south) if you refute or push back appointments it can be hard to get them reinstated, so its important that you are sure. Not teaching granny to suck eggs or anything ( i don't get that phrase!!) but at least if you are having treatments you can feel like you are doing all you can? Thats how i would see it anyway although im a control freak haha so any control i can imagine does me good! Thats part of what disheartens me, the free falling aspect. Did you have much help to conceive DD? At least DP has seen how you are hurting, its a great source of support when you are both on the same page. DP and I are most of the time but he is much more relaxed about the whole thing, he has said if we only ever have DS he an live with that, and whilst I adore DS i just want him to have a sibling, i want hoardes of cHildren... Its greedy I know! The vomiting seems to have passed thank goodness! Altho the other end is, ahem, still dubious! Hoping DS wont get it!

I read a lovely thread on adoption, and find myself thinking that if i really cant conceive again that would be a way to complete our family, altho financially im not sure its viable i dont know about you all but I tie myself in knots thinking so far ahead!

Adoption is great and I wouldn't worry about the finances they don't expect you to have savings. I will if it comes down to it just worried about OH age as he is 37.
I concieved naturally last time but my DD was after misscarriage, ectopic and cysts along with other things plus its with a different OH and he's been told he has lower mobilty but fingers crossed. I'm feeling so sick and have been for days, can't decide if its backend of me being ill last Sunday or because I am due on. I'm not saying the P word

Ah my dps had his stuff tested and its all normal which makes me feel worse as all the issues are mine

I Don't know the next step for me i think all i can do is try and get healthier.. Easier said than done

Where are you at in your treatment BB?

This is the laughable bit... My docs have said that until i loose weight they wont do anything for me. No tests no treatment etc. they have advised me to take supplements and loose weight, said as I have DS am not a priority, no rights to IVF etc...

BUT PCO makes weight loss hard, and i was heavier when I conceived DS!! Sp frustrated but they wont start clomid etc until ive lost weight. Feels like I'm being judged!

(should clarify that they had already done bloods and scans which led them to say PCO but no S as scan showed PCO but bloods didnt confirm the S part! Laughable!!)

Awww bb as a fellow pco'er I know how hard it is to lose the weight!!

Had a scan today everything is fine started injections again but didn't fill me with confidence as on my way out laden with drugs she handed me an ivf booklet consent forms and a consultant initial consultation for ivf on 27th march...

Hey ho open mind without optimism seems to work well

Ah pink maybe you can share some tips? As i gain in a nanosecond and loose in a year if im lucky!! I found out I was pg with DS a week after our first consultant appt so didn't get v far with the process, then after DS they've only done minimal stuff... Totally poo situation! I have paul mckenna and am going to give it a very good go!