The hut of gl/doom: ttc against the odds

[PhoenixFromTheFlames]

This is a safe haven for those ttc with difficult, with ?sub-fertility or sub-fertility labels. Where like minded people offer encouragement at times and commiserations at others.
I've decided the theme is Cocktail style: Flanagans. With a pink neon sign: Cocktails and dreams. Blinkity blink.
Newbies are welcome. Come share your tales of woe

i've just done a 'mind dump' post in Conception faith
not feeling positive and think it's fuelling my fear. Although right now it's actually the thought of the canula to send me off to sleep that I'm really stressing about. I don't like needles, but I'm not a sobbing wreck about them. The last few times I've had blood taken though it has hurt, and I think this is contributing. It's like the more often you have it done the worse it gets.
I've only had G&A once and I was 12 so they gave me the mask....and I was bloody sick after it.

IME a cannula isn't actually as bad as bloods as long as it's put in right - it's sits fairly comfortably. G&A isn't really used much for sedation anymore because of the nasty side effects. Actually when I had a general anaesthetic it was quite pleasant. Just floated off to sleep and had really nice dreams!

I have to agree a general is nice the best sleep I ever had.
I'm still not well although back at work as I don't do taking time off. I have kidney problems, they have given me more antibitoics, anit spasmodics and have to keep taking paracemtamol as my temp is high and go back next week. Getting worried now as back at the clinic next thurs to discuss clomid. I can't see them giving me anything at the moment

Hey Faith Well, finally all of our paperwork is in to the mortgage company (DH is self employed, and they kept wanting more stuff) so I am hopeful our mortgage offer might finally be agreed. Feeling a bit stressed as the estate agent phoned today saying the vendor is getting nervous as it's not through yet - WTF they expect me to do I don't know! So very stressful, but hopefully things will start falling into place soon.

Queen I've had a lap, and it's really not that bad. Worst bit is all the waiting around before. If you don't like needles/the cannula, claim you are needle phobic and demand Emla cream - I did

Carrie hope you are feeling a bit better. Were you at clinic today, or is that next week?

BB pink and lurkers, hope you are all doing well.

Still alive if that's what you mean by well

Bearing up busying myself with work stuff hubby hasn't heard anything from any of the jobs he's applied for so very not happy but hopefully will perk up soon

Queen I have had cameras in a few times hence the reluctance of my consultant to go back in as I have scar tissue. Would rather have that than the HSG again lol and you can get the cream that numbs if you don't like needles.
Pink just keep on going things will look up.
Don't stress too much Delilah.
Hi faith and lurkers.
Nope not better in fact worse lol antibiotics have knocked me sick, made it into work cleared the major jobs before I saw my Gp who has changed my pills and signed me off until Monday. Wonder how ill I have to be to get signed off for longer lol my own fault for saying I don't like taking time off I guess

Carrie sorry to hear you're so ill :( but glad to hear your GP was sympathetic. I've been signed off week by week, if you're still not well, go back and get another one! The longest length I ever got signed off for was 3 weeks after my Mum died. My GP knew I simply wouldn't cope it work.
pink sorry to hear there's no joy with your hubby's job yet. Keep us posted.
Delilah I remember those frustrations well. Even in a short chain, everything takes so long doesn't it?!
I'm doing well in one respect - I've cut my painkillers right down to just paracetamol. The side effects with withdrawing from codiene after 4 weeks on it are pretty horrific though Think I'll take myself off to bed in a minute!

I can't handle painkillers they knock me out so doing this with wheatbags only its not fun. Gp was ok but I can't help getting frustrated as its not going and they just keep changing my pills.
They won't do any more tests as af has arrived so they can't tell where the blood is coming from in my urine (tmi sorry).
Just fed up with it all now, af is on day four and still only light which is a shock for someone who uses superplus every few hours and now can't even use lights. The pain has worn me down to the point where I cried at my desk today, my work collegues have been great and its a senior who insisted I went back to gp today

Have they done an ultrasound to see if you have any stones? Where exactly is the pain?

The pain is in my right kidney and no they haven't they did last time but said its pointless as not all stones show on a scan. This isn't the first time I have had issues. I also had a CT scan last time. Day five of AF and I am laid on a towel as so heavy. Beginning to wish I hadn't had the HSG done. We have three more cycles then we will quit for a bit. We have a big holiday booked for next year and don't want to miss it due to me not being able to fly

It certainly sounds similar to the pain I've been having and my scans didn't show anything.mHave you been offered buscopan? It's an antispasmodic usually prescribed for ibs but it really helped my pain - I think the idea is the pain is caused by spasms as your body tries to get rid of stones.
I don't recall having a significantly different period after my hsg but from some googling apparently the first one can be. I hope it settles soon.

I'm on buscopan already. I'm hoping it all settles its been going on since march.
I have heavy periods anyway but this one is harsh. I've googled it and it looks like I'm not the only one so will grit my teeth and get through it and back to multi vits with iron lol

deliah glad you don't smell adoption is a wonderful thing to do, DP and I have discussed it for if we cant conceive another DC, he is not for it at the moment though
Hope house is sorted soon too!

faith wedding is 4/5/13 (may the fourth be with you as DP says haha!)
Im the opposite i loved g&a haha i was high as a kite on it! Hope side effects of codeine withdrawal have eased!

pink sorry you are having such a pants time, hope things pick up, the market is so tough at the moment. Wedding will be expensive but IL's and my mum are contributing (IL's have kindly offered to pay for reception) am glad its not much of my cash haha!

queen hope you are ok will echo others and say that general was fab sleep (had it 3 times), im ok with needles has GD with DS so had to test blood six times a day inject self 2 times a day and had 3 drips in labour! I think as long as they are comfortably fitted they are bearable.

carrie for illness/ bleeding, i take time off when really ill, as i find they are the only day i can rest as DS cared for, but feel wrongly guilty for it viscious circle

Epic post there! Sorry to anyone I've missed!

Today was last day in my current role, start a new role at a new dept and location, new working days (3 instead of 2 eek) and hours on monday, excited but also a bit nervy!
Have a busy ish weekend planed to keep me busy though, and dp is off on my days off next week, and DS is going to GPs for the night so we can have a rare night out!

Fert. Wise, I'm 7 days "late" according to my app, CD40 in reality, so long but not longest I've ever had. We DTD quite a bit lately but not for conception IYSWIM? I am feeling sick and tired and weeing but i think its in my head!

not having a good day. DH got hold of and hugged me in the middle of the shop and asked if he could do anything to make it better. I asked him to fast forward to next Weds please.
I've not had surgery since I was 12 and it's such a distant memory it's barely there. I'm just feeling quite terrified at the moment. I am always worse in the immediate run up to stuff like this. I'll be a wreck on Tuesday morning too, but once I'm in the hopsital and waiting I'll probably calm somewhat because I'll actually be dealing with it if that makes sense. Right now it feels like time is dragging and rushing at me all at the same time.

Oh queen sorry your having a bad time hopefully after wednesday things will be better for you fingers crossed don't worry about it tho you'll b fine and it's good dh is there for you

I'm feeling slightly better just can't wait till Monday then I will feel a bit better bout the whole process

well stage one is complete and I've been for my pre-op assessment. I have to get to hospital at 7.30am!! on Tuesday. I'm not good in the mornings.....this does not bode well for my anxiety. Also if I don't have caffeine I'll have a stinking headache by 9am.....and I am allowed a black tea before 6am...so I'm going to have to get up at bloody 5.30.
I asked if she knew where I was on the surgery list as waiting around is an anxiety trigger for me. No idea. So basically I could be waiting until noon to go down for surgery. So i'm preparing for a long boring morning, trying to keep a lid on my anxiety.

On the upside I the phlebotomist at my hospital. I told her I was nervous this time after the woman in A&E in Feb butchered my vein and so she used a 'baby' needle and I didn't feel a thing and she asked gently how I was after my CP at the beginning of the year. I did tell her that her question this morning was actually the full extent of care I received as regards that and she was appalled.
So....a weekend to enjoy, and I just have to keep thinking that very soon it will be all over and I hopefully will have some positive news after the op.

pink I'm glad to hear you're feeling a bit better. I guess Monday represents a new phase in a way? Be kind to yourself.
Queen I'm sorry to hear you're struggling so much. It's funny how just one person showing sensitivity and concern impacts on you, isn't it? When I was in hospital only the last doctor who saw me introduced herself by name! I had no idea which doctor was what level or any of their names! I agree unfortunately the day of the op you will have some hanging around to do. my advice would be to get a variety of things to entertain you including a film on a mp3/ipod if you can! When I was nbm from 6am one morning in hospital I.woke at 5.45 just to eat then went back to sleep! I'm sure it'll be ok, I know you just want to get it over with!
If I'm honest I'm struggling a bit. I've been signed off for another week. my boss seems to lack any sympathy! All he said was 'I look forward to receiving your sick note'! That's weird, right? He's never said how are you, any better, hope you feel better soon, looking forward to having you back. he's only been my boss.for a few months and I can never get a read off him. Very odd. I'm especially fed up tonight because we had tickets to.see Michael macintyre locally tonight and I couldn't go - I'm still not really well and it would look really bad if I was seen and I think I would be! Positive news is that my piano is finally repaired and back with me :)
in ttc news, I am about 4dpo according my chart and FF. the wait begins!

Ps I [heart] the NHS! Today I received an appointment letter for a gynae follow up. Letter.dated 29th March. Post date 18th April. Appointment was 10.30 this morning! Seriously though I'm a bit peed off actually cos I'll have a DNA on my records! I'm going to complain about it actually, it's completely ridiculous. What a waste of resources!

Yea I think that's what it is faith Well see what happens I suppose

Sounds like there's a lot of worry in the hit at the moment everything will be fine I know it probably over said and I hate the phrase but if you can try and relax and also I like the movie idea it will keep you busy while you wait

We are taking a break from ttc for a few months

How come Carrie? Is it the stress? I'm sorry to hear you are. We did in the summer for about 3 months and actually it was such a tonic. Now we're actually enjoying sex again. I hope you feel better soon.

Just need a break from it all and we have a big holiday to America next year so won't be able to fly in last few months and don't want to go with a new born. I need to recover from kidney infection too and without much time off work its going to take a while

That makes sense Carrie. Make sure you look after yourself as you recover.

queen hope u are holding up ok
faith i would also want the DNA removed!

pink hope things have improved

CD43 for me no sign of AF but BFN on FR on friday ( was supposed to be going out for a few so had to test) am getting so fed up with this whole process, not sure
Opks would be worthwhile? With temping does anyone know if i can use my digital ear thermometer? Im stuck really. I dont want to go back to the GP's as they are refusing to refer until i loose weight... And it feels degrading as i was bigger when I conceived DS... I have told myself that if nothing has moved on after the wedding I will talk to the doctor... Im just having one of those days where i think why am I being tested!! Sorry what a whiney post!

Don't worry about being frustrated on here BB, that's what the hut is here for! What exactly has the GP done so far? And can I ask what your bmi is? I think it's really harsh that they dismiss you because you're overweight! Can you see a different GP?
Remind me, do you have PCOS? for a lot of people with PCOS temping and opks are unreliable....if you do temp, it has to be oral or fanjo! because ear is not close enough to show.core body temp. Have you read 'Taking charge of your fertility' by Toni Weschler. That really helped me.