Cleo ... Can you honestly say you'd have liked to live his life? Without dismissing the sheer horror those people went through (and I really really can't imagine how frightening it must have been), can't you spare any mental sympathy for someone who was once a small wriggling baby like any other, born without any innate conception of hatred or politics or war, who eventually grew into that person with that ending?
That was it. That was his life. Over and gone forever because of the world he and others are born and brought up within. And his story's sadly not close to unique. Again, that's NOT the same as saying his actions are remotely excusable or OK because that's nonsense. It's not to say his victims don't deserve sympathy, or that he deserves more.
But I just can't comprehend not feeling any form of something like regret and sadness for him and others. I feel that sort of thing automatically alongside feeling sickened and sorry for the victims.
Weirdly it reminds me of the day we spent watching the rolling footage during 7/7, when this 60-something looking man was being interviewed, clearly dazed, covered in dust and cuts, and the interviewer asked him "how do you feel about the people who carried out these attacks".
I cringed, waiting for the inevitable "oh the shits, I'm furious, we should invade their country and shoot the fuckers" sort of response, and he flabbergasted me (and the interviewer) by replying without even blinking something like "I feel desperately sorry for them. No one in their right mind would do this."
It really stuck with me and even now, makes me pause thinking about it.
I'm not trying to virtue signal (?) or something, I'm just trying to explain how I feel about it. My sibling works in a relevant role and I worry frequently about this stuff and their safety, and there have been times I've been terrified by the dangerous incidents they've been through and felt something like hatred flaring up - but it's not acceptable to effectively dismiss the people they work with as vermin. It's so much more complex than that.