Thanks PD, silly I know, but I have shed hot tears over this thread.
I know I have taken part in discussions on other forums but I have always thought of MN as 'my place' even when involved in heated controversial debate with other trusted MNers.
I have, more or less, been told I don't belong here, and my contribution is spoiling it for others!
That really hurts especially when I have asked people who don't appreciate me and/or my posts to just ignore me and resume their 'own' discussion.
I have been told I am speculating and being macabre.
I have been misquoted and been told I am saying things I have never said!
I have a history going back 5 years on here and I have been wrong and corrected many a time. I have never minded putting forward my pov, trusting that this is the one place I can accept being wrong and learning from my mistakes.
This thread has seriously shaken my confidence in myself, and in the last few days I have gone over and over the trial trying to see why I have angered MNers so much!
I simply don't know anymore!
I have been honest and attributed my sources and my 'workings out' when asked. I know that today I have been frustrated (and maybe a bit angry at times) also, the other day I was silly and spoke out loud when I was en route to a migraine (under heavy questioning) and I got muddled with minutes/seconds and my additions
but I admitted it and took a break from trying to justify myself knowing I was wrong and appealing to others to help put me back on track.
I doubt i will sleep tonight because I am so upset!
However I am still holding to my opinion, and I hope I can still be open to anyone who can change my mind with reasoned debate.
As I say I have joined this thread late, but it's not the MN I know! I feel I have been bullied, and that is not something I have EVER seen tolerated on MN.
I don't know if I will stay following the trial, but I WILL stick with MN until then at least.
After that my detractors can all have a party about my demise knowing they have chased me off! I hope they have a jolly good time!
I will decide then if other forums are more worth my while!