Let your love light SHINE (Y)

[Mouseface]

Hi, I'm Mouseface.

Welcome one and all to our 100,000,001th thread on healthier eating, losing weight, cake and of course cock chat!

So, I'm 8lbs lighter (still) and just maintaining....

How about you?

Right if i can remember everything:

jet - no silly i am glad i asked. and i think this lot are right re the nursery. having to do it everyday makes you stronger i think. you see i shop online and dp gets everything i want or posts stuff etc every day so i never need leave the house. BUT I should force myself to else fuck knows how i'll get back to work in jan.

double and dib - yes my mum says that too, she is sad that once her mum dies (my grandad died three years back) she'll have no 'witness' to her childhood because she is an only child.

saf - how about scrapbooking for ds? i know its a facile answer but you could keep his memories that way? dd loves looking at photos.

dib - which solicitors and can you please get my ex a job. pretty please

wasting - i cant bloody remember but it was important

Saf - don't be fooled that DS won't remember. Jack frequently reminds me of things that happened when he was anything from 18 months.

Don't beat yourself up.

see, now i want to say that its nice we all feel the same, when actually - no its not I mean - its good that we can understand each other!

Wasting - that is exactly how i feel re the judging. When i met up with Yank, we must have looked for somewhere to have lunch for ages, as they all had people in. I really struggle to eat in front of people, as i imagine others are saying all kinds of things. Throw into that a stroppy kid, and - well, its not good

Saf - sorry you feel like this too

But, Crispy got her cheque Yay!!

SAF - agree, photos will do the job. Force yourslef to upload them and print them off on the first day of every month - I use snapfish and can all be done online.

Have you considered keeping a diary? I started one after DS, and it helps to offload onto paper, but is also a wonderful (mostly) reminder of what we did/how I felt/how the DC grow.

Night Saf, take care xx

DiB - I was in a similar line of work Before Child. The unpaid overtime etc v familiar . No bonus for making my chargeable hours either - once I got told - yes, you just made that target - but don't you want to be exceptional and exceed the target .

I'm more like wasting I think, in that I also get wound up about people judging my parenting when out and about. When DS was around 4 was a low point - as he had poor speech, still in a buggy, not fully toilet trained (mild SN), so I felt very para about people judging me. I tend to feel better out and about but I do feel isolated at times, as I don't have many friends nearby, the SN stuff has put a bit of an invisible barrier up in terms of making mummy friends the last few years, but I can't just blame that, my ropy social skills won't help....

Could I be lazy and just print off the Shiney threads to explain to the DC what I was doing in their formative years, I wonder?

Really, my lovely, how many times do we need to post about your sliiiiim thighs before you'll believe us??

bitter - the was because it was world of warcraft.... niiiice.

my ex (not exh) was into that sort of stuff. kept putting this funny voice on and asking for flagons of ale i had to sleep with him. we broke up

Your social skills are fabbo online, TC. Which I find much harder than RL - all so B&W.

I'm almost the exact opposite. I love people, will happily talk to anyone.

However, when DS was a baby I just didn't know a soul here. I used to walk to the supermarket every day just so I could have a chat with the first pensioner to coo over him.

wow double, i read back there - i write letters too! I started writing to Junior when she was born, its only in a little tatty book - i keep meaning to get a proper little journal or something. To my shame though, i havent actually got one for mini yet!

And i absolutely love that statement, "everyone needs a witness". It is so true. Thats why i started the letters, as my memory is crap and i wanted junior to know how important she was/is to me when she is older. I try to keep my opinons of her dad out of there

My childhood exists of what i can remember. Which is pretty much nothing THe only witnesses i have are my ex foster parents, who only took me on when i was 14 - so before that, its all fragmented. I even tried to read my SS file once, to fill in the gaps, but it hadnt been stored properly, and all that was left from 18 years in care, were 8 pages. I did however photocopy those pages, and are in my treasured posessions box

Sometimes, i just wish i could ask someone - "so, how old was i when i walked/first words etc"

Fluff, much as I moan about DH,I can hand on heart say I have never heard him put on a funny voice and ask for a flagon of ale.

It's more him trying to explain about his shiny new sword and my eyes glazing over.

[not a euphemism]

TC - i second what Dib says, you seem so together on here - and you are lovely

night saf xx

night rest of you going to finish uploading, think i will start letters for dds though tomorrow, really good ideas

yeah yeah bitter bet his sword just needs a spit and p;olish eh??!

night fluffs and saf

Fluff - you need to double your prices for those brooches, I reckon.

Jet, DH remembers nothing of his childhood. He has one memory from when he was 8, apart from that it's all a big blank until about 14

And if it makes you feel better, when I ask my fabulous Mum questions about when I first walked or talked - she doesn't have a scooby.

Don't hike your prices until I have bought a brooch please Fluff.

oh i know there are people worse off than me bitter, or in similar positions, sometimes it just gets to me a bit

The day i was moved into the first kids home, i was 13 and basically went straight from police station to the home. All i had was my school uniform that i was wearing, and that days school books. From the first 13 years of my life - that is what i was left with. So no witness and no posessions.