Double - 'It does get harder as you get older as everyone has more to lose maybe.'
And often, more to gain. Compare yourself now with yourself at 18-20 say. For me I wasn't ready for love, to committ to just one person, to be secure and steady or to grow up.
I was a complete nutter then. No savings, no security in my life, no life expereince of any value.
Freinds came and went as did men.
At 35 I see things a whole lot differently. I value more. I'm independant even though I'm married. I have control of my life and I have an idea of where I want my life to go and end up. To a certain degree, I'm heading in the right direction although DS's additional requirements were unexpected, I just get on with it.
I am a nicer person. I understand more, I have learnt so much in the last 10/15 years. Life lessons I hope to pass onto DD and DS.
I am less selfish (except for all this 'I' ing ) in this post.
Which means I have more of me to give.
Sermon over....... as you were!