(((Syc))) Yay that has cheered me up, don't worry about 5lb+ I was 12lb+ when I came back on but back to normal now. Glad to have you back
Now, now, now, now, now. I am sooooo sorry for my ridiculous woe is me rant last night. Let this be a warning to everyone about what can happen when you have MN open and then check your bank account at the same time.
Writing on here was like spilling it all out, and has allowed me to focus a bit more instead of it going round and round in my head.
I am truely touched (and a little embarressed) by the kind offers of help I have recieved tears, yes real tears were shed. My post was not and continuing posts will not be a cry for help or appeal of any kind, I would loath anyone to think such a thing of me, or to feel obliged to offer help.
So last night after my cyber break down, I told DP the news and he was as always wonderful, said he didn't care a jot, we would be together in a beautiful home (not 5 ppl in a 2 bed flat)and would have a wonderful time. I went to bed feeling slightly better in a wearing rose tinted specs way
Woke up at 2am with blinding tooth ache, then was sick. Got back to sleep at 4.30amish.
Up at 7, got 3 kids dressed and dropped round to Mums as we had a solicitors apt re DP's immigration. Got bus at 9.50am, DP needed to take pics to send to home office so went to with draw £10 to pay for them. The cashpoint took my card Halifax said they have no idea why and will send a new one
Went to DP's apt for 11am only to be told they had sent the worng apt out, it should have been for next week as our solicitor was on holiday all week ggrrrr.
Bus back to Mums told her all my woes, she said don't worry it's horrible, but you just manage, reminded me some of the best Christmases we have had have been done on little or no money. She then went up stairs and bought the Grinch who stole Christmas down, and read the last few pages, which was wonderful and made me cry.
I then went and pawned my old wedding ring and got £60 for it, have organised a meeting with student services to see if they can help, have filled in a form for help with child care for DS and I should get that from student finance (only around £100 but it will all count).
One of my brothers contacted me after hearing my news (it travels fast in my family) and has told me I'm not to worry about putting any money in for my younger brother 18th bday(£200 rust bucket car) next month or my Mum and Dads Silver anniversary present (flights to the Shetland Isles) because he will put extra in and say its from me.
I have cancelled DS's 4th bday party (11th November/two weeks today) and have checked boots points total and I have £26 to spend in store so toiletries are sorted.
Wow busy day, we are in the shit but it just has to be dealt with. I have a roof over my families head and warm beds to sleep in which is more than some people.
I'm so sorry laying this all on you, but it really is helping just to write/type it all down.