Morning
I need help
I'm having a meltdown and I can't stop crying
DS1 is working nights so won't see him over Cmas which I knew
DS2 texted me at 5am "Probs home mid afternoon, will stay up all/most of day so i wont be tired for Christmas if i dont sleep tonight" which has unaccountably upset me
I dont know why, but I would have liked some help / time together today. Not him tired and hung over
DH forgot some gifts for DS1 and DIL from his family, so they're in with ours still and they won't have them for Cmas (they won't care, it's me that's bothered)
I've been ok the last few days from the chemo / immuno, not really taken much pain relief
Woken up this morning and my chest really hurts, taken morphine and paracetamol, and it's taking a while to kick in
I'm on 2.5ml and I can't find online if I can take a bit more
There's stuff to do today and it feels overwhelming and my family feel useless
Sorry, it's nothing but I can't pull myself together