Steve is going into the hospice this afternoon

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i know he needs to be there and hopefully they can get him more stable.

I've been thinking of you a lot today OJ. It must be torture watching him go through this. How helpless you are. I guess you're having to keep it together for the children too.

I hope for all your sakes he passes on quickly if its what you want and it certainly seems right.

Is his family around to support you all? I'm trying to work out if and how you can get a break from the thoughts because it must be relentless. Can you switch off at all? For any time?

It's so hard to know what to say but I really want to reach out to you and your family and make soup for you and hug you and babysit.

As always, OJ, what you are going through puts other things into perspective.

Love and support and hope for peace for Steve are all there seem to be to offer right now (apart from sane practical help such as you seem to have from a few RL friends, if not from your MIL!). You have all of them from MN in spades. I only hope it helps a little.

i just don't feel strong enough to handle all this right now.

OJ - you and Steve have been in my thoughts and prayers xxx

((OJ and Steve)). It's a horrible situation - I don't think anyone could handle it.

oj can they do anything with his meds to ease his anxiety?

Is there anyone in RL who could come and stay for a little while - with Steve not there I am sure you could use some company for you, and someone to share the burden of logistics for the DC?

steve is already on Anti-d's plus haloperidol and loramapam, thing is it is not like clinical depression as such more to do with the tumour,
i have had a lot of RL support from lots of close friends, as for family no support at all

do they act as sedatives too?

poor you, what an awful situation, x

he is always tired and does sleep a lot but very restless sleep, he doesn't sleep for very long.

No words OJ, so for all of you

OJ this is such a nightmare for you. It's been a nightmare from the beginning when you had to fight for diagnosis. You must be so exhausted emotionally. A year ago you'd never have foreseen this would you?

I do not know what to say, so will just offer a {{{hug}}}

So so sorry that you are going through this.

Thinking of you and Steve.

robinpud, sorry i missed your message, i would love to meet for coffee but not sure i can fit in a trip to the sweedish place, i am meeting with hospice consultant this morning and the psych bloke this afternoon, email me maybe you could come over to our house at some point if you feel brave like it

oj sending hugs to you, i am amazed at your amazing strength in coping, i wish we could help you and your lovely familyx

Oj Hope it goes well with the hospice consultant, and psych bloke.
Will be thinking of you xxx

Lots of love and hugs OJ, as always.

xxx

Thinking of you all x

My thoughts are with you and your family oj x

Hope today goes well for you OJ, peace is needed soon. lots of love xxx

Thinking of you and wishing you strength!

Hope you actually managed some sleep last night
xxxx

Wishing peace for you and Steve. xx

OJ. I cannot imagine what you are going through. I would so love to be able to say something that would make a difference. This is really beyond cruel.

All I can say is I think of you often and wish you all the strength you need to get through this.

And I wish Steve peace.

Oj, I'm so sorry things are so awful for you all. This is not your Steve talking, this is the awful cancer and what it has done to him. That doesn't make it any easier I know.
I look for your thread first thing every day, hoping for all of you that Steve finds peace of some sort soon.