I AM A NON SMOKER. I INTEND TO STAY THAT WAY!!!

[minkmama]

Hi girls,

I know it's a little 'in yer face' but i felt we needed a huge reminder everytime we posted each other!

Fresh start for Monday then!!

Sorry I haven't been in the last few days, especially when it sounds like its been a bit sh*y in many ways. Fiona, I never liked the patches, made me feel quite odd (though not as bad as you sounded.) Hope you're feeling quite alright now.

Have been away for the weekend, staying in a small hotel on Saturday night. Went down to the bar once the kids were asleep (left dh with them, first time I've been out on my own for ages, even though it was just down the stairs!). Anyway, had a pint of Stella, chatted to some folk and never smoked. Amazing really for several reasons. I was in a strange situation, so would normally light up for "protection". Also drinking lager, in a bar, well you always light up then. Can't say I wasn't tempted but I didn't have any and there was no machine. Felt really good about it afterwards and didn't ruin my evening wishing for something that wasn't going to happen.
It seems to be getting easier again after a bit of a struggle with myself.

Hope the new week is good to all you re-starters and continuers!!

Sorry minkmama, didn't ignore your post, but I took so long typing mine that we overlapped.

Hope you're felling okay. It must be a very hard time for you. Don't beat yourself up about it. I feel fairly sure I would've done the same as you.
I think you should take your time to get in the right frame of mind to restart, but thats just my humble opinion.

didn't want the 1st post to read too long so:

fg, you did SOOOOO WELL on getting through that craving! i have started your book at last, it makes me chuckle and not many books do that!! xmas pressies great news...but i don't have anymore neals yard bottles, just amber glass with black tops. i can buy the ny ones if you want, but will need to bump up the price accordingly. i think cc paid me £3 plus p&p which is my special friend deal just let me know all the details and we'll work it out after that! felt for you after your 'panic' attack! and your lumpy shoulder!!

cc, i think it's time you got more oils!!! i will send to you regardless of ebay since i STILL haven't set it up properly but when i do, you can bid and win and just say you're sending a cheque and no-one will be the wiser...is that okay? oh and you're not alone anymore!!

posey, you're doing really well keep it up!!

TWINK, DO NOT LEAVE US!!!

thanks posey, again took me ages with the last post only just read yours! i'm actually in the right frame of mind now and always knew i wouldn't continue during that whole week which is odd isn't it, that you can smoke, not enjoy it, know you're giving up and STILL smoke. CRAZY!!

sorry, another post just to say i'm off to shower and watch some tv, will look in on you in a bit!

Thanks guys , I wasn't flouncing, I just wasn't too sure whether I was helping or interfering.

Could you all do me a favour, I've not got time to read all the old threads so please could you all post 1 or 2 lines giving your personal reasons for wanting to quit and why you think your lives will be better if you do, then add 1 line explaining where your main weaknesses are ?

FG, I've helped a few 'real-life' people to quit but only as support once they'd made their initial decision to stop, similarly I've helped friends to lose weight again after they had decided they wanted to try.

I've tried to start running threads before but have always been talking to myself, however there is a long standing one which we use that Jasper started ages ago here but we could start a new one if you promise to visit !

Have you recovered from your 'funny' turn, sounded scarey.

welcome back twink!

well here are mine:

I want to give up because it's a pointless habit. I am fed up with putting smoking a cigarette in front of anything else, especially my boys and the desperation that it causes is silly.

My biggest weakness is stress. When I've had a really bad day, i feel i deserve to have a fag as 'time-out' from everything.

Ha ha ha Twink, be prepared for the biggest post of your life. My mouse isnt working, infra red stupid new thing needs charged so while it charges I will rant....
I think I started to think about stopping smoking when dd1 was 4.9 just starting school. That was 2 years and a bit ago...OMG!!!!
I was really ill, I was coughing and coughing and I couldnt sleep because I had a fever and was up every half hour throwing up water. DD1 was starting school, and as you do as a mother you get on with it.
People in the playground must have thought i was odd, I thought I was odd, the weather was getting cold and I was boiling having hot fever flushes and I was so out of it if someone had asked me my name I wouldnt have known.
I would then go to my mums house and the minute I got in her house I would go to the bathroom and heave up a pile of water.
Turns out I had plurasy. Actually thought I was dying at one point. Id carried on for 3 weeks with it taking the kids to and fro nursey because I had to...anyway...so I went to the docs and had a chest Xray at the hospital and at an appointment with the doc, with me sitting there 3 stones lighter sweating like a pig with my bottle of evian for cooling purposes, the doc said "I dont think its lung cancer" and I said "It didnt occur to me that it might be"...
Duh silly cow, but that got me thinking, jeesus shit, so I didnt smoke for a wee while, but I KNEW when I started to get better I would start smoking again. So I got patches. Lasted 3-4 months, not sure what got me but back on the fags again. And thats how its been for the past 2 years. On Off On Off smoke for a week, not smoke for 2 bla bla bla bla.
It has consumed my brain for soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long now I cannot find the words to describe it!!!
I want to stop because, I have indeed seen the light after reading Allen Carr. I KNOW.
But it doesnt stop me having JUST ONE.
I want to stop because I am 25 years old and my insides feel as if they belong to a 50 year old.
I am going to stop because if I dont my beautiful babys might start too
I need to stop because if i dont then my mum definetly wont.
I am going to bash this mother F on the head if its the only thing i ever do.

My weakness? Just one.

By the way MM I dont blame you for a minute for puffing the last week away. I probably would have too. And i also know just what you mean about, smoking but knowing it wasnt gonna be for long...I had that inbetween lozenges last week.
Nice fresh Monday Morning start for us
MM I would love a refill of the anger stuff, had I had it this weekend I would have probably drank it If its ok with you I would then pay you for it when youve got an auction up and running for it?
Isnt Fgs book good? I dont often laugh at anything...snort...miserable cow, but it really made me LOL.
And twink we aspire to be you. Please stay and keep us going. And if we fall off Bark us back on.
Isnt it SHAMEFUL reading this thread and going for a fag ladies. I HATED IT.
I think the silences have often meant f* ups for all of us...a silence a brief post then a confession.
No more silences!

LOL CC at the last bit about silences...pretty much sums us up!!! (am still laughing, how true it is) I will send you the oil asap, don't worry!

I actually got to the stage where i could feel that my whole body was a mass of toxins and even a cup of coffee seemed to be pushing it over the edge. couldn't feel my tongue properly from just one week of fags...isn't it awful. can't wait for them to work their way out of me and am looking forward to some minty fresh lozenge sucking tomorrow morning (that doesn't mean that i'm puffing now, just that i'm off to bed )

FEELS REALLY GOOD TO BE BACK.

night night all xxx

p.s. cc, i'm a miserable cow as well so fg's writing is talented indeed.

Good Morning Girls, if any of you are reading this with a fag in your hand, charliecats super natural powers are going to come through the computer screen and remove it from you ...NOW!

Helllooooooo! Theres a distinct lack of noise in here today!
Must get off pc been sitting here for 2 hours doing bug all. House needs decluttering desperatly.
BTW dp still continued his lazyness/arsyness. So I asked him to do the dishes which he didnt. So im leaving them and im not gonna do them. It will be intersting to see how long it takes for them to get done.

Cant seem to get away from the pc today ive even had a name change...do you like it?

yeah love the new name cc!! Hope the mood thing is subsiding, yeah - sounds like you need a good oily slather (?!) - would dp oblige, or will he be too busy washing up? Sometimes I consider conducting an experiment where I do nothing in the house and see what happens.

mm - so glad to have you back, and don't blame you at all seeing as you were feeling so wobbly & upset about your parents going - what a blow for you, poor love.

Thank you for kind words re book and yes, I will get a list of oil loving friends to you soon!

posey am so impressed! Isn't it great when you get thro a situation when you'd normally have been chuffing like crazy. GOLD STAR GIRL!!!

And Twink... my main reasons for wanting to quit are hating the sneakiness which accompanies smoking... The creeping out the back, chuffing away, and coming back in stinking.
My kids hate it.
I want to be as fast as you when I do my next 10k!!!
And I'd love to feel proud and that I've achieved something. What I hate most is being controlled by something.
Have been fagging for 20 years - did stop for 6 months earlier this year, but being on hol & slurping wine got me back on (well, I got me back on).

am now on DAY ONE - with lozenges - so far so good....

catch up this eve girls xxxx

Hello Girls well done FG...you are doing well!
How are you MM? I hope your feeling a little less miserable today{{{{hugs}}}}
I have in the past left ALL of dps things in one big heap in the bedroom, dirty plates the lot, as he seems to think he does make any mess or use any everyday things. It usually takes a couple of weeks for him to notice, and then promotes 3 weeks of helping but then the novelty wears off.
I am irritated as it occured to me he doesnt even need to worry if his clothes are washed as they are always in the bedroom clean and laundered by the time he needs them.....that sort of thing. Lucky bugger.
If only I could say the same.
No fags for me today, cant POSSIBLY go back now ive changed my name!

DOESNT make any mess etc

Bargain on ebayhere If anyones thinking of dropping the the 1mg Lozengers. I am on 2mg, whats everyone else sucking?
Think the seller also has another 3 boxes, but please dont get in a bidding war with me

Hi all,

Good day today, didn't feel depressed about mum &dad (thanks for the hugs)and haven't even had one lozenge yet! my body usually needs to clear out the old toxins and as it starts to do so, that's when i get a craving. got one just before dinner but waited till now to have a suck.

ace name cctns...will have to get used to typing that from now on!!

i'm on 1mg btw, but i've got loads at the mo so it won't be me you're bidding against

Really feel for you and the lack of housework being done! generally, dh is good at hearing me 'nag' but crap at doing anything about it (aren't they always) and in our bedroom there is a corner where the nursing rocking chair used to be and a year old (i do not exaggerate) pile of folded up clothes has now buried. dh has far too many clothes if he can still wear some and not touch the pile!! that was supposed to make you feel better, but at the end of the day, who are we kidding...it's always going to be us doing it isn't it ? appreciation is nice tho don't you think....

Goodness me MM...A year old??? Well I suppose I can confess to getting loads of 2003 food out the back of the cupboard yesterday then yeah???
A black bag full actually by the time id finished!!!!!!
Really been rattling today, its went really quick since I removed my ass from here this morning so every 2.5 hours or so Id find myself getting irritated and remember to have a lozenge.
How have you got on FG?
Nice to have you back MM..

i told you my house wasn't as tidy as it looks...

hey cc,

just made up your oil with my new label! tbh, don't like it as much as the plain version as it looks a bit squashed, let me know what you think! will post that out for you tomorrow afternoon...

going to bed now, hope you all had a good night! xx

well this can't be right, me being the first to post today!! how is everyone, are most of us on the lozenges at the mo? will be popping out later after lunch so no chance to post till evening. see you all then!

Quick Hello, did you get FGS email?

MM, im off to watch BBC about some one living with schizophrenia as my brother has it and itll be interesting to see someone who takes his pills dealing with it and not my brother whos so ill now he refuses to admit he is.
Anyway, See you tommorow Hope youve had a good dayxxx

Hi all!
Sorry wasn't around yesterday to pop in, just very busy then dh using the pc in the evening.

Twink I think its great that you can help us. Although I've stopped, I do find myself having weak moments. If dh smoked there are times I know I'd be nicking his, or nipping off to the off licence if I didn't have kids in bed upstairs.
My big reason for stopping was health reasons. Feeling older than my 35 years, knowing if I don't stop then there'll be no way I'll ever do my dream of running the London Marathon the year I'm 40. I'm fed up of being a hypochondriac, getting paranoid about every little twinge, thinking how stupid to actively increase your risk of nasty diseases.

My problem is as Allen Carr says. You give up for a while, the reasons for stopping have disappeared (you feel much better) and then like CC I have the problem with Just one won't hurt. But it does.

So thats me. Any help keeping me on the straight and narrow would be much appreciated.