nicotime is a monster that will die if don't feed it!

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Hi Folks - this thread continues from a v long previous thread... a few of us are desperately trying to kick the evil weed and will do it this time! A new thread, a new start! Let's help and support each other, splurge out those frustrations here.

Personally I feel like if I don't do it this time I am gonna take charliecat' suggestion and knock myself out with a hammer.

Come on girls - we know it' crap, and we feel so awful sneaking back in and our kids being near us and having honkng breath (us, that is...)
Let's do it this time, am am committed to this...

Me here too...busy too not sure when i will be herexx

Poor mink, am incensed on your behalf & have replied!

Good day today folks - took kids to see garfield the movie, made 'power juice' which should be converted into energy for tomorrow's race... gonna have an early night to stop myself face stretching and to take my mind off the horrible sweats!! Red greasy face - niiice! love fixxx

what questions cc?

how is everyone? i'm knackered and think i am coming down with something so may not be on much tonight, or at least not till 2am (hurrah!)

thanks again cc and fg!

HS, i too have been v. naughty and was planning to make monday 'the day' but now i'm starting to remember cc's words about what makes tomorrow a better day to stop than today, so without confusing you all, i will be fag-free tomorrow not monday in an effort to cheer fg on for her race!

fg, have you seen the new nike t-shirts that say 'YOU ARE FASTER THAN YOU THINK'? aren't those great words?!

So....

WE ARE STRONGER THAN WE THINK!!!!!

Right, HiddenSpirit, looking forward to seeing you Monday Morning sharp...can I just tell you something though, that you should have picked up from the Allen Carr book, Those roll-ups that you dont like too much will become very tasty if you deny yourself a tailored fag.
It is not the B&H or Regal King Size or in my case the hand rolled Old Holborn that keeps you running back for more, its the nicotine in the whatever shaped/size tobacco stick.
I think you need to have a reread of A.C.
You need to be looking at it in a more...woohoo on Monday I will be free, rather than a I'll not have what I like and hopefully the want will go away feeling.
Or else even if you do manage to stop, you'll be spending your time as a non smoker wishing you were a smoker. Which is really really really stupid.
Ran out of time so Hello everyone else...just going for a bath and oils...running out MM...horror

Good Luck FG, just jumped out the bath with the horror that I hadnt mentioned your race! Run for all of us! Run away from the demons!

Oooh CC is right! I do so sympathise with all of you, I tried and tried and cried and cried because I so, so wanted to stop and found it very difficult but once you get over the psychological stuff (i.e. pretending to yourself that you like it - ffs, you don't like it, you are just addicted to a drug and all you have to do to stop being addicted is not take that drug any more, I know I'm spouting Carr but he's right you know!), it really is easier in a lot of ways NOT to be a smoker. You can't smoke anywhere these days and I'm often relieved that I don't do it any more when I see the smokers at work standing out by the bins in the rain. One of them asked me to come with him recently (not to smoke, to finish our conversation) and I was revolted rather than wistful, which was a relief to me. I did have a pang when I was away recently but it was only because I was in a hotel room and bored and I thought 'no-one would know' as I read the hotel bumpf saying 'cigarettes are available from the vending machine blah blah' but then I pulled myself up sharpish and thought 'oooh, that's interesting, so the nicotine monster is STILL there sometimes and would like me to have one but I'm not going to because I promised myself I'd never ever smoke again and so I'm not going to.' Anyway, I hope I don't sounds like a smug sanctimonious ex smoker, because I'm not, I hope, but I just wanted to sympathise.

Oh yes, good luck fg.

Thanks for backing me up WWW! For all my rantings about A.C my eyes are prickling with tears having to stay in this seat and not go upstairs and have a fag...lmao how sad is that???????
But something in me, maybe numerous readings of A.C is stronger than that eye pricking urge.

Just had to let you know that as youdd think I thought this was a breeze in the park

Cc, why have you got them in the house? Does your dh smoke?

Oh I know it's not easy CC, honestly I do. I EVEN carried on smoking for a while when I first found out I was pregnant with dd (now 10mos), I remember 'phoning a friend in tears to say I had a fag in my hand and I knew I had to stop but I couldn't. But somehow, I did. I think that was my lowest point tbh.

Yes he does

Thanks for your kind words & encouragement girls - the race was fab!! Enjoyed it much more than any others - all through lovely centre of edinburgh, think I did it in about 61 mins, tho results aren't on website yet I don't think. Loved it! And I know I could do better (next one in 3 weeks, Pitlochry in perthshire) without the vile residue of fags kicking around my system, so am gonna realy stick to it this time.

www you don't sound at all sanctimonious - what you say makes perfect sense and is very insipring! Nice to hear from people who've been there, done it, and succeeded (but are realistic enough to confess to out of the blue craving in hotel room! ie - not perfect)

poor cc, hope the eye pricking has subsided - god I had plenty of that last week, kept thinking about what you said re A>C and crying - a released of tension or something?!

Have to say this would be a whole lot bloody easier if our dp/dh's didn't smoke!!

mm v proud that you're off the ciggies today!! Am sure it's not easy, like quitting all over again, but assume you have a houseful of yummy oils to slather on ourself? Does that help?! Deep breaths, nice & calm, long bath if you can wangle it.... think how brilliant you'll feel by christmas - 10 weeks off the fags by then & virtually cured!

am feeling quite positive tho and KNOW am not gonna crack today - am back to that 'one day at a time' thing.

kids v rowdy & dp has flu (not a cold, but FLU - naturally! how v tiresome... zzzz) so better sort kids out,
xxxx

Well done you, excellent effort !!!! Next one you'll be under the magic 60 if you keep off the fags - honest !

When I did my first 10k 2 years ago I aimed to get under the hour & did, just, but now have recently broken my 50 min target - couldn't have done it when I was smoking 40 a day.

Stick at it, running is a great way of taking your mind off the dreaded N and as you can see improvement relatively quickly it's a good motivator.

As always www has some inspiring words, even now I still have to be careful (Mumsnet meet-ups could so easily be my downfall) but once you accept that you will always be vulnerable it sort of becomes easier to deal with, sorry not good with words but hope you'll see what I mean. I too struggled when I was first pregnant and pretended I wasn't smoking/pregnant for a few weeks but then got a grip and thankfully that's been it BUT it isn't easy, anyone who says it is is either dead lucky or not been a true addict.

All of you, be strong, NO excuses, you WILL beat it.

Going to shut up now and go for my tea

thanks www and twink, such inspiring words and i think we all needed them as we were lagging a bit really . i'm sorry i haven't been around much but busy with family so if i've disappeared it doesn't mean i'm fagging

well done on your race fg, i'm so proud of you!

cc are you okay, i know you were here on your lonesome for a bit!!

everyone else...how are you doing?!!!

yeah, hope you're ok cc, worried that you're feeling gloomy & that eye-pricking sensations are still there... hope not, hope you've had good weekend.

am away working next weekend from fri night all on my own with laptop (now mended by dp) so am determined to stick at this all week so I don;t sit there in room in a dense fug of smoke!!

under 50 mins twink - am so impressed.My god, I;d collapse. You're right tho, it does take your mind off the dreaded (near constant at the mo, rendering me almost incapable of conversation in evenings) cravings... night night girls xxxx ps mm still has another four hours to go on her pc!

well done on the race fg!!

Well done FG nice to hear you back so chirpy! Too busy now dds are back at school will try and write an essay later. Good Luck Everyone, including hs, hello MM!

Good morning all of you non-smokers. How are you all going??? I'm on 15 days nicotine free now and I truely feel cr@p. Surely smoking has got to be good for you if not smoking feels this bad!!!!

It might feel crap now woodpops and I can relate to that - think about fags every bloody waking moment - but we have to tell ourselves that we are ADDICTED and are working through this addiction, and are going to start feeling better very soon... aren't we???

as someone (I think wickedwaterwitch) pointed out the only way to stop being addicted to something is to stop taking it!

cc is great for these kinda pearls too - she manages to pluck the meaningful bits from a. carr's mighty tomes - go on, cc, chuck us a nugget or two!

how you doing mm???? Off, or on?

speak tonight girls when get a spare mo xxxx

Hi girlies - jumping back on to the wagon today. Am doing it with patches - can't cope going cold turkey. Has worked in the past. Getting such grief from ds about smoking that I realised I had to do it for him alone.

good luck ladies!

Hi Everyone Glad to see we are all back on track? Unless someones fell in an ashtray today...Hope not??
WP what sort of bad are you feeling? Whatever it is cannot compare to the utter disbelief and disgust with yourself that you are smoking AGAIN after attempt #99 believe me!
It will pass, and surely you are feeling better in the mornings, if nothing else?
Neighbours nannys popped in..be back laterx

I've got the brother of all head colds. Just feel cr@p in general. It will pass I know, but I want it to pass now.

I think I meant mother. See, it's really getting to me now!!!!