nicotime is a monster that will die if don't feed it!

[fionagib]

Hi Folks - this thread continues from a v long previous thread... a few of us are desperately trying to kick the evil weed and will do it this time! A new thread, a new start! Let's help and support each other, splurge out those frustrations here.

Personally I feel like if I don't do it this time I am gonna take charliecat' suggestion and knock myself out with a hammer.

Come on girls - we know it' crap, and we feel so awful sneaking back in and our kids being near us and having honkng breath (us, that is...)
Let's do it this time, am am committed to this...

ARGGHHHH, GOTTA STOP! SLEEEEEEPPPPP....

Fell asleep watching A.C well can you blame me? Reminded me of all the things I managed to forget yesterday:)
MM, your poor dh, bet hes a right ugly trout
FG I know where your coming from with the dragging them out. Its not doing them any harm either!
Dashing off now xx

11 days and counting. Even starting to notice dh smelling disgusting when he's been outside for a fagg. My god did I used to smell like that?? There's no way my mum and dad couldn't have known is there???

I just know your dh is a brad pitt lookalike really mm!

Hope you're having a good day girls - fraid I started mine off this am with a slight argy bargy with THAT neighbour - I'm walking past her house, she pings her elder boy out at me to take to school cos her little one is still starkers - I go, 'I have to say, it was a real surprise when xxx shoed up at our house yesterday at 7.15 a.m.' - she goes, 'I thought you knew! You knew I had to go to such-and-such yesterday!' I explain that I did know, but hadn't realised I was involved in this - she says sorry, so I take her boy and clatter off to school in a huff -

She is a v sensitive person who finds looking after her kids v v hard (is on anti-d's) so I do feel bad, I know right now she is prob in tears and feeling awful. She is not a coper which is why she tries to palm off her kids all the time. No reasonable person with any perspective on things would do that. Maybe I handled it badly. I didn't shout or anything, was just snappy and obviously peed off with her.

Anyway better out than in I suppose!! And this has gone on for some years now - it drives dh round the twist.

sorry to splurge there girls!! Dh had left some fags at home this a.m. and I have had one on back step. Not sure how I feel about ciggies right now, so want to crack it for good but today is not that day. Am gonna keep checking in here tho if that's okay and rev myself up again....

hope nursery's going ok cc and that you're managing to stay cig free everyone! Do feel like I'm letting the club down here! xxx

wwodpops I am in awe of your strength & how you seem to be turning anti-fags!!! Think you need to dish out some stern words to wilting willpower here!

Confession time

First confession - I didn't stop when I had finished pack on Monday like I was meant to

I was determined that Tuesday was the day and that was it. Was feeling fine about it on Monday night when I went to bed having smoked the last of the pack (normally I get really panicky knowing I've no fags). Woke up Tuesday morning and I was fine! I did not have any cravings at all. DP went to work at 6.45am and I lay in bed til 7.15am when I got kids up to get ready for school. The whole time feeling fine about not smoking. BUT.........

Second confession - On way to drop DS1 off at school I had to stop at shop to buy him his fruit for snack time and I bought 20 fags without even thinking about it!!!! It wasn't until I was half way through the first one I suddenly thought "wtf am I doing?" DP thinks it's hilarious, but I still can't get over it. I bought them without even thinking about it!

Third confession - I didn't bin them straight away, I smoked them

Decided to start afresh again today and told DP to take any fags left in pack with him to work so that I couldn't smoke them. BUT.....

Fourth confession - when alarm went off at 6am for DP to get up for work, I got up, came through front room, got fags, went back through to bed and put them at side of me Think DP either forgot he was supposed to take them, or thought that I had finished the pack. Needless to say I am smoking yet again today

I think it is a bad idea for me to have any fags left at end of night as I was fine about it on Monday night when I had no fags left and fine on Tues morning (til my slip up ) but I had to have them this morning because they were there!

Tomorrow's a new day and I shall be staying up tonight til every single fag is smoked!

My name is Hidden Spirit and tomorrow I WILL be a non-smoker.

Poor hidden spirit - I do sympathise, it's easy to forget that you're not meant to be smoking! So many times I have thought - I'll gonna have a fag - then realised, bugger, I don't do that any more!!
I am having a faggy day due to (poor excuse) upset with neighbour but tomorrow will be with you all the way, good and strong, and fag free!
xxxx

Hammers all round i think

i am now on day 3 (i think). i think the key is to avoid any place that sells cigs and then you will not buy them! because i have two young uns, i'm at home most of the time and hauling them out is more trouble than a fag is worth. went to sainsbury's and managed to pass the kiosk without a thought!

what are you guys doing?!!! Bin those fags!!

i know that it's virtually near impossible though, so just finish what you've got. I don't have a smoking DP, so i realise it's easier for me in that respect. why don't you lot write down dp's names on packs in marker and everytime to pick it up or look at it, you will be reminded of how they DO NOT BELONG TO YOU!!!

Gotta go, speak to you all later...have 1 for me

MM I don't tend to touch DP's anyway lol. He smokes roll ups and I only ever smoke them if I have no fags and the shop is shut

Even though it was sitting there on Monday night/Tues morning I had no inclination to roll one.

Am going to be very strong tomorrow and also get some housework/cleaning done!! Well done MM! FG we WILL be strong

tomorrow is another day as someone once said!! xx you're right mm, having fags in the house is a big no no!
hope you're having relatively stress free day with the boys... am out at my writing group tonight so will check in here v late, have good rest-of-day...

Well MM im pleased to say im with you, day 1 for me...OMG...cant believe im having to write that!!! Im thinking in terms of one month and a few blips, writing day 1 is demoralising!!!!
Yesterday I had a fag here and a fag there and even as I was smoking them I KNEW this wasnt going to be my downfall, it was just going to be a bump in the road. NEVER will I smoke for even 2 days on the trot. I do NOT want to fall back in the pit.
My mum was here at 8.30 this morning with her baccy and I thought to myself I can have 1 and spend another day wishing I wasnt or I can keep my mouth shut and see how it goes, knowing full well I was going to be at nursery all morning...
I have been FINE. Mad Nervous Scared Of Screwing It up Again
Quickly came on here the second the kids went to bed before any evening madness took over and I know theres a beer in the fridge so if I get needy I will have that instead.

Right selfish me me me rant over....
HiddenSpirit, well done for confessing, you could have lied and its better to say OMG I did this...... You need to get it right in your head that you are NOT going to smoke tommorow, and that you are going to start feeling fantastic in a few days. Gunge free. And we are all here to cheer you on. Come here and write how you feel instead of raiding the ashtray!
Oh yeah, its a good idea to get your other half to bin the ashtrays so you dont wake up first thing to a reminder when your half asleep and not thinking straight.

Having that beer now!

Will be back to check up laterxx

Had that beer having a hot flush now...oh isnt this fun!

Some Allen Carr Golden Nuggets:

If you feel like crying, dont be ashamed. Crying is natures way of relieving tension.

Every moment that passes that little monster inside you is dying. Enjoy you inevitable victory

Dont envy other smokers. Pity them. They NEED your pity.

Just highlighting there a few good bits to come back too. Where is everyone, this is my 4th post to myself...its lonely round here!!!!
BTW tommorow not around till evening again, or earliest 4ish. So Ill read up on everyone then.
Good Luck HS...and FG, fight the demons. Please!!!!!!!!

I have 1 fag left here and that's me Given dp the other 7 that were left and I thankfully have not a clue where they are!

Feeling sorry for myself tonight cause my mouth is aching Not sure if it's wisdom teeth, some other toothache or the fact that I'm 99% sure I have an ear infection. Strange to have aching mouth with ear infection, I know but it happened last time I had one too. Trying to decide whether to visit doctor or dentist first tomorrow!

About to have last and final fag and am feeling fine about it, and do not need to go to shop in morning so I will not slip up again!

Pleased to hear it HS!

Right this is really really cool, its my fave link ever but you cant do it with kids about and you must turn up your speakers to hear the music...www.funny.co.il/sajad.html
...devious

will try your link cc but am nervous just now as have just got in from writing group (fag glutton me) and am nervous of waking dh with noise as he is in bed & has big interview tomorrow...

As ever your wise words are inspiring, in fact am gonna print out your last couple of posts. Glad your work days have gone ok too. You're right - it's like falling back into a big stinky black pit and who wants to be there?

Come on HS - we can do this tomorrow! If I crack I will confess and send each of you a tenner

have been a bit bitter & grumpy lately, sorry girls, prod due to period, smoking, kids, neighbour, dh working like loon & lack of times together... was getting on much better with kids when I wasn't smoking! Pls excuse me while I bash this down here... (in no particular order)

I want to be a good runner, which is impossible with fags.
I do not want to be sneaking away from my kids to smoke, or be irritable with them cos I want to smoke.
I want to feel clean and healthy and be in control.
Fags are completely shit.
I spend £5 a day on this shit!
I have the willpower to do this.
I'll be 40 on oct 21 and want to be truly fag free by then (in lovely shoes!!)

Still plenty of mm's oils left... so no excuse...

Catch up with you tomorrow girls, tons of work to do so may be later in day (however I sense that I might be relying heavily on this thread...)

Some other bits:
Cravings are awful but they do go away eventually.
The first 2 weeks are the worst!
Was it hidden spirit who's started to notice how foul and stinky fags are?

night night & thank you for enduring my warblings girls xxxx

BTW cc I think you're A>C masquerading as a 25 yr old woman and hired your daughter or something to be in those pics!

Where are you mm? You should be on your pc for another four hours at least!!

Ha ha fg! Unfortunately i have to postpone my relationship with my beloved internet as i am at present in birmingham visiting dh's family. will be here till tomorrow night so probably no chance of being on pc till then.

wish you all luck tomorrow and willl check in tomorrow night to see if you've all been good !

I have chuffed my face off girls also am v pissed on wine drunk as as skunk xxxxxxxxxall
You are gonnna ban me from the thread.... mamma where r u...
xxxx no fags tmorro am so derubk niht niht so much for gazelle ...
xxxxxxxxxx

Well youve given me a laugh this morning...back tonight

Hi folks - am here all clean and sober and fag free
slap slap for my bad behavuour last night! I was just in an oh-sod-it-all kind of mood...

hope all's good with you all, f xxx
MY NAME IS FIONAGIB AND I AM A NON SMOKER

I'm in hiding today

Been up most of night with my gob killing me and actually woke dp up to ask him where he had hidden fags Can't get doctors appointment or dentist appointment til tomorrow, so here I am yet again having failed

I think I should be sent into exile

Well done to you though FG!

poor you with your sore mouth hs, don't worry, sounds like a totally crap day...

things okay here except laptop seems to have packed up & I need it for next weekend cos am going away to work all weekend... ruddy technology!

not craving too badly, day going fine - blast of sunshine helps xx