To visit the walk in centre?

[Sienna333]

The top of my bumcrack has a small white/flesh coloured spot on it and although it looks insignificant, it is stinging like mad and I can barely sit. AIBU to go to the walk in centre? I can't take a minute more of this and what's worse is that I am on my period :(

Sienna
Let's deal with facts.

1. You do have symptoms
2. these symptoms may be an indication of something more serious
3. they equally may be something annoying and uncomfortable but much less serious for example the bleeding may be caused by your internal pile, which was diagnosed recently. The diarrhoea could be linked to the stress and anxiety. This will be putting pressure on the pile and making it bleed.
4. without further tests you do not have a diagnosis
5. self diagnosing your self is making you ill.
6. you are not 'preparing yourself' for anything. You are whipping yourself up into a frenzy which is not helping.
7. your anxiety will be affecting your daughter, short term and unless you take control long term
8. NO ONE IS SAYING YOU AREN'T UNWELL. BUT YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IS WRONG. YOUR ANXIETY IS OUT OF CONTROL AND MAKING THIS SO MUCH WORSE FOR YOURSELF

So what tests has the dr asked for?

Get help for your MH issues - one of the more common presenting symptoms of hypochondria (HA) is gastric-intestinal issues due to the delicate nature of your bowel - stress induces response from the bowel which can lead to diarrhoea, prolonged diarrhoea can lead to bloody stools and soreness in the area, this will in turn increase your anxiety levels and so the vicious circle will continue. You may well have an inflammatory disease, you probably haven’t, the most concerning aspect of this is that you appear to want to have a negative diagnosis in order to validate your feelings and “prove” that you are not just being anxious - this in itself is an issue that needs resolving as if left untreated could lead to greater levels of poor MH. An open and frank conversation with your GP would be a good start

It isn't going to help when I'm diagnosed.
But you may well not be.
I'm off later for a blood test for a serious immune condition. I may well have it. I may not. If my anxiety wasn't being treated I would be obsessing and googling and panicking.
Thankfully my anxiety is under control. If I have this condition then I will manage it. If I don't then that's fantastic.

Op anxiety can cause irritable bowels, irritable bowels can cause blood in poo and smelly gas.

Also it could be something more serious. How you can say you 99% think it is I don't know. Do you know realise that's your anxiety talking and its not a normal thought process.

Go and see a doctor, tell them about all of your symptoms starting with your anxiety.

OP your persistent refusal to address your mental health issues and your determination to get a serious health condition make me think you have Münchausen syndrome not health anxiety.

What concerns me is that OP rarely responds to advice, posters have asked what the next steps are from GP and she never answers.

Penfold do you know in the last 5 mins I have come to a similar conclusion. In which case I am kicking myself for contributing because all attention here will be feeding OP's 'needs' not helping in the slightest.

I wish you no ill will but this thread can't help you. Only qualified medical personnel, who are fully in the picture can.

OP I sincerely hope you get the help you need. I am stepping away and wishing I had done sooner. Best of luck.

Penfold - I agree.

@Penfold007 diagnosing the OP with yet another issue over the Internet is not going to help.

I don't feel comfortable speaking about the OP's concerns but what I will say is that some of you are far too invested in this poster and appear to be getting angry and frustrated at the situation, which I also don't think will be helping anybody. It seems to push the OP into the opposite direction.

Before this incident I hadn't been to the doctors in 10 years. I am terrified of doctors and hospitals.
To answer the question, the GP was very concerned when I said I was farting out blood and also sometimes passing blood in BM'S especially due to what happened in October. I also explained the vile gas smell which I know is related to inflammatory disorders and has a certain distinctive smell. She is repeating a stool test (Last one came back normal but that only tested for infection and not inflammation) and did some blood tests. I am pretty sure they will come back marked as inflammatory. Then it will be a referral which terrifies me.

Penfold - this is precisely what I meant by her MH declining, the need for validation seems so much more important than anything else that it is concerning as to how the OP will obtain the diagnosis she wants - my main concern is her daughter, I have lived with a parent that had serious MH issues and saw those issues in everyone around them, even now 20 years later myself and my siblings are still dealing with the after effects of this. If someone is so determined to be ill (whether physically or mentally) the ripple effect from it can be catastrophic and is not something to be revelled in

Sienna - not that this will make any difference - but

i) You do have a physical illness - what it is remains to be determined by medical professionals (not yourself and Dr Google)

ii) You are catastrophising what it might be

iii) Your mental ill health is overwhelmingly striking. Why do you not see this? Why are you not googling this? What downside is there for addressing your mental health?

Op also my son recently had a stool sample tested and they test for inflammation as standard plus bacteria's etc.

Kaytee, I thought a separate stool sample was needed for that? I always thought the standard test was just for bacteria and infection?

Sienna333: why not go to your GP, write some notes beforehand and say something along the following lines: As you know, I am very worried about my health. I am convinced I have UC and am very seriously ill and am absolutely terrified - it is all I think about. People have been telling me that I am catastrophising, that my reaction is completely OTT and that I have may have 'health anxiety' or mental health issues. Now this is a difficult thing for me to ask as all I do when I come here is ask for help on my physical health - but I would like help with my mental health, a mental health assessment or something, and help with my anxiety. I am willing to consider medication and CBT or whatever.

Nope, the gp only sent away one, it's a standard thing they test for.

I’m not doubting that you have symptoms of something, that’s not to say it’s anything serious. I had an episode of having ALOT of blood in my stools when I was younger that lasted on and off for several months. I had a camera, all fine. Never happened again.

I would also like to add that it is surprising what physical symptoms can be caused by anxiety. When my anxiety was really bad last year, most of my toe nails fell off! Gp confirmed it was caused by stress. The body reacts to these things and my god you have a lot of anxiety!

Please take a step back, stop googling and leave this thread be. You are doing yourself no favours.

And please do not project your worries onto your daughter. That’s so upsetting to think you would let her believe you were seriously ill with no diagnosis. You should be protecting her, not scaring her.

OP your persistent refusal to address your mental health issues and your determination to get a serious health condition make me think you have Münchausen syndrome not health anxiety.

I’ll be honest, I thought this too. Either way OP, you need to seek some help.

OP - early in 2017 I was suffering with debilitating stomach cramps, nausea, vile smelling gas, loose stools, achy limbs, a rash of spots appeared and I honestly thought I was dying of something. It was all caused by stress and anxiety. I'd also lost my job and was so stressed out about everything that I had literally made myself ill. It's like a huge allergic reaction to the stress chemicals.

I don't think we should be suggesting OP is faking it / has Munchausens - that will further fuel her delusion that she is gravely ill, that we don't believe her and that, yes, she will be posting in due course to confirm that she has UC, rectal cancer etc and we didn't believe her

I don't want to be chronically unwell, it terrifies me. I am unbelievably scared.
But if this is the case then surely you'd also be grasping at any possibility that it WASN'T serious. If your doctor said 'It could be x (which is serious) but it could also be y (which isn't and is due to your anxiety)' then you'd be also mentioning y to us in the hope of everyone saying 'yep, definitely y' even if you didn't really believe it, just because you wanted to hang on to a bit of hope. You seem to want to be seriously ill to such an extent that you're anticipating pain. And you will get pain - not because of any condition but because you're telling your brain to expect it.
Read your OP back - you had a small white spot on your bumcrack. Now you're bleeding and practically dying. Seriously? Can't you see how much you've blown this up?
I really feel for your daughter. She's going to pick up on the anxiety at the very least and that (as I know from experience) has long lasting effects. And you want to tell her that you're a step away from your death bed?!
But for those posters who have REAL conditions or family with them - I'l save my sympathy for them from now on. And sending them best wishes (and where preferred!)

Even if it is an inflammatory disease, why be terrified? If you have it at all perfectly manageable, and your description indicates it would be the mildest form.

Sienna - last year I had cancer and a bipolar relapse. Believe me when I say that the bipolar relapse was so much more terrifying the cancer. Please get your mental health treated.

[Disclaimer - not saying you have bipolar - just that mental health problems can be terrifying, all consuming and debilitating - and need medical treatment]

Nike - your spot on, UC is no fun, add a Transplant to the list too!

I'm checking out now

Sorry if there's any spelling and grammar mistakes, I'm on my phone. But I couldn't ignore this. So here's a run down:-

1. your first stool sample should have highlighted any irregularities
2. when you become anxious (which yours appears to be off the scale) your body produces adrenaline and hormones
3. this in turn affects many parts of your body (too many to list) but includes your digestive system
4. this means you will produce loose stools- even water like, produce offensive smelling wind, have cramping pain, the shakes, dizziness,
5. you will loose weight, from not eating properly, not eating the correct diet,
6. you become dehydrate because you are not drinking enough fluids. This apart from a lack of water passing, causes headaches, dizziness, shakes.
7. you can produce blood in your stools- intermittently (which is what you say you have) because the hormones and acids affect the lining of the bowl and irritates it.
8. you have self diagnosed yourself with approx 10 illnesses over the last few months. Despite people telling you your systems do not fit.
9. you pick the symptoms you want to fit from each illness and ignore the ones that don't
10. many many people here have attempted to give you sound advice and reassure you , who DO have these illness and yet you brush them off
11. you appear to be determined to get diagnosed with 'something' just to say 'I told you so'
12. you seem to WANT to have further investigations- you say 'I'm scared' but you are pushing and wanting them
13. I and I believe many others on this thread, and the others, do not for one minute believe you confided in your GP over your health anxiety
14. If you had, the first thing they would have done was to make a referral as this affecting your daily life
15. considering how determined you are to have an 'illness' you are strangely reluctant to receive mental health help
16. Right now you've got yourself worked up into so much of a frenzy of saying stuff that you can't find a way out
17. way out is easy- stop googling! The internet is not going to diagnose you. You've already proven that numerous times by being wrong.
18. for the sake of your daughter- go back to your GP and be honest about your health anxiety.