To visit the walk in centre?

[Sienna333]

The top of my bumcrack has a small white/flesh coloured spot on it and although it looks insignificant, it is stinging like mad and I can barely sit. AIBU to go to the walk in centre? I can't take a minute more of this and what's worse is that I am on my period :(

OP did you show your GP this thread. Did you go into detail about your mental health issues which are very apparent from your posts. I am guessing not.

I have all your symptoms and worse but mine are caused by stress (no more no less) and I know when my stress levels decrease so will my physical symptoms.

I am guessing you were hearing what you wanted to hear from your GP and not what they actually said. Please get help for mental health issues and stop self diagnosing from google - it is insulting to the medical profession.

I’ve not read the entire thread but from what I have read it’s sounds like u have internal piles??? This alone can cause bleeding on and off in your poo.
Have u done any kind of food diary?
U could have had some kind of bug that I still there???
Personally I would get myself on good quality gut health tablets.

Make sure your vitamin me and minerals are all up too. Then get your mental state sorted. Let the medical professionals look into your symptoms and don’t stress till they diagnose.

'I agree my daughter needs me to be calm but she also needs to accept she will have a mum who has a chronic illness'

This is horrendous. For the love of fucking god do not project your hysteria onto your daughter.

You seem more bothered about how 'shocked' people will be. I've lost count of how many times you've said that in your posts.

Ok,OP , I have read the full thread and I thank God that I do not have health anxiety.It must be very debilitating and stressful to live with this constantly. I feel for you.
But at the moment you have no firm diagnosis and even when you do, it is what it is and you deal with it. I'm sorry if that sounds flippant. I have recently been diagnosed with a brain tumour. If I don't have surgery then it will get bigger and turn malignant and if I do it will most likely grow back. I have a young child and they don't know about this because I don't want them to accept his mum has a chronic condition. All I can do is listen to the advice of professionals .
You need to get help for your anxiety- it seems off the scale and your GP surely should have acknowledged this by now . Get a firm physical diagnosis and take things from there.I wish you all the very best of luck OP, but for the sake of your own sanity and your daughter, get help!

*'I agree my daughter needs me to be calm but she also needs to accept she will have a mum who has a chronic illness'

This is horrendous. For the love of fucking god do not project your hysteria onto your daughter.*

Look I've tried to be supportive but I have to agree with the PP - do not do this to your dd- thus is horrendous attitude. Even if you do have IBD you cannot let this affect her, she does not need to 'accept' anything. I have crohns, yes I have flares and I take lots of meds but I'm damned if I'm letting it impact my kids lives too.

MyfanwyMontez My DH has a brain tumour, diagnosed November 2015. He's currently having chemo to try and shrink it. I completely agree that it puts everything into perspective. Our two DS know the basic facts but none of the details, what good would it do them? I wish you good health for 2018.

You need help for your mental health issues now.

There are plenty of other explanations, which many helpful people on this thread have pointed out.

I think I probably know a bit more about UC than you, having seen my mum suffer with it for most of my life, so I'm well aware of the different ways it can manifest thank you.

In the kindest possible way, the episode you think was your first flare up really probably wasn't. Other posters have explained why, and you haven't listened.

I'm going to step away now and stop engaging, as this seems to be fuelling your heath anxiety rather than helping things.

OP- for your sake, and for you child's sake, please seek help for your mental health issues. You are escalating quickly, and it's alarming to listen to.

OP This questionnaire is taken from Health Anxiety UK and I thought might be helpful to you and might make you see that mental health issues are your real problem not your physical ones (believe me when I say I am only trying to help you see why you need help for mental health issues urgently as I am guessing you are not telling your GP the whole truth so that they cannot treat you effectively):

If you can answer YES to most of the questions it is likely that you are affected by health anxiety.
During the last 6 months:
Have you experienced a preoccupation with having a serious illness due to bodily symptoms that has been ongoing for at least six months? OP:YES
Have you felt distressed due to this preoccupation? OP:YES
Have you found that this preoccupation impacts negatively on all areas of life including, family life, social life and work? OP- only you can answer that one but I am guessing YES
Have you felt that you have needed to carry out constant self-examination and self-diagnosis? OPL YES
Have you experienced disbelief over a diagnosis from a doctor or felt that you are unconvinced by your doctor’s reassurances that you are fine? OP: probably
Do you constantly need reassurance from doctors, family and friends that you are fine, even if you don’t really believe what you are being told? OP: YES YES and YES

I am not having a go but please go to the GP for your mental health and nothing else.

Sienna I've written out many soothing and understanding responses on your multiple previous posts.

You WANT to be ill. Maybe you should ask yourself why you want so badly for people to be shocked and amazed and guilty for disbelieving you when you are finally proved right?

Do you want to be cared for, is that what's missing in your life?

I say this with kindness, I don't mean to be nasty.

I didn't sleep at all last night, stomach was fizzing and bubbling uncontrollably and I am panicking so much.
I really do think that what happened in October was my first flare up and now it is happening again. I have heard that in the beginning UC symptoms come
and go.
I am not denying I have severe health anxiety but this is not the cause of my symptoms.

Not at all, I am terrified of what is going on in my body. I just think that so many people have said I am ridiculous for thinking I have an inflammatory disease but it looks like I have. It's not that I want to prove people wrong but just to say that this is a separate issue to the health anxiety. Probably not helped by it but there is a separate issue.

This started with a scratched arse that was anal cancer. She didnt believe the pharmacist who missed something.

Now 3 weeks later and 23 pages its UC or crohns. She's preparing everyone for the shock diagnosis including her dd which is reprehensible.

I wager no one else in RL will listen to this but on here everyone is just fuelling it and enabling her to indulge this.

Just stop engaging her.

Are you receiving treatment?

Sienna, I don't think you are ridiculous for thinking you have an inflammatory disease but the fact of the matter is that YOU DON'T KNOW you have.
This anxiety that you may have must be having a major impact on your quality of life.Your posts make very upsetting reading and I can only echo the sentiments of the three previous posters.

Bluebel
Thank you for your good wishes and the same wishes are extended to your family!
And thanks for the but I'd prefer (for medicinal purposes, you understand). You can take your pick.

Niki, it didn't start with a scratched arse. I posted about it a few pages back.
Most people have told me I don't have an inflammatory disease and that it is
highly unlikely in my past threads and within my family/friends circle. Now it is looking like I do so it wasn't just me being hysterical and thinking the worst. I don't have pain at the moment but I truly believe this is just the beginning and I have all that to come.

Sienna, you need to wait for the Drs to confirm or deny this. You sound almost happy to be potentially unwell. Have you ever discussed your mental health with your GP?

I am absolutely terrified that I probably have an inflammatory disease. I wake up every morning terrified the pain will kick in and that I will see blood again in my stool. Yes, the doctor knows I am anxious but that doesn't take away the fact I am ill physically and focussing completely on the mental health isn't going to take away an inflammatory disease. I am just terrified. I tried convincing myself I was just anxioùs and that this was causing the symptoms but I was wrong.

You are being hysterical.
You clearly have physical symptoms but you are diagnosing yourself with a serious condition without any medical expertise.
Seek urgent help for your extreme and debilitating health anxiety. Today.

I don't have pain at the moment but I truly believe this is just the beginning and I have all that to come.

Believe being the operative word. You dont know anything.

Like a reverse placebo you can think yourself into being ill.

I just find it reprehensible someone wants so much to be chronically unwell and wont be happy until they get a life changing diagnosis.

I don't want to be chronically unwell, it terrifies me. I am unbelievably scared.
I just think I need to prepare myself rather then thinking "It's just anxiety, I will be ok if I calm down and sort my mental state out." That isn't going to help when I am diagnosed. :(

MyfanwyMontez I will take all of those thank you! And as much as you like

I am not denying I have severe health anxiety but this is not the cause of my symptoms.

You don't know this.

No one here can tell you that you definitely aren't ill, only a doctor can do that. But the problem is that your anxiety is so bad that even if a doctor gives you the all clear, you're immediately going to assume that they have got it wrong.

Physical symptoms such as you describe definitely can be caused by anxiety. As can chest pain, dizziness, confusion. Almost anything really.

Tackle the anxiety first and then you'll know if the physical symptoms are separate.

I just think I need to prepare myself rather then thinking "It's just anxiety, I will be ok if I calm down and sort my mental state out." That isn't going to help when I am diagnosed

But even if you were ill, it would still help. Millions of people live with diagnosed conditions all day every day and they don't exist in the state of anxiety that you are living in.