To visit the walk in centre?

[Sienna333]

The top of my bumcrack has a small white/flesh coloured spot on it and although it looks insignificant, it is stinging like mad and I can barely sit. AIBU to go to the walk in centre? I can't take a minute more of this and what's worse is that I am on my period :(

Waiting for the next blood and stool samples to come through and then decide from there. I know inflammation will show up as just today I saw blood in my poo. Terrified of being referred for the cameras as heard they are very painful procedures but at the same time I need a diagnosis.

Feel like I need my head examined after reading this. Your mental health is so bad I don't know how you cannot address this when you yourself acknowledge it's an issue.
If Dr Google has been so good feeding into your current state please ask it what can happen to your gut when you are stressed. Add to it the hormones you are releasing because of the panic you are causing yourself. It's a viscous cycle that you seem intent on staying on.
And if you are been honest with your HCP with your relentless illnesses I am shocked they haven't picked up on your biggest health concern..... Your mind.
Seek help. Your daughter at least deserves you to try. Write it all down and hand it to your Dr. Or email it. Find a way to communicate as it's clear from this thread you have no issue doing that

I can't see what else though Sally. If you read my background on this, it is typical of an inflammatory disease.

Sienna, can’t you see that it’s not normal to know so much about a condition that you haven’t even been diagnosed with...? Also, you have not been told you are “very physically ill”. Judging by your symptoms, you certainly don’t sound “very” unwell. If you go to the doctor and tell them a dramatic tale, they will take it seriously. If you catastrophised to the doctor, then of course they won’t brush it off.

Why do you keep seeing the dr for your alleged physical health problems but not discussing your anxiety? Also, what do you want from this thread? I don’t mean that nastily, I’m curious. Do you want emotional support and mental health advice? You’ve had it and you will get it but only if you are honest with yourself and with people on here.

You are mentally unwell and deserving of help if you choose to seek out.

I agree my daughter needs me to be calm but she also needs to accept she will have a mum who has a chronic illness. I know I need to calm down for her sake but it is hard and I don't know how I am going to explain to her what is going on. My GP can see I am stressed but can see why after having all these weird symptoms and especially when going in when I had blood in my stool. I know my anxiety is out of control but I am ill physically and a lot of the anxiety comes from not knowing why I am like this.

Sienna, you’ve been told already that it is not typical of inflammatory diseases to randomly go into into periods of remission without any sort of medication. You are incorrect. You are choosing to ignore that piece of information because you want to believe you are physically ill so you don’t have to deal with what is hard - addressing the health anxiety. It is hard, it is bloody hard. You can do it but not if you continue in this way.

Long term lurker here but I couldn't help but chime in. I have UC, as does my mother.

First of all, I genuinely feel for you with your health anxiety. It must be all consuming. Although you say you acknowledge it, I truly don't think you seem to comprehend just how bad it is and this leaves me wondering whether you have adequately explained it to your GP. You say they know you have anxiety but is there a plan in place for treatment? Either medication and/or working with a psychologist or psychiatrist locally?

Now, blood in stool does not equal inflammation and sometimes, it just happens and they never know why. There are many very minor, easily solved things that it could be. Please keep that in mind.

* There is no other explanation for this and my GP says it is definitely a possibility.*

Just read that back and see how contradictory it sounds.
No one has ever told you that you are not physically ill. They are just suggesting that it may not be as serious as you think and you can not diagnose yourself without a series of medical tests. Please stop talking about certainties that's aren't there.

Please get help for your health anxiety as well any physical condition. To be blunt if you don't address the MH issues, you will pass them onto your DD. I am sure you don't want to do that

Listen I had a lot and I mean a lot of symptoms, diahorrea, loss of appetite, dizziness, headaches. And if you google them it brings up absolutely everything it could be and if you have health anxiety you immediately think the worst. I went crying to my gp fearing I had cancer, had numerous tests and examinations and they symptoms were all caused by stress and anxiety. I was prescribed and antidepressant and it's turned my life around, one by one the symptoms stopped. The most important thing I learned is not to google, no good will come of it if you don't have things in perspective

Sunny, did you read my physical symptoms on the other page? I am surprised you don't think I am not physically unwell when I have erratic bowel movements, blood in stool and constant vile smelling gas. I agree I have severe anxiety but to say I don't sound very unwell physically is odd.
If anyone else came on here and posted a thread about their symptoms, everyone would automatically say it sounded like Crohns/UC. It's probably my fault as I am so highly anxious but I feel I could say that my symptoms were 100 times more severe and I would still be told I have health anxiety only.

@sillysausage I agree with you about Dr google. I avoid it like the plague. You can find catastrophic illnesses for the most minor symptoms if you want to.

Exactly, it doesnt give you any odds or how many people have had these symptoms and been diagnosed. Plus half the time it's not even professionals putting stuff on the internet it's scare mongers

After 22 pages isnt it time everyone stopped fuelling this.

I fail to see the good it is doing.

It sounds like more than health anxiety as the OP actively wants to be ill and is indignant to anyone who says she may not be.

I was told that Sunny but I also heard that in the early stages UC does come and go and that it can start off minor which must be the case with me. It can disappear and then flare up again which seems to be consistent with my experiences.
Sally, if I didn't have the bleeding I would agree with you that there was a strong possibility that this is all anxiety based but now I have the bleeding I know it isn't.

Teaiseverything I appreciate that but along with my other symptoms, the bleeding is dodgy at best. :(

You can quite literally stress yourself out so much that the over production of loose stools will cause blood. It can be a very normal bodily reaction. You haven't answered what I asked about your health anxiety and your GP?

Because I have bleeding Niki. As I said before, anyone else who posted the background of my symptoms on here would automatically be told "It sounds
like UC/Crohns/bowel cancer. I think because I have shown severe anxiety and hysteria I could say I had bleeding 50 times a day and constant pain and people would still say it is in my head.
I am 99% sure I will be reporting back on here in a few weeks to say I have an inflammatory disease. My family are already biting back their words as they all said the same thing, that it was just the after effects of the bug and that I was being ridiculous thinking it was anything more serious. There are going to be a lot of shocked people I think when I do get diagnosed.

Ok well you come back here then and shock us all with your diagnosis.

I'm out.

They know I have anxiety but don't think too much of it. It's stressful going in there with scary symptoms so yes I have cried and told them how sick and anxious I feel but because of the longevity of this thing I have going on, they then understand why I am emotional. My biggest concern at this moment is finding out what the hell is wrong with me physically. Once I know I will be in a better place to deal with my severe anxiety.

Well, what do you think it is then Nik? I would put money on the fact that everyone will be shocked when I am proved right. If you look back a few pages where I did a background of my symptoms, it is clear there is something concerning going on and if it were any other mumsnet user, people would reply and say it does look very concerning and would suggest inflammatory diseases.

Hopefully it's not UC and is something that can be remedied much more easily. Please believe me (as an anxiety sufferer (not health anxiety) with UC) that anxiety WILL make any health issue worse so it's vital that you treat that as a priority too.

I am 99% sure it is UC. I am terrified but there are no other explanations. If there was no bleeding I might think it was a severe food allergy but no deluding myself now.
As I said, it will be a shock to everyone when I am diagnosed. My fault for being so anxious and hysterical I guess.

aare you getting tests?

I feel for you, OP. With the symptoms you describe, it does sound like possibly Crohns or UC. Time will tell, and constant panicking isn't going to help you. It won't change the diagnosis. Concentrate on seeing the Dr's, on getting the right tests and diagnosis.

And then afterwards, if you do have something? You put your big girl pants on, and you get on with it, because you are a mum and we don't get a choice. I have chronic conditions too but I don't show my ds. All my anger and tears are private. Childhood is short, they need strong, brave mums.

Good luck. You will be ok.

Quite a few posts ago I mentioned that the gut is incredibly susceptible to stress, the same thing about 50 posters also said. Why are you terrified? What good does that do?

My friend has/ had UC and nearly died and had to have most of her large intestine removed. She was really sick and for a long time. She is fine now though and went on to have her third child successfully.
Is that what you want to hear?
Do you want good news to make you feel better or bad news to feed your anxiety, I gave you both.