Would you see a doctor?

[Goingtobeawesome]

I am currently unable to speak. I want to but I can't. I'm certain this is due to the stress and upset I have had this year. I also have panic attacks and shake a lot. This is the fourth time it has happened this month.

Medically I am having a lot of stomach pains and also have symptoms for a neuro endocrine tumour and I will ask for the blood test to check when I see the surgeon next month as the appointment was for the stomach pains and no one knows the new symptoms. I thought I was pre menopausal but blood tests said not but the not speaking is unsettling.

[Goingtobeawesome]

Thank you again. You're all very kind.

Dh gave me a hug this morning and puppy muscled in . She's definitely a mummy's girl .

It is still weird when I do talk and makes me exhausted. The boys go back to school tomorrow and dh goes back to work. I've got an appointment and DD is off then she's back the next day and I'm seeing the asthma nurse. I'm worried about being alone. I'm going to make plans to keep busy. Dh is doing everything. I'm just putting washing on.

I'm exhausted.

[pklme]

You may enjoy being alone- less pressure to speak. We're here anyway!

[Goingtobeawesome]

I'm quite anxious today and shaky. I have to speak today as I have an appointment. Dh is leaving in an hour. It's a new job and normally he'd have left at seven. Just DD at home today. Will go out with my puppy, maybe with a neighbour and her dog.

Thank you.

[pklme]

Have a good think about what you want to say in your appointment. Make some notes if it will help.

Can you, dog and DD have a quiet day apart from the appointment. What do you like to do, cook? Read? Watch tv? Puzzles?

[DottyGiraffe]

Hope your day goes well, maybe make sure you have a notepad and pen with you to take the pressure off if you can't speak?

[SandunesAndRainclouds]

I've had problems with anxiety recently too. My DH is going back to work and the change is making me feel a bit wobbly. Apparently living in the now (rather than worrying about what is going to happen) relieves anxiety. I'm not very good at doing it but going to try....

Can you write what you want to say rather than speak at your appointment?

[Goingtobeawesome]

I think once dh goes I'll write a note for my appointment just in case. I feel safe with the lady I'm seeing but I can't deny I'm not scared at why I'm feeling so unwell. I am still worried about if I have NET and worrying what to do if the doctor at the hospital next week won't take me seriously. I've had so much going on this last year that it's hard to separate everything. I felt shaky and tearful and very sick.

I don't know whether to sit and cuddle the dog all day or keep busy and get the house sorted.

Dh has just gone. I was expecting him to go at half past so was a bit fretful. This is just not me. What's going on?

[pklme]

What's going on is, you've been strong for years and are absolutely exhausted. Your DH gave you a bit of a wobble, after you thought you were safe. You will get better.

If it were me I'd snuggle up with the dog and try and lose myself in a good book, but then that's what I want to do every day!

[Goingtobeawesome]

Just back from acupuncture. She said my pulse was very weak which tells her I'm exhausted. She did some quite intensive treatment. I feel better but horrible as well. Nipped to shop and bought dinners for three days and cup a soups as I can't face eating.

Dh has texted to say his new job is going well so that's a relief.

Puppy happy to see me and I loved looking at her on the camera while I was out. Every time she was asleep on the sofa, just in a different position! .

Apart from taking doggy for a walk I don't have to go out again so I'm planning on doing very little and then tomorrow when DD is back to school I'll get cracking.

Thank you.

[MollyHuaCha]

Walking dog sounds like it might help. I think everyone could do with nice relaxing brisk walk twice a day. Good luck.

[Goingtobeawesome]

She's had lunch and we are currently playing fetch in the lounge. She's my buddy. 🐶

[pishedoff]

Ah she's bootiful!!!

[Goingtobeawesome]

She's just lost a tooth. She seemed quite confused, bless her.

[pklme]

That sounds like a good way to spend a day! Food stocked up, puppy to adore and be adored by, and a bit of tlc from the acupuncturist. Glad DHs job was ok. I've been to see Rogue One at the cinema, cried all the way through. Brilliant film, but I don't recommend it unless you are feeling buoyant!!

[Goingtobeawesome]

I managed to take her for a walk even though I didn't feel like it. She didn't either at first but then got her act together and had a lovely time in the field. I was so proud as she came to me every time I whistled for her. Shame there were no doggy friends for her but she did have a bonus cuddle with a neighbour.

I've not heard of Rogue One. I think the last thing I saw at the pictures was Frozen .

[pklme]

Frozen had a happier ending... It's part of the starwars franchise. I'm mum to boys, so...
I'm so lazy about dog walking these days. I used to go every day, but since July DS1 has been back home so has been doing when I'm busy. DH tends to do weekends. I really need to boot myself up!

[Goingtobeawesome]

I really didn't want to go out yesterday but I knew if I didn't it would be harder today and while I was sad for her she had no doggy friends to play with, I was so proud of her that she came every time I whistled.

I'm feeling very shaky and fretful again today. Is it the tablets already? I di tend to react to medication in a big way. I haven't even seen the kids. I got up to the loo then was shaking I was so tired so got back into bed and dh saw them off.

[pklme]

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We can't give when we have nothing left ourselves. If it is the medication, then you just have to give it a bit of time. Little just about manageable challenges are good, as they stop us giving up all together, so we'll done for yesterday's walk. Sometimes, getting washed and dressed is enough of a challenge for the day.
When are you next due to see a doctor? I know you are waiting for some kind of investigation.

[Goingtobeawesome]

At the hospital next week to see what's going on with my stomach pains. Today they are really bad. I feel sick with them. Just going to take puppy out as she's keen to go. Just feel so poorly. My asthma review was bad too so need a new inhaler. All pants.

[Goingtobeawesome]

Can any advise re the new tablet I'm taking please? I just feel so out of it and I don't know if it's just me getting used to it and I should carry on or if I should stop. Initially the nurse said stop taking them when I said I felt worse and then later said she can't tell me what to do. Last time I was ill with depression I ended up feeling like I was in a constant fog so told a white lie to the GP to get off them. I just want to lie on the sofa and cuddle my dog.

[DottyGiraffe]

Remind me what kind of tablet you've started - sorry, I can't remember!

[Goingtobeawesome]

It's paroxetine. I take one a day. Not taking the diazepam after the first one.

[DottyGiraffe]

Thank you - ok, from my experience of antidepressants, they can make you feel like that, sort of woozy, not really with it, kind of gross, anxious and so on, for the first couple of weeks while they imbed themselves and then these should subside.

I haven't got experience of that specific drug but have taken 2 others. The first wasn't for me as I reacted strongly to it after the first tablet but the second lot were ok after I was used to them (felt as I described above at first). It did take longer than the often-mentioned two weeks but the effects did go.
Might be worth discussing with your GP because everyone reacts or responds differently but it could just be early days with them.
I don't know if that helps but I hope, if nothing else, it helps you to feel not so alone with this.

[Goingtobeawesome]

Thank you. I have taken two or three other types as I've had post natal depression three times but it was the latter time I remember being in a fog and thinking they weren't helping anyway and needed to come of them. In some ways feeling numb is good but I don't like feeling faint and I'm so tired.

[DottyGiraffe]

My inclination would be that the tired and faint will subside (eventually although it will probably feel like it's taking forever!) but the numbness may not. That's only going on my limited experience of course.