Be gone foul fag - quitters thread part 2

[imaginaryfriend]

Hi guys ... join me over here?

I may murder someone on the way home. By the way. Just at random. If they do something annoying.

Ok, get the bus...the no smoking bus
Sniff the smokers getting on at each stop

This is actually how I'd expect to feel on the second day of a quit - you know that horrible spaced can't get your mind off it feeling? No idea why it's taken until today to kick in.

cc ... do you remember when I was trying to quit a long time ago that I once considered missing my bus home so I could pick up somebody's barely started smouldering fag from the floor??? EEK! I'm like that again today!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Do you know my mum did that outside a supermarket after no fags for 100 days and shes still on them now...2 years plus later. Dont.

Youve been here, you recognise this for the disaster it is, dont fall for it.

I do, cc, you're totally right. This is the point, or one of the many points, where I could really screw up couldn't I?

Yep and your not going to, our are in control of this demon. ARENT YOU.

I remember you telling me that about your mum before actually cc. Is she still smoking a lot?

How long do you think then before this state of horrible craving is going to pass? Easier tomorrow you reckon? I'd rather prepare myself honestly ...

It goes in waves, she doesnt smoke in front of me anymore, thinks she can kid herself if its in secret or something.
MY dp has STOPPED by the way, just before Xmas he banged it on the head and hasnt had one since.
But my mum smokes more in secret out of sight than she did in public.

I'm amazed your mum hasn't gotten more ill from it, cc. And others. I'd read that you said your dp quit too. That's amazing seeing as I remember at one point you never thought he would! Has he had temptations and relapses?

When he has other blokes in the lorry with his he either chokes to death and coughs his lungs up or sits there inhaling wondering if he should have 1 or not.
Hes been out on the piss a few times and i was worried about his falling in an ashtray but he hasnt then either
When he saw me reading whyquit this morning, looking for the Just One article he thought I was having a moment myself.
I said I didnt think I would ever smoke again.
Fecking hope not.
My mums ...erm 57, smoked roll ups all her life, since 16?
Shes never ill. She looks 78 though, wrinkles wise and her eyes are knackered. No air to them look, red and bloodshot. But she could probably beat me in a race
But I did have pleurisy and ive never been right since.
I have told her she'dd better stop coz i aint wheeling her outside no hospital for her to get a fag.
Oh and her mouth look like a cats arse.

I've just been on whyquit and sobered up a bit. Phew ... I think by the end of tomorrow the intenser cravings may have passed a bit.

You know what though, it's a bloody hard drug to quit. I can really understand why so many people fail. When you're at the worst moments it feels like it's going to go on forever doesn't it?

Yep, does sober you up a bit, its like being on some mad not quite yourself drug isnt it???

Yes, I can't focus on anything today and my eyes feel incredibly heavy and tired.

beer..have beer

I've told dp to put some in the fridge. but I may even be very sad and buy a cool one from the offy on the way home. Avoiding fags. And some VERY spicy crisps.

Yep sounds goood Gonna shoot off now need to post something. No fags ok xxxx

I mean and drink the cool beer and eat the spicy crisps on the bus. I'll look like a right wino but what the heck. It gives me something to take my mind off nicotine.

My brain's gone totally dooolally. Feel like I've been injected with some bizarre drug.

Pour the beer in a different bottle...or does that make it worse LOL

Thanks cc. Again. You're such a mate.

We're taking dd out to something in the park this evening so may not check in again until later.

WISH ME LUCK!!!

Here I am on another day. Just had another quivery desperate set of cravings. It's getting on my nerves!! When's that hollow-lung feeling going to go? And the empty head? And weirdly weak feeling in my limbs. Is this all normal for quitting? I guess I should look up whyquit withdrawal symptoms again.

Taking dd to a party this afternoon, we're very tired after yesterday evening out, but another temptationless afternoon thank goodness!

How's everybody else this wet weekend?

Jeez ... I'm climbing the walls again today!!! I can only think this is a delayed reaction of some kind? I feel as though I only quit on about Thursday. I'm really clanking again today, itchy empty lungs, fuzzy head, totally insanely irritable. It's weird. Why didn't this happen immediately??? I knew I was finding the first few days remarkably easy. Now it's like I didn't withdraw at all then and am doing it all now. I guess that means tomorrow's the equivalent of day 3 which is meant to be the peak, no?