Tamoxigang New Year, New Thread, *46*

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Hands round a for everyone.

harriet I'm with the NHS. As soon as results were available they appeared on the system which my BCN has access to. Not sure if it's the same in every area. Maybe you could have a chat with your BCN :)

Just popping by to wish Goodness all the best for tomorrow. Up-date us as soon as you feel up to it. x

Hope everyone else is doing okay - will be back in the morning to catch up. (I am trying to limit screen time before bedtime, as I am not sleeping very well at the moment.)

lots of good thoughts for goodness tomorrow - she is in the best hands x

Despite my despicable 'close your eyes, dump n run' behaviour on this thread (and others), you've held my hand throughout this scary time. Thank you so very, very much. I'm really touched by your good wishes. The hospital I'm going to has pants internet connection (I'll be there for approx. a week). But as soon as I can, I'll be grabbing hands as I wait fir the results (a week). Go and buy steel gloves now! Lol
I hope you're all as comforted as I've been by this wonderful support. It's helped to pull me out of a very dark hole.

malt I think my eyebrows have grown quicker then anywhere else - i'm tidying them up all the time.

It is DDs parents evening next week and she is mortified that I will be wigless - I said I would wear a big my sticker saying 'I am DDs mum' and hold her hand all the time. The problem is she hasn't told anyone so now says they will realise that something has happened. (Of course I told the school and other parents but she doesn't realise that). I also suggested a 'this is my fake boob' sticker which DS thought was hilarious - he's all for increasing her pain .

How are you holding up gigs? You seem to be racing through your chemos - do you have many left?

Call me a drama queen but I closed my eyes and could hear the chorus to this little ditty going round and round:

Best of luck to Goodness tomorrow. Can you physically feel all the positive energy and vibes being sent your way from this thread ???

Goodness, good luck with your op tomorrow. May the surgery team be careful, skilful and dexterous and your nerves be resilient. May the gods of histology be kind and your recovery swift.

Mum often, I really can. Makes me quite emotional.
Embarrassed at being a drama queen/ big chicken though. Most people might've just got on with it. Non?
I am just not built that way. I needed and appreciate every bit of the wonderful support you've all given me.

Feeling the urge to find an annoying post and put something frank, blunt, truthful and opinionated on it... before finning all the way to the anaesthetist. I've got the pre-op minxies!

Morning. What time are you heading off goodness? I've nothing on today so will be hand holding for you.

Morning all

Just wanted to ask a quick question, as I'm about to start work.

Have any of you had issues with nightmares? I thought not being able to sleep was bad, but I am starting to think I would rather stay awake than keep having these dreams

Occasionally really but I think mindfulness and seeing a therapist take edge off having them. Have you asked your lovely Bcn as I am sure she will have some ideas.

Goodness-do your worst ( I am always tempted). Relationships or Aibu are good places to start. I really hope you get the lovely anaesthetist I had as he is lovely and great at dealing with pre op nerves.

Morning all
Goodness hope all goes well

Gigs good luck with the chemo and scan results, hope mini is letting you have some sleep

Kitkat my 10 year old is the same, worried about his friends popping round and seeing me without my wig whereas my 14 year old wouldn't care at all, maybe it's an age thing

Really I had bad nightmares at the start it's horrid. Make sure your room is not too hot as that makes mine worse.

As I will be having rads all through half term the inlaws have offered to take the kids away which is kind of them but feel it's another holiday where I'm stuck here bored.

Morning.

Goodness will be thinking of you today. I hope it all goes fantastically well and that the results are good xxx

Really my dark thoughts and nightmares seem to have passed and have been replaced by night sweats - not sure which I prefer . I will most definitely going for some counselling once this is over as my brain is full of 'what ifs'.

Kitkat am loving reading about your wigless episodes, bloody right too, I cannot wait to have hair, even if I look like GI Jane!

Right so today is my LAST CHEMO. Ahem, sorry to shout, but I marked this date on my calendar months ago and now it's finally here.

Malt I'll be having rads over half term too, except I'll be stuck here with the kids. Wanna borrow mine?

Congratulations on your last chemo, handbags, that is so great!

(((Hugs))) on the nightmares, really. I agree about finding other routes to discharge this stuff; I also find counselling helpful.

kitkat, I was very very happy to read your suggestion for a 'this is my fake boob' sticker! Definitely one to adopt.

My 11 yr old dd is going to hate me being bald, isn't she? I'll be lucky to be allowed out at all...

malt, I sympathise about the "stuck here bored" thing for holidays. I can see a few of them ahead for me....

Thinking of all today who have tough operations and results to come.

Wren the kids get used to the baldness really quickly (at least mine did). Dd2 was even very keen I removed my hat and showed off my newly shaved head to all her school friends (I didn't).

Thanks, handbags, that made me laugh..

DD (5 months), I think gets a bit confused about the hair situation. Obviously she knows it's me, with or without wig, but she seems to find bald head funny. The boys just like rubbing it!

Handbags congratulations on last chemo ! Yes everyone send their kids to me then I won't be bored !

Having 1st hair cut tomorrow am hoping my hairdresser of over 10 years won't be too shocked she looked upset cutting my long hair into a bob last year as she knew if wouldn't have been my choice

handbags That's great! I can't wait to post the same thing (have to wait until 18th March to say that...)

DD1, also 11, won't even look at my bald head. DD2 (9) was interested to see it and feel it. Its too cold to go around without a hat/wig since I started Chemo in October, even inside we don't really turn the heat on that high. So DD1 has never seen my bald head.

DD1 was checking out my eyelashes and eyebrows last night. They survived pretty well until last cycle. I still have both, but they are looking pretty sparse. DD1 told me that she didn't like that they were disappearing. And she told me that the eyelashes I had left looked very dry!

I can see her having same reaction as KitKat's DD when it comes to early hair days.

Oh no malt - I remember you being left behind in Oct half-term. At the time we said it wouldn't happen again - your hospital are pants!¡

*hadbags' - congrats on getting to last chemo - a major milestone - make you celebrate as soon as you are able to.

My DD is 13 and DS is 10 and he is the one who is happy to tell everyone how things are going. The trouble is the more DD gets in a tizz the funnier it gets - even DH thinks it's hilarious.

I know everything is so slow ! On a brighter note I'm going to see war horse in London on Saturday so looking forward to that :)