Yesterday, I found out that ... and I'm scared.

[GoodnessKnows]

I will be brief as I feel like I've entered a time warp where my brain has frozen, incapable of long sentences:
Had hip pain and have been waking at 3am most nights with back pain (not terrible) for about 1-2 years.
Thought I needed a firmer mattress.
Finally went to consultant.
Two MRIs and an X-ray later, I was ushered into a private room having just been told that a large tumor is at the base of my spine.
They called me back in within one working day of the second MRI.
I'm now waiting for a biopsy which will be on Wednesday or Saturday of next week - to determine its 'nature'.
Scared
Shocked
There was talk of chronic bone erosion in the lower back as a result of this thing. Also discussion of nerve paths and tumors, rare cases and cups of tea.
Now, lying awake as usual in mild discomfort, I'm in utter shock and disbelief.

All the very best goodnessknows,hope all goes well xx

Good luck xxx

Good luck - be thinking of you all

I have been lurking, but have thought of you often this month. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow especially and wish you a swift and complete recovery x

Thank you all! DS driving me round the flipping bend with his behaviour! Major distraction technique of his. Hope it stops (won't do) when I'm in hospital and at home laying down. Makes me so sad n cross. Doesn't he KNOW that I need him to be good?

Wishing you well for your op and subsequent recovery OP, I hope everything goes as well as it can.

He may well be picking up our your stress, however hard you're probably trying not to show it.

How am I going to chase after him (literally) when I'm laying down on my side after being in hospital? It's insane. DPs suggested he stops his clubs (so that they don't have to bother taking him!!!!!!!!!!!
I went mad!
So they are - well, might do. Grrrrrrrrrrr I hate not being in control and doing it all myself if others won't. Hate hate hate it
As if I want him running circles around me at home!
He calked my au pair an idiot tonight. I was so upset for her. So angry but didn't want his last memory of mummy for the week being a sore bottom (his)! I'll have my own sore bum. Lol

Good luck for your operation OP

Good Luck GoodnessKnows.

Will be thinking of you tomorrow.xxx

Good luck. Thinking of you.

Good luck, sending you all my best wishes x

Good luck, sending you good wishes via MN.

Hello, just wanted to let you know i'll be thinking of you tomorrow too. ((Hugs))

I posted here ages ago but have still lurked.

You will be in my thoughts tomorrow.

Will be thinking of you tomorrow

All the best for tomorrow Goodness. My fingers will still be there for squeezing.
Will be thinking of you, hang in there xx

All the best for tomorrow Goodness. My fingers will still be there for squeezing.
Will be thinking of you, hang in there xx

So good I said it twice

I hope all goes well tomorrow, will be thinking of you.

Hope everything goes well, Goodness.
Sorry your ds I acting up his fears for you. I found my ASD ds needed to go back to an earlier time - more gentle hugs, and cosy stories in bed, when I returned (not able to do a lot)from an unexpected and long hospital stay. (Hug)

Thinking of you tomorrow. Hope all goes well.

Good luck tomorrow. Will be thinking of you.

Big hugs and big loves for today. holding the prosecco ready for recovery time xxxxx

Thank you everyone! You're so thoughtful. Yes. Stories n early bedtimes might be good - hayelp! Already scared of coming home to his antics