**TAMOXIFEN 35**the all dancing,fat boy snacking and drugs thread

[MaryAnnSingleton]

yoo hoo - over here- bring the trolley...

Well done Earth! Another hurdle duly scrambled over! Have a fortifying slice of cake

Hi Malterserzz. Oh dear. But well done for going and seeing the GP, and for making an appointment tonight. I really hope you get reassurance, but either way you are very welcome here. Telling people is hard if you are private: personally, I refused to discuss the situation with all but a very few people even right through treatment. It might seem perverse to some people, but whatever works to get you through is the right thing to do in my book. And refusing to engage does seem to knock the headtilters back a bit . Everything is crossed for you, my love. x

Yay for earth and staples .

Malteserz- hope you get a quick answer tonight . The waiting is the horrid part but hopefully will be nothing. We have hand held lots of people thru ok news too.

Gracie - to use a lovely Mn phrase those FB statuses really boil my piss too. Hope concentration comes back- I found post ml always bad for that too.

Yay for Earth! Glad that's done. Did you let your grandson watch??

malteserzz, sorry you've been referred. Ask any and all questions here - we totally get how scary it all is, but often we get people joining us for a bit, then they get the best of news and skip away. Really hope you will too!

Waving to Gracie. My brain's a bit all over the place too, though I have no excuse..

Hello all,

Have read but on phone so hard to scroll back and forth!

trice sorry to hear your news but hopefully the docs will have a good plan! :)

malteserzz good plan getting a private appt so you don't have so long to wait, I hope it's something harmless but the sooner you know the sooner you can deal with it.

earth good luck with the procedure, hope it's not painful.

I'm in the chemo suite waiting for my infusion. Bit of a palaver. Dr W had forgotten to order my infusion so had to go home this morning then come back for afternoon session. Then when I was waiting in the waiting area they kept taking other people in and so eventually asked and they hadn't realised I was a patient so they'd given all the nice reclining armchairs away :( found me a seat but it's not very comfy. At least I've got a footstool :)

Had lots of weird looks from other patients as I've had to use the loo several times. Think I need a brown ribbon and a brown brave bowel cancer fighter tshirt!!

Waves to everyone else, I hope you're all having a good day :)

Dr w is a shower isn't he? Hope get you hooked up soon ash.

Defo need a brown ribbon and maybe this tee shirt fighter

Have pencil out to design my "come on in cancer,have a cup of tea and bit of cake" tee shirt complete with head nodding pic. I think it could catch on.

Can you tell I am meant to be Ou ' Ing(well done on essay Copt).

Hi all, - I've been to yoga this morning - and feel a little calmer, think I will start doing a lot of yoga at home!

Trice - so sorry to hear about your DX, -bloody disease - you have had wise words from other ladies here with secondaries, - I think with all things that are a major shock, time is needed to get your head around it all, - initially you can't think clearly. So take things gently and decide what you want and need to know about it all. Has your medical team directed you to any support groups for people with secondaries, - that might be something to consider when yo feel ready.
Anyway, you are very welcome here, and it's a safe place to say whatever you are feeling, along side a lot of fatty snack related fetishism discussion xx

Malteserzz - sorry you are also going through a worrying time, I hope you can get some answers tonight that will reassure you xx

Earth - glad the staples are out ( at ghoulish DGS)

Copt - are you OK - you are soooooooooo brave.

topsy - I see HND cruelly made you buy shoes, - that must have been tough for you, I hope she is making up to you today.

Asho - have they given the comfy recliners to non patients - that's not good enough if so, they need to turf them out and let you sit in one
WE used to get that in our unit - some people seem to bring a massive entourage witht hem when the y have their chemo and the bastards visitors hog all the recliners given half a chance (I didn't give them half a chance, I told them to get out)

It is the game that is making DH stay up late, he cannot seem to grasp how much he disturbs me when he comes to bed hours after me, and I am poor sleeper even under the best conditions. Today he is doing his 'I'll pretend I didn't say a load of nasty stuff yesterday, and we can pretend it never happened'

love to all xx

Thank goodness Earth, glad that is over for you.

Hope it goes smoothly Ash.

A recliner is coming up soon so I'm going to be upgraded

gigs ooh t shirt sounds good, I'd like to pre order one

Am hooked up now, lovely nurse came along just after I posted. She has stopped me knitting though as it was stopping my drip working. Just waiting for my minion mum to come along with my hot chocolate, anyone else fancy one?

ooh yes please to hot chocolate asho. Glad you're getting a seat now.

I have to say I'm involved in fund raising thing this weekend for our chemo unit, - there are not enough chairs, not enough space, not enough staff - people are having to wait a very long time for their treatment and then it generally comes trough cancellations so people have no idea whne their treatment might start. All a big mess, so we are trying to raise money for chairs, drip stands, a portakabin for more space, -etc, its a long list.

And frankly it's fucking scandalous that hospitals have to rely on charity fund raising for life saving treatment.

Gigs - I want one of those t-shirts

For a second then Ash, I thought you were jetting off somewhere. Still at least you'll be more comfy. Hope it speeds up a bit for you. xx

Kurri, at your DH. Isn't he exhausted??

Gigs, add me to the t-shirt list.

Fab you're getting involved with the fundraising KK I hope it goes well. This chemo unit has just moved into a new suite which is bigger and has more chairs so that's good. They've got some new ones but they're not recliners just big chairs. Not very comfy. I've been upgraded now. Hot chocolates all round and some minstrels for the trolley

Smee - I thin he is exhausted, and that might go some way to explaining his v.odd behaviour. Sometimes he gets home from work and just goes to bed for a couple of hours, - presumably so he can recharge in order to stay up all night.

I've just remembered I won a banana, fruit and walnut cake in the raffle last night,

I'm hoping the weather holds out for the fundraiser, - it's at a kind of garden centre + other crafty/cookery/hippy clothes shops place, so nice weather would bring more folks in.

He must be exhausted, Kurri - still no excuse though.

Ash, I want minstrels now.. how long before you're done?

Hi Malteeserzz , hope you get good news at your apt tonight and don't need us any more ! (In the nicest possible way !)

I'm knackered !
Did biiiiiiig Tesco shop with HND , them the butchers .
We had to stop and refuel for lunch .
And then , you are not going to believe this , we went to the wool shop .
And it was SHUT !!!!!!!!
How very fecking dare they ?????

I had to have a lie down to get over the shock

KK ((((((((hugs))))))))

You're so rock and roll, Topsy.

that's what I was thinking Smee

My Mum has just phoned to say she thinks she's sold her house - she had 2 offers over the weekend, one was a chap in a chain who offered more, one was a cash buyer, who offered $10 000 less, but when he heard another person was interested he upped his offer to match it. So she's going with the cash guy. And she's put in an offer on a retirement flat. So we shall see hope it all works out for her because she really wants to move and get settled in now.

Hello lovelies. Hugs to trice and fingers crossed/+ve vibes for malteserzz.
Hope things settle down with dh, kk. mine can be a bit of a git staying up too late too
Looks like I've missed loads - had a read through but can't reply to everyone memory not that good on phone emoticon glad to hear of staples out, earth.
Copt, I have been known to take girls paddling in the ford.. One of my favorite places just a few minutes walk across the park from my house. Wouldn't dare take our car through, would have to be a 4x4 and then only down from st ives as there is a bit of a step out that way at the moment.

And good news for your mum kk :)

Yay for possible sale KK

I'm back home now and just had a takeaway! :) feeling alright so far... My arm is quite sore from the infusion and I'm already fed up of no cold drinks but can't really complain.

Hope everyone is having a lovely evening!

Fingers crossed for your mums move as would be nice to get that sorted-my mil health improved when went into a retirement flat.

And it is bloody shocking that need to raise fund like that but good on you for doing it kurri. Agree that obsession no excuse for dh behaviour.

Smee-when is new project for.

Ash-hoping the choc helps the chemo.

No wool -what will you do? Will this make you drink more wine? Also what happened to ds art project topsy?

Had interesting but draining (in good way) session with therapist -mainly about my dad which is whole long saga but seems to be coming out now. Actually feels good to talk it thru.

I am still done in -giving into recuperation not easy but am sure will get stronger.

Dh out tonight so it may well be a greys anatomy fest. Or maybe Howard's way. Or Scott and bailey-this is my mums choice , anyone seen it?

Waves to jchoc.

Yay for not feeling too bad ash.

Dh out so I have control of the stereo -it's a soft rock night chez gig so get your requests in (let's hope don't wake the minis).

Scott and Bailey is good Gigs - sort of ongoing storyline regarding the detectives private lives, but separate 'cases' to solve each episode.
friend of mine and her Dh run a private car company in the Manchester area, and they provide transport for lots of TV shows - cast and crew who need ferrying around - and one of the shows they work for is Scott and Bailey.

Soft rock - hmm, I haven't had a drink so not feeling quite maudlin enough for Genesis I could probably cope with Air Supply or a bit of Bread.

I meant to say Gigs (because I think you like female jazz singers?- apologies if I'm muddling you up with someone else) - there's a programme on friday BBC4 called something like Jazz Icons - about Sarah Vaughan, Ella Fitzgerald, Billie Holliday, NIna Simone and several others. Looks good - definitely my kind of thing.

How about a bit of "I Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore" ?
Feeling the 80s soft rock vibe myself Gigs

Fingers are feeling twitchy through lack of wool .
May have to go searching for booze .

It's Scott and Bailey in this house tonight (I will be recording Greys for me to watch tomorrow)

Ash - glad your chemo is done, - I didn't know you couldn't have cold drinks, - how long is that for?