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[MaryAnnSingleton]

step this way dear ones...the trolley will be here in a sec...

I didn't let pig/dog Sauron anywhere near me today, I'm sure he would be sniffing all over my new booby ....... I'm not too confident around dogs and although he is a big soppy pup, he knows it !

Hey welcome back hnd ! Hope the wine @ tipsy's has been medicinal
I'm sure that pen must be tucked up safely in bed.

Waving to MAS

HND - but Sauron has magical healing paws, and dribble

Yay for hnd and medicinal at topsy's
'Sposed to be going out tonight but forecast heavy snow and blizzard not too good :( will see what happens later!

That's irritating about your night out jchoc.

Yay for healing wine and fact snow hasn't impacted on topsy/hnd supply.

Snowy journey sounds quite nice smee.

Am feeling very bleurgh after few days of not much food so wonder if sauron could be trained to fetch snacks. Probably not...

Need to wake up a bit as got friends coming for lunch and need to cook

Thanks ladies ...... Sauron fetch snacks ? He'd have them all eaten in a second ! Just had coffee with tipsy, she's crocheting hats (again). It's so nice to be home.

Just getting ready to go and see surgeon, I have about 6 foam islands stuck on my back and front trying to prevent leaks .....it's so horrible and I feel mucky. Can't wait for a clean uP and redressing.

For anyone thinking of the LD flap,surgery, please don't be put off by my experience ..... I have had very bad luck so I am told and the surgeon took a risk making me such a big boob from my own tissue, another girl in my ward who had the same done recovered so much quicker than me .... She had her mastectomy done two years ago..

Snowy journey was lovely. Not least because for once the train was warm and nicely quiet. Somehow I usually manage to sit near someone who's running their office from the train. I had Flat White from Costa, pain au raisin and a book have been meaning to read for an age. Was almost like going on holiday. Shame about the work meet at the other end though.

Hope you slept well and are okay HND. How's wound today??

Jane, will send no-snow vibes your way for tonight. I thought snow was stopping, not starting all over again.

Gig, I have a feeling Sauron would snaffle snacks or you'd get them half chewed. Must be annoying to feel so icky. Cooking seems a bit above and beyond.

Is your appt today, MAS? I think you said you'd rearranged for this week, so must be. Hope it's all positive. x

Ned, hope you've survived the week. You deserve a large glass of later.

Better get on. on for all.

x-posted HND. Hope it goes well today and the wounds stop oozing soon. I remember that feeling of sogginess. Not nice.

Just back from chaperoning a school trip of DDs .
It was a trip to a local Presbytarian church for a bible camp (or Pedestrian Church as DD called it ...)
I had to sit on my hands to stop myself having a full on row discussion on creationism ...

Blimey, I'd have found that tough too, Topsy. I'm not allowed to go on DS's trips as I am now officially embarrassing.

I don't get invited as am unsuitable parent . I had a mate at school was strict baptist and didn't believe in it. She used to get excused from lessons . She was intelligent and very argumentative in all sorts of ways so I never saw why she would just blindly follow what bible said.

Mini gig proving herself a worthy priestess of sauron as is stealing my lunch.

Hope you are all cleaned up hnd.

Yes surgery done. Cancer confirmed and I am minus a thyroid now.

Radioactive iodine treatment booked for 8 weeks. Very sore tired but feeling better than yesterday.

-glad you are done. Standing by with and handholding for your radioactive iodine.

You home now?

Well that's good you're through the op, Pen, though sorry it was confirmed. You must be feeling quite shaky. Talk as much as you want on here. Rest up xx

Pen - glad op is done, are you home? good luck for RI treatment, - I had that just over a year ago, so if you have any questions feel free to ask, and I will do my best to remember! - it wasn't as bad as I expected, just a bit of a nuisance being isolated.
Hope you start to feel better very soon xx

HND - hope you get rid of the soggy spongy stuff, or at least get clean spongy stuff supplied - its horrid when you feel yukky and can't do anything about it. Did you have the tummy flap thing or the one from your back ? (I'm hopefully having the tummy one this year, so very interested in your experience - don't worry about sparing the details, - I know there's always a chance of complications, but hopefully worth it in the end) Anyway feet up and for you I'd say - get that topsy to entertain you with her exotic dancing and bawdy songs.

I went to keep fit class today - and a photographer from the local paper came along and took photos, - so my giant arse will feature in the paper soon - hooray!

Waving to all xx

Hooray for kks giant arse !

Welcome home Pen
Gentle hugs and plenty of fbs

Gigs - Sauron is proud of his acolyte , but wants to know where his cut is ???

No still in hospital until calcium levels normal. Guess I will be here till tomorrow now. They came and did an ECG at midnight frightened me to death.
Have a clear dressing on my neck which is very gruesome.

Thanks kurri will be asking you about the radioactive treatment soon. Will be great to get the lowdown from someone who has been through it.

Just face timed the dc's as set up wifi hotspot through my phone . Lifesaver and I will be able to use it when I am in isolation.

Nice to hear from you Pen and glad that the surgery is all over for you now. You can start recovery.

I saw the surgeon and she is impressed with the improvement in the capillary return of the flap and got the reg in to have a good look too. She got a lovely nurse who loves dressings to come and give me a good wash and redress. They decided to put wound bags over the leaks to catch the drips and I feel SO MUCH cleaner though I rustle when I move lol.

Kk I had the LD flap (from back) surgery .... Apparently I was the wrong shape for tram flap and they we more confident of the back flap as they do not have to reconnect the blood supplies, they just send your back under a channel under your arm to the front ! Surgeon admitted today that she sat for a week with her fingers crossed whilst the leeches sorted out the blood supply as they though the flap was dying..

i had a tough time because of my overweighted ness and there was HIGH RISK slapped all over my file :( The leech therapy was because of the flap failing and the transfusion was because of blood loss during what was described as "very difficult surgery"and the leeches taking all my blood. I was unfortunate to get cellulitis around one of the drain sites and to get the infection and fever. I am still glad I had it all done and like I said earlier, don't let my bad luck out you off.

Imam being very well looked after by my DH and tipsy

Well done pen and hope you get out soon- take care [bsmile]
hnd am pleased that tipsy is looking after you - hope everything recovers v soon - it all sounds very dramatic.
Have an appalling headache as trying to sort out tax thing for doing work for Japanese newspaper- seem to have been on the phone for ages- I hate money stuff, my mind just shuts off.
Back from onc. via the Costa and the Gap (where I may have made some purchases) and Paperchase to buy lovely cards - always a great pleasure that shop.
Onc is booking a scan which I was expecting but still...
He says if the pulmonary nodules have shrunk or disappeared Topsy stylee then they will prob. keep me on my current meds as they can't rule out tiny metastases which are smaller than 1 cm and can't be seen on CT..so I could be doing this cycle continuously (some people have it for years until it doesn't work any more) I always feel am hopeless as describing how I feel and was trying to articulate about a discomfort in my chest which I think might be psychological possibly. I am sure he thinks I'm a little deranged and I get flustered and drop my scarf/gloves/coat. He did listen to my chest but breathing ok.
Drinkies time soon, after I've written to the Inland Revenue.

MAS, not surprised you have a headache! Scan's bound to be scary, but I'd guess will be good, as they've always said they'll do one and you'll anxt until you have one anyway. How do you feel about the idea of being on long term meds like that? I know this round's been a teeny bit easier due to reduced dose, but you must still be having side effects and feel wiped out.

HND, blimey that's a lot that didn't go to plan. Must have freaked you out a bit to hear Surgeon say that. though clearly just shows you're as tough as old boots

Waving to Pen in hospital. Are you in a lot of pain? Hope not. Hope too that you escape tomorrow. xx

Just back from after school pizza treat with a mum mate and our boys. Involved beer for us and pizza for them, which went down a treat. Will drink a toast to Kurri's forthcoming fame in a bit.

ongoing meds seems a bit irksome, but the last cycle was miles easier so I shouldn't really complain..could be worse !

Hello to all who are eek about scans, phew about being home, recovering from surgery, disowned by their offspring or otherwise.

I'm alright. Those who keep an eye out for info on longer term stuff after treatment, just over a year after rads were finished, and 18 mths after chemo stopped, I've still got sensory loss in my fingers but don't notice any more. Sense of balance is now well dodgy, but I've learned to compensate. Still have post-op pain in boob if I wear something uncomfy etc. Hair now shoulder length and wildly curly. But I'm starting to feel human again after a couple of eeek months of post-cancer stress thingy. and of course am still quite mad but I was to start with.

I shall leave out for all.

mad is good amber

Mas I just requested to join the Facebook group please .... Lisa Hutchings

will whizz over and admit you [bgrin]