**24TH** TAMOXIFEN thread !

[MaryAnnSingleton]

here we go...

I tried to measure myself for new bras today (using the methods shown on line at Bravissimo) and according to my measurements , I have gone from a G cup to a B cup !
That can't be right surely ?
Surgeon said she was aiming for a C to D cup .
And I certainly don't feel like my new bosom looks like a B cup .

Sigh , can't wait for this blasted thing to heal so I can go to the shops and buy new bras ...

DH just called to say that it is a cyst. He's gone off to do the 'big shop' and I've asked him to get a nice big cake so we can celebrate.

Ladies, for your support today. It's made me feel like I've had a comforting arm around me all day. I always feel like I'm in the shadow of BC and as much as I try to run away from it, it lurks over my shoulder. I have hormone imbalances that can't be treated due to BC risk (DM was in 30's when first dx), I can't have the contraceptive pill because of BC risk. Every time I go for something medical I have to say 'BC' even thought it wasn't my illness.

Tonight, I've turned around and I'm sticking up to fingers to it, you're not taking anyone else from me bloody BC.

I wish you all the very best with your treatment. I'm so pleased that it has advanced so much in recent years.

Hooray for Gracie and Ned! And fingers crossed that you escape the hospital this time, Ned x

Very warm welcome and Good vibes for PMissP and her DH.

Thanks to Smee for your concern - I vary between feeling complete fraud (hence no worry at all) to complete paranoia that every one of these blasted bone pains has a doom-laden cause....sigh. Had forgotten what a palaver the bone scan is, with the 3-4 hour wait in the middle - will be using up most of Thursday, and is DS2's 9th birthday & party on Saturday .

Dr Kurri I am sure it is a great comfort to the people of Norfolk to have on hand! Once you've passed your test you could patrol the streets with your back seat full of pink fleecy blankets

Ooh cross-post, that's brilliant PMissP! Enjoy your cake celebration!

Hurray for pmissp DH. Such a relief. I am so glad for you.

lime will be thinking of you on Thursday. The wait is a bit of a faff. I went into work, got someone to run me to the hospital for the injection and then I went back to work for the wait.

I have just text my boss as I had arranged to work mornings only (I only work 3 days anyway) and I have had to ask if I can work tomorrow afternoon rather than morning as it is the only time the nurse can come for my bloods and picc dressing even though I asked last week if they could make sure I only had afternoon appointments. No reply yet, bet he is thinking I'm more hassle than I'm worth.

HOORAY FOR PMISSP.. Good attitude to stick two fingers up at it. Hope DH gets good cake, you deserve it.

Lime be weird if you weren't a bit worried, after all that's why you're having a scan. I was freaked by the aches too, but my scan was clear so I'd bet yours will be too. Hope your lot are like Gracies and they'll tell you same day. What are you doing for DS's birthday?

Dr Kurri, can you come and wrap a fleecy pink blanket round me. Am freezing..

for Gracie, Ned and pmissp.

Grr about wound topsy - mine was a pain in the arse (literally ) to heal.

smee thanks for tip about drinking- I think that is included in info. gracie that's annoying about your line- I have small veins too so hope there isn't too much faff.

It's football and Internet faffing here tonight... Might be book time for me too.

Topsy, I have to go bra shopping too. Am still mighty lopsided even with my perky implants. Not at all sure what size I am..

Great news, Ned - that's you done. Definitely something to celebrate.

Also, wonderful news for you too, MissPiggy. What a huge relief. Have you got wine to have with your cake?

KK, congrats on your medical qualifications. DH used to be cycle safety officer at our school and used to have a mini cycle helmet that an egg snuggly fit into. He used to tell the children to pretend it was their skull, then drop the helmet from a few feet above the ground. That shocked most of them into wearing helmets. It's a shame most people think it's so uncool to wear one.

Topsy, these online companies are excellent at returns. Order a couple and see how they fit. You can usually send them back free of charge. I'd love to have a reduction on remaining bosum - it's huge and a real pain in the neck (literally).

Lime, I've forgotten what the bone scan was like but I remember the hanging about.

Our poor pooch has had a poorly tummy today. Thank goodness DH was home to clear it all up. We've starved him today and I wont feed him tomorrow morning, just water. He's such a scavenger on our walks it's no surprise really.

Off to bed now but there's a box of Turkish delight for the FBS trolley.

Brilliant news from pmissp - - and you are welcome to come back whenever the horrid shadow of bc gets to you !
I bloody hate football too.

Great news MissPiggy and MrPiggy - so pleased for you that it was nothing to worry about, - enjoy your cake, and breathe and relax

Lime - will be thinking of you on Thursday, - hope it not too long a day for you xx

topsy - I never understand how bra measurements are worked out, - but I think Bravissimo do tend to come out differently from others (but they are supposed to be very good from what I've heard)

Figgy - turkish delight - yum. Sorry doggy has a poorly tummy, - ours used to be very prone to tummy bugs, but she's been a bit better since she got older and stopped gobbling up bird poo from the lawn

I am building up a stock of fleecy blankets (Dr Kurri and her revolutionary new pink fleecy blanket therapy) am just setting out on my rounds - I have Smee first on my list

Morning all! Think I need a thick blanket up at the window. Shut the cat out of our room last night but I'm still awake with the light :(

I do wear my cycle helmet (c1987, probably time for a new one) but very nearly had an arguament with a bus pulling out in front of me at a roundabout last week, I had just come down a steep hill so going fast, nothing coming to my right so I went onto roundabout just before bus coming from left pulled onto it. No way had it time to clear before me and my brakes wouldn't have stopped me in time so I went wrong way around roundabout and just avoided it. I think he probably thought I would go left as most traffic does - straight ahead being buses (and taxis and bikes) only. Anyway it did shake me up a bit, and its not the only run in I've had recently. There is a cycle lane for a lot of the route, but only operational from 7.30 so if I go early to avoid the traffic and up my flexi, all the cars are in that lane so I can't win :( I have a traffic free route to where I used to work, about half way in buut then a steep hill to get back to main road so usualy just take maiin road. Sorry, ignore my early morning ramble.

Such good news about mrpmissp

Topsy and smee I aspire to buying some bras that fit too. Found bra trying on very emo, last time I did it and failed to find one that fit.

I'll get up and put some coffee on - hope you all have a good day. x x

my dream last night involved a bike which I was riding, carrying someone on the back - don't think I was wearing a helmet- also dreamed of flying a kind of microlight made of a smoke detector (pesky thing still bleeping -it was ok all day,but chirps at night- definitely changing battery today)
I think you should market the Dr Kurri Patent pink blanket tm
for all medical emergencies.

as for bras- I probably have totally the wrong size but hate trying on- irradiated breast much smaller now so not even.

would the patented dr kurri blanket have tassels?!

Morning all! Feeling reasonable this grey morning, but suspect it may be steroid effects. Could also be psychological effect of 12.5% dose reduction. Whichever is fine with me

misspiggy Yay for good news about mrpiggy relief is not a strong enough word to describe that feeling! Take it easy and hope you enjoyed your celebration last night

Thinking of poorly canines this morning. One of mine had done a poo on the floor overnight. That was a slight challenge to deal with at 7am. Couldn't really leave it, as DH had already left for work, so had to be strong and pick up in copious quantities of loo roll. Managed to do, even with DS peering over and commenting loudly on how "stinky" it was!

Hope everyone has nice plantsman for today? Me? A sofa morning, and DMum coming this afternoon

Oh bollocks, what's a plantsman? that should have been "plans for"! I think I need breakfast. . . .

Perhaps it means Alan titchmarsh is coming round ?

definitely tassels but would not care for Alan T to visit - not a fan at all-he is local and lives in village down the road- saw him with his man bag once in our doctors surgery...

eew at dog poo- Celeste sicked up the other week and I really had to hold my coffee back...

Hi all,

sorry been awol. Sleeping is rubbish at mo so have asked Dr to call with something decent this morning. I am out of Lorazapam and dont' think they do much anyway, think their more for anti anxiety. Still need to top up on them if they'll let me have them, anxiety is racking up and I'm just not that sort of person, but spose this is a lot to deal with.

gigg Def take the picc line. Mine's been in over 3 weeks now and I don't even know it's there.

topsy Glad the nipple was fine, stupid nurse for worrying you!
Congrats Ned & 1in8 for finishing chemo. Gracie hope your resting up a bit!
Lime I've had all clear on bones/organs but still get weird pains. Stabbing in various places and ache on off near heart. Swear I'm gonna have a heart attack sometimes!! Can anxiety make pains like this anyone?

On my progress I have round 2 chemo thurs and although not worried about it, I am about symptoms accumulating as so far be pretty much ok. I feel really down about hair though. sorry I know it's pathetic but I am dreading looking so different. Thinning alot now. Did use cap but I can see it getting worse after thurs. Luckily it's thick and no one notices yet. It's just a kick in the teeth with all the other stuff to deal with and so far only a few people know. Oh and chemo brain has set in. It's a nightmare I really struggle sometimes to just think of right word to say.

jchoc Blimey take care on that bike! My kitty is going to be let loose on Sunday at 14 weeks. DS says we are going to release the beast! He is either adorable and cuddle and following me everywhere (like onlap now on computer) or ripping the place and and trying to hang off my arm with his teeth!!

Waves to all sorry to not mention everyone but thinking of you all. x

Oh snoopy sorry you are struggling- what dose of lorazepam are you on? It can go from 2mg to 5mg so maybe up it?

And not stupid at all to worry about hair loss- its my least favourite bit of all this too. But may not lose more if doing cold cap. My onc seemed to think could work well it it was suitable .

Just swinging in for a quick wave and collective hug. Congrats to everyone who has finished chemo, got good results from tests, and is generally feeling OK. Hugs and sympathies to everyone else.

Snoopy - specifically - yes, anxiety can do all that to you my love, and chemo doesn't help either. Ask BCN for help, it's what she's for. The hair woes are entirely understandable, it is a hard thing to cope with, it really isn't pathetic. But in a few months time it'll be back, you'll feel the wind in it, it'll be in lovely condition, and your eyelashes will be like Bambi's. Promise!

Half term only ended for us about an hour and a half ago, and I have heaps to do, most of it rather hard to understand

Snoopy, glad you've come back to say hi, have been thinking of you. Cold cap probably worth keeping going with. I had a massive bald patch quite quickly, but kept a fringe/ hair at the back, so could sling a scarf or a buff across and nobody seemed to notice. The hair loss is horrid, so it's not pathetic at all. Whinge here all you need to - where else will you find lots of people who totally get it?! Kitten sounds v.cute.

Waving to Sometimes. Did DD have inset day or something?