the 16th ***TAMOXIFEN***thread

[MaryAnnSingleton]

...here we go again

Hi Topsy. I saw what I took to be moulds at rads. Shapes all stacked up. Have you got a date to start the radiotherapy yet? I'm loosing track.

Time is really flying by. Another day and I have not cleaned the kitchen ;) Oh well, it would only get dirty again... At least we have a working dishwasher.

Still I have been awake all day and I'm hoping that will mean a good nights sleep tonight.

Just found Murder in Paradise on iplayer and realised that dh has tried to fix the speakers on the computer today, so now the headphones don't work! Will have to go and evict dh from in front of the tv!

Summat, you can be just yourself on here, whatever you are feeling, don't worry about that. Sometimes you can say something on here that you wouldn't say to nearest and dearest.

At first when I managed not to think about bc, I was brought back to reality with an almost physical jolt, but now I can go really long periods without thinking about it and then when I do I'm quite calm. And this has been over only about 5/6 weeks. It's a rollercoaster really, good days, not so good days, but there's lots of support from all sorts of people.

Summat you can be morbid here , we all have been there . I have certainly spilled all my morbid thoughts on here , things that I couldn't imagine burdening my family with .
Doesn't mean we are ready to shuffle off , just offloading most of the time .

No date yet jane , waiting for a letter .
Have an image running through my brain now of stacks of body moulds lying about like they were spare body parts

Summat - that is a normal reaction but it will pass. I did read all the way through the folder and found that helpful in understanding and accepting my treatment plan. My bc nurse helped me by explaining everything again after it was a bit of a blur the first time I was told.

there was quite a stack on shelves, guess they have to keep them somewhere...

On the topic of moulds, - a friend of mine had to have one when she had six weeks of rads for throat cancer, - when she'd finished they asked her if she wanted to keep the mould and take it home ( she declined ) - Must add that friend is doing very well now

Wonder if the rad techs play with them ...?
I would if I worked there

kk I did ask the tech if I could keep mine at the end , like those plaster casts people have made of their pregnant tummys .
He kind of looked at me strangely and said "eerm , yes if you really want too"
Surely I can't be the first to ask ?

lovely story here of shield protecting unborn baby from radiation

Hi, just to say thanks for your replies and kind words. Yep life has been tough, had my trio (now 14) when I was 46 after my first child died, he was 14 too. Delighted to read your news DRIFT, sorry you have to here though. What a brave lovely bunch you all are. xx

hooray for drift !!! great news- yay !
summat lovely to have you with us,if that doesn't sound odd- we are here for you. Once your treatment gets started you won't feel so fearful,promise.
Dh and I had a glass of wine with supper and a toast to my brother.
Ds home tomorrow as it's pupil review day (ie a day off,he just goes in to discuss things to work towards with his tutor)

Aaaw , that's lovely dee .

Amazing story - gorgeous little babe. I don't suppose mum will be asking to keep the 1.5 ton lead shield! Garden ornament, anyone?

triplets sorry to hear about your ds, that's sad. Hope your three give you lots of joy.

triplets beautiful first born - heartbreaking to lose him
Am very impressed by your cakes

Yes, he`s still beautiful, have his photo next to me now.....................
I love to bake, can you tell??
I held a tea party in my garden early in Sept, to raise money for the Brain Appeal, my lovely friend had a brain tumour removed in June. I baked for England!!

triplets I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful son.

Your triplets look like lots of fun, - and how lucky they are to have a mum who is so good at baking, - those cakes look brilliant.

topsy - I would have thought it was a reasonbale thing to ask, - I mean they can't exactly use them for someone else since they are individually fitted.

reasonbale ??? - good grief it really is time for bed, where's Zebedee?

triplets your first born is beautiful (and your 2nd , 3rd and 4th !)

Goodnight All , going to bed a bit weepy tonight . Don't know why , just had a wave over take me .
I shall be better in the morning .

(((hugs topsy))) - sleep tight lovey, tomorrow's a new day. xx

good morning...hope you are feeling cheerier today topsy
Is it rads planning today amber or am I confused ?

Morning All

Very little sleep last night , but don't have to be anywhere or do anything today . So will catch up on the sofa later .

Feeling much cheerier this morning .
Don't know what was wrong with me last night .
Was happily playing around on the laptop , and next thing I knew I was crying !

I have individual chocolate puddings and custard .
Once the DC have gone to school I may have one for breakfast (it has orange flavouring in it , that's got to be one of my 5 a day right ?) .

Good luck for today Amber , it will be a lot of hanging around and being drawn on . But totally do-able .

Any other appointments today ?

Good Morning.

Started my new exercise regimen yesterday, also known as running for the train. Cut it a bit fine today, no time for proper breakfast or to feed the cat! I'm sure cat will persuade dd to feed him later.

Woken up with a bit of a cold which I could do without. Have remebered my knitting bag, so maybeI can do a bit on the train back from rads. This train is squashed with people standing so its staying put for now :)

waves to Topsy.