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can you believe it ??!!

Great news 14k and Dee 14k, looks like you'll be through everything life's thrown at you recently in 3 weeks, which is great news.

1in8, big hugs to you.

Topsy, somehow have acquired a strange feeling that I NEED new, especially frivolous shoes. You are a bad influence .... I'm thinking raspberry red velvet

I was going to bed , but a strange presence drew me back to the laptop .
And what should I find ? Butterflies you are a very naughty girl ...

And cat , stop showing off that someone sent you flowers ! not jealous at all that I had to buy my own from Tesco

Gah! Topsy, I'm being punished for leading you astray - Topshop's free international shipping doesn't include my country ... raspberry shoes are still on the wish list!!!!

Morning all. Thanks for all your kind comments. Took my supper to bed early last night and fully expected to read a book but fell straight asleep. Woke up when dh came to bed at 2.30 and again at 5.30 when dd gave cat breakfast. I've now got up to let cat out!
Thought I was ok but already weepy - aargh. Going to have to exercise today, even though I feel crap. Stupid thing is, I know a few lengths of the pool would do the trick and that would be so easy! Not sure I want to get the bike out this wet cold morning... It may have to be the gym!

And I think I WILL go to the pub tonight - it's sort of on the way home from rads... Does beer mix with rads, anyone know?

jane go for it - re the pub ! Beer mixes with everything . You are probably feeling weepy becasue of the relief . You need to take time to allow it to sink in . And allow yourself to be happy !

Oh dear butterflies , how much is international shipping on the beautiful raspberry velvet shoes ? Maybe I should buy them and wear them for you < evil grin emoticon >

I am up stupidly early today . Had another really vivid and horrible dream .
Dreamt that I woke up at 1am because I could hear pig/dog barking . I came downstairs and let him out . He ran straight out and found an escaped prisoner in our garden , the prisoner picked up a large tree branch and stabbed pig/dog in the chest with it .
The rest of the dream was about not being able to find a vet to come out as an emergency , our vet had gone out of business , couldn't get any other local vets to respond etc .
Was just awful . Ended up coming downstairs at 6am and waking up a very confused pig/dog to give him a hug !!!
Will be so glad when these damn steroids are out of my system and my dreams calm down ...

oh yes, beer is fine, absolutely.
Those velvet shoes are adorable ! I could never walk in them but could admire and stroke lovingly.

Sadly they don't ship here at all. There is a Topshop in town but it's expensive compared to the UK and they don't often have up to date stock - might just have to take a look tomorrow.

Jane, beer mixes with everything. Can you put loud music on and go for a blustery walk?

I need shoe training !! Am feeling inadequate.

Topsy horrible dream. You're right, steroids are a bugger. Bet PigDog liked the hug though.

l4k, didn't realise you had an op on the horizon. Hope you're not too daunted by it all.

Jane, you need the pub, beer's on the list of things that helps.

Cat, sounds like I have the same relationship with ironing as you.

Kurri, hope you're okay today and no more sickness. How's the hand feeling? Is it working??

Hope everyone else is good. Cold, grey and wet here. Trick or treat remains are calling me from the cupboard. Is 9.20am too early for a mini milky way?

I really must get some music sorted out. I'm ashamed to say that I'm of the walkman generation and haven't managed to sort out mp3 music for travelling yet... I don't think the internet radio would work out of doors. In the car I tend to listen to radio 4!

Love velvet especially that colour. Used to have a velvet mill down the road and I bought loads of end bits for pennies at the Mill Shop. Have a jacket and hat in that colour I made years ago. Mill moved production to U S A and to add insult to injury they have demolished the mill this year. Good job I bought far too much, really - have a stockpile sufficient for several hundred patchwork cushions...

Hi Smee it's never too early for chocolate :)

Yes to beer and the pub jane - in fact yes to anything that makes you feel better. I know its miserable when you're going through it, but I do think that crying is physically beneficial (doesn't it release endorphins or something? ) so probably your body trying to make you feel better.

I could not walk in those shoes either, I would just fall over - like a short fat Naomi Campbell But they are v.pretty, - how sad they don't deliver butterflies, - you will have to treat yourself to some shoes to get over the disappointment

topsy - those dreams are exhausting - I used to get them too, they are always about endless obstacles and insurmountable problems, v.odd. I can imagine pig-dog's surprised face as you hugged him I took a really sweet photo of little old lady dog, I'll try to put it up later today.

Waves to MAS - busy day ahead?

My wrist is all red and swollen, and v.painful - I'm hoping that's normal

x-posted Smee, - its never too early for a milky way, they are one of the four main food groups.

Wet and grey here too, I've put the heating on and am cuddling a cup of tea -more in the pot if anyone fancies a brew.

Oh and sickness has gone today - It has just dawned on me that it is stress sickness - with all the worry about dad, - so normal for me, I am a thrower upper by nature

ow,poor kk
butterflies I could order the shoes and post them to you,would that be an idea ? (and could stroke them for a bit first)
Am doing my dull bit of cleaning/dust redistribution,then working on roughs for some pictures - I have 4 lined up to do-family trees-I hope I don't get muddled with family members.

I have a large tin of roses , if you are quick you might just be able to snag one . As long as no one touches the strawberry or orange creams ...

If milky ways are one of the four main food groups, what are the others? Am v. much looking forward to eating them.

Sorry your wrist's so painful, Kurri. Could you phone surgery and ask them to check with Dr. You wouldn't need an appointment.

MAS, I still would v.much like you to do a family tree for my parents. Is that okay? If so I will sort photos.

Nooooooooo !!!

Smee - they are cake, biscuits, and wine - didn't you do 'o' level biology? tsk.

Ooh roses, hazelnut whirly thing please topsy.

Jane - beer is fine with reads so long as it isn't much - you need to be very hydrated so anything that dehydrates isn't good. But a bit is fine.

great news dee and 14K WOOHOO!!!!!

1in8 - not so good. But you will get through it and come out the other side absolutely fine. And we can help you through.

love to everyone: work going mad at the mo'......xxxx

, though Kurri, I like!! Must have slept through that lesson.

How's your dad today? Any news?

Cakes, hope work isn't too insane. Mine is too, but am failing to do it, so wittering on about chocolate.

any of the Roses will do for me- slobber.
cakes is being responsible - beer in moderation-plenty of water to keep up hydration
smee - yes of course- will need a few snippets of info to add to picture as well as photo ref,and people's names !

Snippets. Hmmm, so: 'SIL is way too snooty and a complete mare?' Is that the sort of thing you mean, mas?