hello... feeling very :( today. Went to see the GP yesterday who referred me to the local Sexual Health clinic, due to pain with sex and pain in general basically everywhere downstairs. DS is 13mo and I've managed about, um 4 attempts to DTD - all called off in pain bar one, when I was blotto.
After my examination they have referred me to see a surgeon in 2 weeks for a possible Fentons. They are concerned because apparently, I have a very noticeable scar all the way up inside, but at the top (I can't explain very clearly yet as I'm not sure what it means) there is an extremely painful place that hasn't been stitched. May have been missed when original stitches went in? Is that possible? What does that even mean, am I still 'open' inside?? I feel a bit sick and upset and very scared of the possibility of surgery.
Wanted to ttc again, I just can't bear the thought of another birth. I don't know what I expected the doc to say but this is way more scary than, IDK, thrush!! STILL have anal fissures too. Does this pain ever just get better?? I am so angry about the forceps delivery, it just goes on and on and on... I never wanted to have it, and begged for a c-section instead. I know it's a bit off topic, but its really upsetting me. If I ever get back in the sack, and conceive again, is all this grounds for an elc next time? If it isn't, frankly I don't think I could face getting pregnant again.
Sorry for thread splurge. Just really sad and angry and scared right now.