Blinded by the LIGHTer ladies!

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Hello

Welcome to our thread all about cake cheese and chcolate healthy eating. Well, on a good day!

I'm Mouse, I have the weight of a huge Camenburg to lose but have lost lots already thanks to the support of this thread and the lovely LIGHTer ladies!

No rules, no clique, just us!!

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Can I say I understand Desire? I hope you find a key to dealing with it and moving on. I am surprised at how long it is taking but getting there slowly x

Thanks Mitrezz, what I mean is that due to a compilation of life events, cold parents, emotionally and verbally abusive ex husband etc etc I have suppressed my "feelings" for the best part of 40 years and always kept "good side out" and maybe resentful better describes how I feel about all shit I have been through. Am I making sense [hhmm]

Sorry Mittrezz just realised you said you did understand, at first glance I thought you said you didn't [hblush]

Thanks Double, it feels good to finally confront it, admitting how you honestly feel lifts a weight from you, have a good feeling about my counselling, onwards and upwards:):)

morning mittz and double.

double - yeah i think i did - got over 7 hours. will try for another good sleep tonight. glad you got one (boomtish)

yes, think i do understand desire. i find anger confusing probably because i'm a repressor too when it comes to that emotion and i think i tend to cry rather than let it out - probably the strain of repressing it and the fear of it. fuckwit here

god this is weird.

recorded 3 in a bed last night on living as quite like it. If you hit 'i' on it it says '3 bandb owners blah blah blah' but i'm watching it now and its actually about 3 in a bed sexually!

How weird is that??

morning! x

morning. another repressor here- get where you are coming from - suspect it's a classic female pattern to turn inwards rather than outwards with anger.

brian - write in to sky tell them you are outraged as a mother (as a mother is v. important in disgusted of tunbridge wells stylee) that your child could have been exposed to 3 in a bed sexual filth and depravity had you put the programme on earlier in the day - maybe you can twist sky's arm in letting dee off her sky bill

at managing to record a show about threesomes brian. morning.

like your thinking tc - morning.

at 'stinking boner' EW EW EW!!!

I am in counselling Desire... small steps xx I am like SaF, not good with anger on any level. It makes me malfunction. Kick Boxing has given it a physical focus and is a lot of fun.

at 'as a mother

i was irrationally angry yesterday at some craft book that said 'this is the perfect gift for mothers busy in the kitchen' what about bloody fathers?????

DP keeps laughing at the image of 'Single Dad' and his cape

prays for dub's grant money, we can't have her going without sky, arf.

glad we amused him brian

Hello lovelies [hsmile]

How are we all?

Brian - I saw straight through that lie about the porn, we're your friends, you don't have to fib with us!! [hgrin]

Dubs - I loves you MORE! Enjoy your trip, I'll check your pockets later! Mwah xx

WIF - how are you? Settled anymore? I'm still listing and shaky..... a week tomorrow since the increase.

TC - hello you [hsmile]

Bitter - are you working today?

Desire - well done on the loss.

Mittz - glad you are having fun with your phone! [hgrin]

It's freezing here. Bbbrrrrr. One downside of being surrounded by open fields. All frosty and sunny.

Nemo's nurse is coming today so we're going talk about his reflux coming back. He has lost every feed for the last few days and it's getting to me now. I can't imagine how he feels. [hsad]

What's everyone up to?

Mouse about Nemo.... at least he will feel much , much loved poor mite. It is so harrowing.

I am wearing a dress. Frozen but swishy. Hair a la Zoe Wanamaker in early series of My Family..

DD is off sick and is soooo cute when she is ill. (as always but very snuggly). Had to go to the shop and she has jogging bottoms, stripy socks, grey polo neck, furry cardi and dress up high heels [hgrin].. don't know where she gets her sense of style from .

Ah, poor DD Mittz!

Great dress sense though! [hgrin] Hope she feels better soon. I used to love DD being off school and snuggling on the sofa. A day of DVDs and snuggles.

Fab.

Hello Lovelies.

DH let me sleep all morning.

Feeling quite rested and have fab glowy skin, courtesy of Saf's wonder serum.

Sorry about DD Mittz but your description of her made me

Mouse, good luck with the nurse.

Brian, only you could accidently record porn.

Double, have fun on your school trip. Do you need a pound to buy some sweeties and a pencil?

Desire, no experience of what you are going through but sounds like you are working through your feelings.

TC, @ 'as a mother'.

I dreamed about eating last night. Bizarre, a whole dream of me mundanely eating various foodstuffs.

Where are you all?

Nemo's nurse has just gone. She's really worried about me. She said she's never seen me so flat. And she can't believe that we have no help either.

I've just been left to get on with it. The only support we now have is her every few weeks and on the end of the phone too.

Oh well, time to pull up my big girl pants and get on with it. [hsmile]

No Mouse, time to pull up your outraged mother pants and demand the help that you need.

Is there no one who can fight your corner from a professional standpoint?

It's no wonder you are flat, you have been running on empty for far too long with far too little support.

I am so on your behalf.

And we are all worried about you.

Thank you Bitter. And thanks for calling me, you are lovely. [hsmile]xx

We have looked at all the options but it really is a case of there is nothing anyone can do. I've just got to ride it out.

With respite Nemo isn't disabled enough to qualify for residential care or even a day in a centre.

So I have to rely on friends and family. And that's not easy as our family lives so far away and our friends are scattered all over the UK and most have their own lives and families to care for.

I'll be fine. I just need him to have a day of not vomiting so I can get back on track. I'm just constantly feeding him so we are pretty much housebound again.

Right, less of this whinging. Lunch and Jezza!!

Oh Mouse Everything Bitter said. You have my every sympathy and once again, I wish I was close enough to give you some respite, even if it was cleaning for you cos I would be a stranger to Nemo.

The biggest hugs and supportive vibes precious lady, xx

Thank you Mittz xx

Mouse - feel very and for you. Just seems madness that there's no way of getting any help.

I don't think we're that far away, an hour maybe? Could always come over on a friday pm or weekend to take him out for a walk if you think he'd go with me? Rest of the week I can't get there as I don't drive.

Actually just bring him round and drop him off here for a week, as dp is up with mole all night i dont think he'd mind two rather than one! xx