The New Festive Christmas PUDDLE,

[ShakySingsMerryXmasEveryone]

Here we are, a lovely shiny, new thread just in time for Xmas.

I'm feeling shitty so am going to hide in here for a bit.

I am feeling overwhelmed and disappointed in myself and a bit of a failure in general.

Hello all, thought I would drop in. Hope no one minds.

Showtunes You should never think of yourself as a failure

Am I too late for cake? And a buffet?

I think you are pickled

Ahem. I have a sign hung up in my kitchen that says: Food served 'til we close. And as I NEVER close, I can currently offer; lemon drizzle cake, sticky toffee pudding, fresh baked bread with crab pate and strawberry daiquiris.

If you would like something more substantial, please just say so. I can whip up tiger prawns with oyster mushrooms and linguine in about 15 mins.

Do you have amaretto and coke?

Mmm, only have JD, Rum, Vodka, a nice Marlborough Sauvignon Blanc and brandy. Available mixers: cranberry, cranberry and raspberry, strawberry smoothie, orange juice.

Oh and some Crabbies and Belgian cherry beer.

Put them all in a fruit bowl, stick a straw in it and i will ne happy

Ah good old Punch Surprise. The not so subtle surprise being a hangover that feels like you're being repeatedly punched in the head.

That's when you wake up after sleeping through a few days after drinking it

Morning all.

What's up show ((((hugs))))

I'm feeling sorry for myself, scuse the TMI dd has been comfort feeding/sucking too often as I've been to tired to do anything else and now one boob is agony! Woke up this morning with a blood blister on my nipple, popped it and feel much better but christ feeding her that side hurts so bad, I'm considering FF, which would be a bloody crying shame when she feeds so well is gaining weight and one side is a doddle to feed on.

Morning all.

Hugs to those who need them and one to me.

Four days until I see my GP and my referrals to dermo and ortho. Need a new knee and a mole checked. Happy New year to me, I guess...

State, the pain will pass really quickly. I had a milk bleb on my nipple and that bloody hurt but once I'd popped it, it was fine within 24 hours. If there's a blood blister on one side, it might mean that the latch isn't quite right just on that side?

I am just feeling shitty. I can't remember who I am anymore and I suspect I'm being a PITA to live with. I need to decide what I want to do with my life / career and I really don't know anymore. Having a baby kind of sucked the vanity and ambition out of me.

Morning all! Am posting from the Dr's waiting to be seen as asthma has gone a bit mad!! DP stayed over last night, we had competitive wheezing and I won!!

showy I felt like that for a while , thing is I didn't click i needed to do something about it until ds hit 3 . I had confidence issues, problems with large groups of people, completely forgot who I was as a person not a mum! I gave up everything I loved (horse, money, social life, some friends ) apart from dh to have ds. I don't regret a second but its tough to try and adjust.

I think its great that you have identified whats wrong. Sit down and take some time to really decide where you want to go! Can you talk things out with someone?

(((BIG HUGS))) to everyone else! :)

I've done nothing but talk about it and I think DH is now sick of it.

The thing is before I fell pregnant, I was already considering changing my career path and before I could really think about it and decide, along came DD and I haven't really had time to deal with it all.

We're also really feeling the lack of support at the moment as my parents are abroad and his parents are on the other side of the country but to be absolutely frank, they've been pretty useless and barely even visited. It's kind of upsetting as DH is really going to be the only one that is going to be giving them DGC and they just seem not that interested. OR when they want to Skype, they will do it just before DD's bedtime and I have to tell them time and again not to do that as it's the wrong time. It just feels like they want it all on their terms.

For DD's first birthday, her GD so DH's Dad just sent a couple of soft toys and that was it. He didn't even call. What makes it even worse is that DD's birthday is the same day as DH's....

Oh show (((hugs))) I can totally relate to that, I fell pregnant with ds young when I just decided what I was doing with my life, I found my feet as a Mum and started socialising and then dd arrived and totally shook my world, I've just kind of drifted ever since, and as for family well! The less said about the ils at times the better especially wrt birthdays and christmas, and my Mum has a 7 and 4yo of her own so she can't really do Grandma stuff although she does try it still frustrates me.

Also tmi warning again I think it may have been what you described not a blood blister as it was smack bang in the middle of my nipple, it bloody hurt but its felt far better since I popped itn,I'm a bit sore but not I could scream and levitate it hurts so bad! Also little miss has had a good sleep and good feed the other side so its had a chance to recover with some lansinoh. And when she fed that side this morning it gradually got more bearable. So fingers crossed.

Hope your ok giraffes :) I'm loling at competitive wheezing!

Dp brought me a kindle, just a basic one but I LOVE it

I hope you can get through it State. I've felt very much the same, Ds2 is doing so well, putting on so much weight, but feeding is often agony. We're over the worst of it I hope, but I still have nasty cracks that bleed and it's painful to feed off that boob. I just hope the tt procedure will help. We're having to jump through hoops insurance wise, so we still haven't got it sorted.

Get some help from an expert, because it could be something easy to sort and you can carry on feeding pain free!

Show.

Hope your drs appointments go well, giraffes and Tee.

Its much better this evening dreamy so I'm hoping that's the end of it, if not I will be getting advice I'd hate to give up. But crikey it was SO bad thos morning

Anyone see miranda on room 101? She wanted to put her breasts in

Glad your feeling better State!

How is everyone else?

I have also been to the docs today. Booked in for a blood test next week to find out whats wrong, aparently she wants to test for everything and I have to do a poo sample . Heres the best bit - she told me to keep it in the fridge

Niiiice, but needs must and hopefully you get some answers!

Lilys barely been awake all day, bad night ahead for me!

Glad you're feeling better too, State. Good luck with tonight, and with the doctors' appointments, Tee and Dreamy.

Has anybody NOT checked in on Honey's census thread?

So what does one do when one is wide awake and it's early hours?

BUDGET, BUDGET, BUDGET!

I have worked out my incomings and outgoings (including mat leave) until May. That is very good for me!

My budget sheet is a thing of beauty (if not very sad with the amount coming in vs amount going out )

Have to say, I feel relieved as I had been worrying about it and hiding from it.

I just have to make sure that I use the sheet and am careful with my spending (not ignore the sheet and use my card willy-nilly as I have done for most of Nov/Dec )

Ok, it's 2.11am and I don't think I have been up this late since.........probably June! Time for bed.

Hope all who needed hugs through the day are feeling better now.

Bonkey - as for poo in the fridge, bleurgh don't know if I could ever clean my fridge enough after that (even if it was double bagged and double carton'd)

Brian It will not be going in my fridge! If it needs to be done then it needs to be done but no fecking way am I putting it in the fridge next to my food I will find a way

I need to do our budgets but it scares me , one of those things that must be done! Good on you for sorting it!

I have just got back from a 3 hour long party - 3 hours!!!!!