Please, please help me

[HypotheticalMummy]

I need help. I found out I was pregnant about a month ago, and for the first couple of weeks I was thrilled but suddenly depression has started to creep in and destroy everything. I have started to feel like I don't love my DP, and I don't want this baby and that I want to die - that I just want to kill myself. I am desperate and I am in pain and I need help.

Please can anyone tell me if they went through something similar in their pregnancy and got over it? Or should I start thinking about an abortion. I wanted this baby so much, it was planned, so I hope this is just the depression.

I have a history of depression and had to come off my antidepressants when we started trying for a baby. Please help me.

I went to the GP and after a considerable amount of hoooing and haaaring she prescribed me Sertraline, something I've never been on before. I shouldn't have worried about failing to convince her though - I was in tears within seconds of the doctors door shutting behind me. I don't feel great, I don't really feel anything right now - but hopefully life will start improving. It feels hard to envisage.

HM, I'm so pleased that you have finally got over that first hurdle. Hopefully this will make some difference. I know it'll take sometime to kick in but you at least know you are now doing something to make yourself feel better. Just keep holding on to the fact that you just need to get through the next couple of weeks. They might start working sooner. So now just hold on.

You don't need to imagine how it will feel better, because soon you will feel it. For now, if all you can manage is getting up, getting dressed, going to work, doing it all on automatic, coming home, eating dinner and going to bed, then that is enough. That's all you NEED to do. So don't be hard on yourself. You have done amazingly, you have protected yourself and your baby from a horrible illness that has wanted to destroy you both. You have been strong. When everything inside you said to give up you kept going. And that takes an immense effort of will.

I know you don't feel it. You feel rubbish. You feel weak. But you're wrong! You are unbelievably strong and things will get better. Not by chance, not because you hoped they would, but because you went out and did something about it!

I think you're incredible

HM I hope you're not posting because you are feeling better and don't need any more support. If you do need to talk more then please do come back anytime

I hope the sertraline is starting to work now. How's the job going HM?