Will anyone ever understand me and will I ever be free of this pain?

[AloneInTheWord]

Talking makes it worse but it comes back to hurt me again and again.

What do you do when you have problems but talking makes it worse, I can feel myself going down and down, but then it is bubbling under the surface.

Can't even type my username right.

Well, this is difficult as I am not telepathic, so what to do? Aloneintheworld, who brought you up? Friends from school?

Why do you feel alone? There are billions of us...if you don't have family, adopt one!

bluh bluh bluh...Gimmie a clue!

When you say bubbling under the surface, what does that feel like?

AloneInThe World can you tell us a little more about what is going on? it is difficult to say anything sensible about your post.