Hi there,
I'm depressed, but a lot better than I have been!
I used (when I was in my 20s) to have panic attacks a lot but I got in control of them and haven't had one for years. I had a stressful teaching job, then 3 children, suffered pnd, variety of issues and never once felt that loss of control - until this morning!
I was doing a "child exchange" - as in swapping my dd1 for my friends dd2 for the day so little sisters could play together and big sisters at the other house (its an in-service here today). I had to walk to the station (10 mins), with my dd1, ds and dd2, get the train into town (8 mins), swap kids, get back on the train and walk home with my ds, dd2 and friends dd2.
In the station I had a massive hyperventilation fit just after my friend had left. I had to swiftly give the children a doughnut (I had just bought them for an afternoon treat) and then sit and breathe into my hands for 5 minutes till I got under control.
Then I came home and am now shaking but controlled.
I have no idea what triggered it and am feeling quite thrown.
Please come and tell me it will be ok!